Zeus35
Specialist
- Apr 4, 2022
- 323
Hello everyone,
I have been failed so much throughout my life with the domestic violence at the hands of my biological family. I can't live anymore. Recently my adress was handed out without my consent. I warned the person not to do it and why. They still did it. I've decided that I am so tired of the idea of being found and then moving again. That the only real way to escape is to end my life. My death certificate will say suicide. The real cause will be PTSD and serious failings by the certain professionals in relation to safeguarding me from my own biological family, especially one elder sibling with a history of sexually abusing me (18) years older than me. The one who's threaten me into denying they'd molested me. Then harassed and stalked me and got away with it for over a year until they were cautioned. I can't do this anymore. I can't live this life. It has caused me so much sadness and grief. If I could be free and know that my own child molester would stop hunting me down, would leave me alone, then I'd live. Although the malignant narcissist, psychopath, pathological liar will never do that. I'm supposed to be in court with the POS on 8th July. Enough is enough. I can't do this anymore. Thank you all so very much for speaking to me when I've suffered. Today is my day. You won't ever hear from me again. I'm so sick and tired. Please don't encourage me to live or anything. I'm starting of the process in a few minutes after going to the toilet and then sending scheduled emails. I can't live this life anymore. I am tired. My biological family caused this, one in particular. I'm 21, I didn't have a childhood and now I won't have a future. I can't fight anymore against a system designed to protect abusers and not victims of domestic abuse, stalking, harassment or domestic violence. I haven't got the energy anymore. I can't do this. I've been crying since the day before yesterday now. No one could ever truly understand how frightened and on edge I am. It's my time to go. Just remember whatever you do, your all brave and amazing. Don't let anyone dull your sparkle. Because once your spark is gone, it might be gone forever. I wish I could have stayed longer on earth but I couldn't. I could never be safeguarded or truly at peace here. I won't be the first or the last to kill myself over serious failings to safeguard me. Abusers push their victims to their deaths and I am sure the prime one will use my death for more attention. The malignant narcissist, psychopath, pathological liar and master manipulator. Bye everyone. I haven't eaten or drunk on hours I'm doing the hour one. I can't wait two days. Its too much. My only question for all those who failed me. Why?
I have been failed so much throughout my life with the domestic violence at the hands of my biological family. I can't live anymore. Recently my adress was handed out without my consent. I warned the person not to do it and why. They still did it. I've decided that I am so tired of the idea of being found and then moving again. That the only real way to escape is to end my life. My death certificate will say suicide. The real cause will be PTSD and serious failings by the certain professionals in relation to safeguarding me from my own biological family, especially one elder sibling with a history of sexually abusing me (18) years older than me. The one who's threaten me into denying they'd molested me. Then harassed and stalked me and got away with it for over a year until they were cautioned. I can't do this anymore. I can't live this life. It has caused me so much sadness and grief. If I could be free and know that my own child molester would stop hunting me down, would leave me alone, then I'd live. Although the malignant narcissist, psychopath, pathological liar will never do that. I'm supposed to be in court with the POS on 8th July. Enough is enough. I can't do this anymore. Thank you all so very much for speaking to me when I've suffered. Today is my day. You won't ever hear from me again. I'm so sick and tired. Please don't encourage me to live or anything. I'm starting of the process in a few minutes after going to the toilet and then sending scheduled emails. I can't live this life anymore. I am tired. My biological family caused this, one in particular. I'm 21, I didn't have a childhood and now I won't have a future. I can't fight anymore against a system designed to protect abusers and not victims of domestic abuse, stalking, harassment or domestic violence. I haven't got the energy anymore. I can't do this. I've been crying since the day before yesterday now. No one could ever truly understand how frightened and on edge I am. It's my time to go. Just remember whatever you do, your all brave and amazing. Don't let anyone dull your sparkle. Because once your spark is gone, it might be gone forever. I wish I could have stayed longer on earth but I couldn't. I could never be safeguarded or truly at peace here. I won't be the first or the last to kill myself over serious failings to safeguard me. Abusers push their victims to their deaths and I am sure the prime one will use my death for more attention. The malignant narcissist, psychopath, pathological liar and master manipulator. Bye everyone. I haven't eaten or drunk on hours I'm doing the hour one. I can't wait two days. Its too much. My only question for all those who failed me. Why?
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