Help I'm feeling bad again cause of no touch issues

[cemeteryismyhome]

Sex is overrated. There are better things to do with that much money.

 

[Adûnâi]

Sex is overrated. There are better things to do with that much money.

Oh, like what? Any suggestions? Don't suggest anything illegal such as buying drones to kill presidents because I'm too autistic for that. The only things I have thought up were:
1) robowaifu;
2) spend on gacha games;
3) conduct a Warcraft 3 tournament to etch my name into eternity.

 

[penguinl0v3s]

Thanks! But my mom says psychologists could help with getting a gf, whereas I don't see anything relevant about it online?

Well, women like certain personality traits that indicate being healthy. Or something unhealthy, if they have problems. Social skills is a big part of that, because if you speak to someone other than your mother you can learn quickly on how it is like to interact with another person.

Thanks! But here, I simply have no idea how to talk. I can't be "chatting in discord servers", I don't know how to. It's all pointless genchat that's scaring and befuddling me away.

Maybe you could just observe how people normally talk and then adapt to it? People are just talking for the sake of casual conversation.

 

[Unbearable Mr. Bear]

Oh, like what? Any suggestions? Don't suggest anything illegal such as buying drones to kill presidents because I'm too autistic for that. The only things I have thought up were:
1) robowaifu;
2) spend on gacha games;
3) conduct a Warcraft 3 tournament to etch my name into eternity.

You can send me the money! I can't really think of a better way to spend it.

 

[Adûnâi]

Well, women like certain personality traits that indicate being healthy. Or something unhealthy, if they have problems.

Oh wow, you responded, huge. Aren't personalities largely genetic, however? Isn't changing one's personality as difficult as changing the cheekbones? (Not sure either way, just voicing ideas.) Of course, it's another question as to whether I would even undergo a plastic surgery if given a chance - the idea is arguably humiliating (and in a non-kinky way). Of course, a Castaneda-style magician should treat everything as a resource, but meh. And that's without touching on the idea that some males reject the notion of facial attractiveness as true love to begin with (not sure if I'd count myself among them though, lmao).

...As a teen, I felt psychologically old (not sure about maturity though), but now that I'm older, I could admit that I feel my soul to be youthful - which I could illustrate by my daydreams of robowaifus or reincarnating as a hot stacy, or mutual genocides, or indeed just playing HotS all day (two 4-hour sessions yesterday, am I a gaymur once again confirmed??).

In other news, I've finally run of pancakes, so now starting consuming the frozen rice my mom cooked a month ago.

In other news, I have achieved controlled and for the first time intentional flight in a lucid dream! It was 2 days ago, since then I've slept too much to do it. I even restored the lucid dream after an interruption, which basically never works for me (aside from another episode a few months ago).

You can send me the money! I can't really think of a better way to spend it.

Oh, apologies for not writing to you these days (HotS), but if I were to talk to you, I'd like to hear your ideas regarding socialisation. As I've never done it (cannot do it in the foreseeable future either due to the gynocratic house arrest), and have very little idea of what it even means. I would be interested in your ideas regarding the place and intent of such socialisations.

 

[penguinl0v3s]

Oh wow, you responded, huge. Aren't personalities largely genetic, however? Isn't changing one's personality as difficult as changing the cheekbones?

Personality is 30-60% heritable when they studied teens (Nature). This leaves 40-70% that isn't, which is a whole half. Which doesn't sound like a lot, but it is a lot. I'm completely different from my happy extrovert sibling who likes to be airheaded and bubbly. I'm studious and quiet and introverted, really nothing like her. Even though we both have autism, we are nothing alike. Also I'd imagine as you age, this % becomes less and less naturally since you have more and more exposure to an environment.

 

[Adûnâi]

This leaves 40-70% that isn't, which is a whole half. Which doesn't sound like a lot, but it is a lot. I'm completely different from my happy extrovert sibling who likes to be airheaded and bubbly. I'm studious and quiet and introverted, really nothing like her.

Don't siblings still have different gene sets? There's something about the Mendelian inheritance with traits such as blue/brown eyes.

Also I'd imagine as you age, this % becomes less and less naturally since you have more and more exposure to an environment.

That might be true, but don't forget about genetic traits which activate based on age (the clearest example being sexual maturity, but one could imagine other things, too; hell, my preoccupation with sex at 25+ could be an echo of that, who knows; Russians have a saying, "grey in the beard, imp in the rib").

 

[Adûnâi]

Today the weather has grown hot for the first time in a month, and I'm feeling somewhat bad. Have been lying in bed listening to Iran slop or WW2 slop. Yesterday I gave 6 EUR to a girl to buy a random Steam game (I had like 20 in bank and barely spent in a month, so it's whatever). But today I'm again depressed because no sex.

From Zoomer Historian, I remembered Redeemed Zoomer, watched his video on cults, googled the Moonie cult in the Ukraine, only to confirm that Asian waifu cult has no presence in the Ukraine => back to depression (I'm under a house arrest so it's irrelevant but still).

Called my mom, she suggested giving me more money, but it's not like I'm spending it anyway. Maybe I could go back to Eternal Return or something. There's a new patch in Warcraft 3 but it's tiny (although cute, Anim[at]e Dead corpses retaining their abilities for the first time since 2002 as it was supposed to be, my old gripe resolved).

 

[Adûnâi]

These days have been fairly curious and largely uneventful. YouTube broke for a day globally and showed only the latest 60 videos, but normies barely noticed because they are "fed" via the "feed" feature. On the topic - while in 2023 I was thinking of joining a cult, now I'm thinking of joining a blackmail community to be used and thus "touched". So far, I've done nothing, but I wonder if doing anything at all would be preferable, haha.

Right now I'm wondering how long it would take, with the current demographic situation, until stupid people blow up ancient heritage sights in the wilderness, be it the stone age caves or the Behistun inscription in Iran. Juche Koreans tend to put giant words on their mountains which Lankov considers hideous - although I'd argue that words are rarer than mountains.

Also wondering about if we all are gonna live forever, so things at this point might be referenced centuries into the future. Imagine.

Also, I've seen a Hitler monologue in the end scene of a Russian movie by a famed Armenian filmmaker - I used to listen to him talk, but never watched any of his movies, so that was a pleasant surprise that I recognised his name.

I've also reblogged one fairly unhinged gynarchy fantasy (or real child abuse?) account from Reddit. People say incels talk about violent things, so it's nice to see some unhinged anti-male things (yes, I do enjoy reading "both" sides, I'm weird).

I've also discovered really nice YouTube channels about history! Historically, Serious History, Classical Numismatics. And watched a video by Invicta about a Roman outpost in the islands off the coast of Saudi Arabia.