Im embarrassed and i hate myself

[jawdropped123]

I lost my job about a month ago. I had a great job. My job was calculating how much materials i needed to build a house. I wasnt smart enough so im jobless now. I got a job as a housekeeper at a hotel and im extremely embarrassed. When i got my first job i was so proud of myself that i told everyone and now im so embarrassed that i cant even tell my own mother that i lost my job. I have no dreams. I dont know what i want in life and i dont know what im good at. Mind you im 21 :( . Working as a housekeeper would be so bad because i have a gagging and pukking situation. I cant stand other peoples bodily fluids. I puke if someone else pukes. If someone spit i feel extremely disgusted. I can barely eat when im on the train because i know how dirty they are. And now i have to clean bedsheets filled with sperm and dirty bathroom :(

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm a housekeeper too, but I work in a doctor's office so I have to deal with blood on top of all the other nasty stuff you mentioned earlier, so I know how you feel about that. It's definitely not a pleasant job and I'm sorry that you lost the one you had before, because you were so happy doing it.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

I lost my job about a month ago. I had a great job. My job was calculating how much materials i needed to build a house.

So you have knowledge of building materials. Could you get a job at a building supply place like Home Depot, doing sales, stocking or working at the installations desk?

 

[jawdropped123]

So you have knowledge of building materials. Could you get a job at a building supply place like Home Depot, doing sales, stocking or working at the installations desk?

I dont have the right social skills for sales/costumer service. I tried and i got mocked at the interview for my lack of social skills and my bad anxiety. The interviewer brought one of his colleagues in the interview just so they can mock me together..

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

I dont have the right social skills for sales/costumer service. I tried and i got mocked at the interview for my lack of social skills and my bad anxiety. The interviewer brought one of his colleagues in the interview just so they can mock me together..

Wow, that's brutal. Thank goodness you didn't get a job working for them!

Are there other companies where you live that would hire for an estimating job? Maybe the first company just wasn't a good fit.

 

[jawdropped123]

Wow, that's brutal. Thank goodness you didn't get a job working for them!

Are there other companies where you live that would hire for an estimating job? Maybe the first company just wasn't a good fit.

The thing is i did get the job but i never went because of how they treated me. Their is other job that i can apply to but for now im going to do this cleaning job until im mentally prepared for something new

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

The thing is i did get the job but i never went because of how they treated me.

Good for you. No point signing up to suffer and be shit on from day 1.

Their is other job that i can apply to but for now im going to do this cleaning job until im mentally prepared for something new

I hope it turns out to be less awful than you think it will. If it turns out to be just as awful, hopefully there will be a MUCH better job waiting for you.

 

[Flying Away]

I dont have the right social skills for sales/costumer service. I tried and i got mocked at the interview for my lack of social skills and my bad anxiety. The interviewer brought one of his colleagues in the interview just so they can mock me together..

That's awful and disrespectful. That's other people's shortcomings not yours

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. This life really is so depressing and I can imagine that it must be stressful and tiring what you are going through. I hope that you are able to find a job that suits you better.

 

[Flying Away]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. This life really is so depressing and I can imagine that it must be stressful and tiring what you are going through. I hope that you are able to find a job that suits you better.

You are one of the most empathetic people I have come across.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry you are in a job you hate. I can well relate. I worked in retail for 10 miserable years. Less bodily fluids but plenty of shit of a different kind. I feel sorry for people in all customer service related jobs. People treat one another so badly.

Would you be able to do an apprenticeship in your chosen career? I went back to uni aged 28- I think there are still some opportunities open at your age and if I had my time again (not that I want my time again!) I would try and go that route.

OK, your first job didn't go quite as planned but we all struggle sometimes and it doesn't necessarily mean it isn't the right career for you. Maybe it was just a bit too soon to take on so much responsibility. I always liked the sound of an apprenticeship- learning in a real environment and getting your foot in the door. I wish you all the very best.

 

[picklemick]

You have a lot of opportunities to find a job you don't hate. It takes time. This is a situation that will change. I don't advise suicide when the aggravating variable is not fixed