I'm drunk and alone-- in this mindset I could CTB so easily

[Iva]

Every thought leads me to CTB whilst in this mindstate and the crazy thin g iusd is i wont remember anty on this tomorrow

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Every thought leads me to CTB whilst in this mindstate and the crazy thin g iusd is i wont remember anty on this tomorrow

Alcohol and weed have been making me feel this way too lately. It feels like I'm more at peace with the idea of leaving than I used to be when I use them. Really hoping I can get rid of the SI with them on my last day.

 

[Iva]

Alcohol and weed have been making me feel this way too lately. It feels like I'm more at peace with the idea of leaving than I used to be when I use them. Really hoping I can get rid of the SI with them on my last day.

While in this mindstate it isnt difficult to convince myself that any of this is real. Sometimes i feel like life is just one big game that I just so happen to be a part of.

 

[novem]

Alcohol and weed have been making me feel this way too lately. It feels like I'm more at peace with the idea of leaving than I used to be when I use them. Really hoping I can get rid of the SI with them on my last day.

Did you mean alcohol OR weed?
Or you take them simultaneously?

 

[Iva]

Did you mean alcohol OR weed?
Or you take them simultaneously?

Did you mean alcohol OR weed?
Or you take them simultaneously?

both at thee same time although smoking after idrink gives me the stumbles

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Did you mean alcohol OR weed?
Or you take them simultaneously?

It's mainly the weed that does it, but the feeling is more intense when I consume it with alcohol. I'm not sure if the real cause is the weed specifically, or if it's just because I'm ready to go finally, but suicide is on my mind all day long now, even when I'm sober.

 

[plastic]

Sometimes i feel like life is just one big game that I just so happen to be a part of.

I have similar thoughts... except that I think I'm in the demo mode of that game. There are all possibilities, but when it needs to be realized, an insurmountable problem appears.

 

[WaitingToGo]

Last weekend I bought some weed (it's perfectly legal here in NL) and on the third night it didn't do anything for me except give me a feeling of bunged up lungs. The previous 2 nights it was most pleasant. The variety was called Amnesia.
i wished it (or something else) would make the cowardice disappear so I could take my pills and ctb.

 

[Iva]

Last weekend I bought some weed (it's perfectly legal here in NL) and on the third night it didn't do anything for me except give me a feeling of bunged up lungs. The previous 2 nights it was most pleasant. The variety was called Amnesia.
i wished it (or something else) would make the cowardice disappear so I could take my pills and ctb.

so cool how in your country you actually know the name of the strain you are smoking.

 

[WaitingToGo]

so cool how in your country you actually know the name of the strain you are smoking.

Because they sell different strains and it's listed on the "menu". The place I buy it is a converted barge moored in the center of town. You just need to show ID and then you can choose which strain you want. They sell bongs, cigarette papers and other stuff too. It cost me 20 Euros for 2 grams.
Its legal to sell weed here.

 

[JJMaynard97]

Every thought leads me to CTB whilst in this mindstate and the crazy thin g iusd is i wont remember anty on this tomorrow

Sorry to hear that, if there is anything you wanna chat about, then there are people here to listen. Me included. Not good your drunk and alone. Make sure you be very carfull and not let anyone hurt or take advantage of you.

 

[Iva]

Sorry to hear that, if there is anything you wanna chat about, then there are people here to listen. Me included. Not good your drunk and alone. Make sure you be very carfull and not let anyone hurt or take advantage of you.

I appreciate the love <3

Because they sell different strains and it's listed on the "menu". The place I buy it is a converted barge moored in the center of town. You just need to show ID and then you can choose which strain you want. They sell bongs, cigarette papers and other stuff too. It cost me 20 Euros for 2 grams.
Its legal to sell weed here.

Everything just seems better in the netherlands.