I'm getting desperate

[56709]

I'm getting desperate to ctb but I don't have a way of getting there...

I'm stuck in my mom's house and can't purchase anything, can't find work(can't even get an interview for Walmart), have no government assistance, and can't drive anywhere.

The only method I have available to me is hanging with no anesthesia or sedatives, and I'd have to resort to doing it outside somewhere (it's 34° degrees).

My family doesn't need the exposure that it would bring, even if I were to plan and excute it perfectly. They may very well lose the property if it's investigated.

 

[reapandsow918]

I'm in a similar situation as you except I have the law breathing behind my back. Plus doctors and other workers making sure I'm alright. All they want to do is control you and prevent you from killing yourself. They're ignorant over the fact that people are suffering here. Either from mental illness or physical disabilities. I can't raise suspicion in this situation or they will throw me back into a psych ward.

My solution is to wait for my opportunity to come (which is to wait till I move out). You could also get a PO Box and order your meto and SN from there.

 

[Weakling666]

I know it can be discerning to know if you wanted to go you couldn't. Apologies.

Have you considered finding a height to jump from if you're able? I can't recommend many methods as without access to sedatives the SI would be too great.

 

[friendly99]

I feel for you because I am in a similar position