i'm doing testosterone and hitting the gym

[dandan]

So, yes I was kind of in almost my worst times.... feeling like I've done everything... and just couldnt get better....
so another member wrote something like " if you haven't tried kraton, Dianabol, then you haven't really tried everything"
I went with Dianabol, since its not the first time I've read/ heard about it.... also kratom... but Dianabol seemed more interesting...

After a few days taking the pill I wrote the guy who sold it to me, I just dont feel anything....
a few more days, and damm... I am not thinking about dying anymore, why? because I feel better, I'm spending time working and doing other stuff, rather than sitting and crawling, and watching my life go by....

thank you Dianabol, thank you testosterone, I am also getting a periodically testosterone shot....
yes I have visited and endocrinologist, a doctor, told him my problem, and my suicide intentions and how testosterone and Dianabol has made me feel better
and now im being monitored, blood exams were not cheap, but I only took 1 exam, and he will require me to get another exam in a few more weeks,
while keeping my dosis relatively low.

I'm good at the moment, recovering? well it has just been 20 days taking the pill, or 19, and more or less the days I have stopped fantasising about death, because I no longer "feel" like dying....

the doctor did said, this that has happened to me, is totally medically possible.
he told me this is not dangerous if monitored and doing appropriately, he told me he gives even himself some testosterone shots to hit the gym...
and he studied a speciality in hormones in Europe, I think he knows more about this than google.
he has patients who were woman and now are men, damm..

 

[mathieu]

Glad you've found something that helps. I'd really like to get fit, but I don't know if I would take steroids.

 

[InkBlot]

I have been on TRT for about 3.5 months, the difference in my mood and the like has been phenominal. Anxiety and depression gone, suicidal ideation is but a memory. Sex drive is back, I sleep better. I dont wake up and hurt anymore.

Glad you've found something that helps. I'd really like to get fit, but I don't know if I would take steroids.

Steroids are a blanket term. Testosterone Replacement Therapy is for the poor individuals like myself, who have low T in comparison to others their own age. Done by a doctor's orders, and its the same as having that kind of Test level naturally. The way I look at it, if you cant produce your own hormones, store bought is fine. Going beyond that dose, can cause issues if you abuse that dose for the long term.

 

[oldgregg187]

this is awesome! I've never thought about using test for depression, I hit the gym already and eat healthy, I'm still depressed. I'm kinda worried it'll make my hair fall out though. and finasteride has horrible side effects apparently. I'm looking into HGH too, which my be the route I take, super expensive though. thanks for sharing this info. do you have a post cycle therapy lined up ?

 

[InkBlot]

this is awesome! I've never thought about using test for depression, I hit the gym already and eat healthy, I'm still depressed. I'm kinda worried it'll make my hair fall out though. and finasteride has horrible side effects apparently. I'm looking into HGH too, which my be the route I take, super expensive though. thanks for sharing this info. do you have a post cycle therapy lined up ?

You only need PCT if you come off, I never will.

Research hairloss and T. https://mantalityhealth.com/the-complex-truth-about-testosterone-and-balding/
Its not black and white.

 

[dandan]

this is awesome! I've never thought about using test for depression, I hit the gym already and eat healthy, I'm still depressed. I'm kinda worried it'll make my hair fall out though. and finasteride has horrible side effects apparently. I'm looking into HGH too, which my be the route I take, super expensive though. thanks for sharing this info. do you have a post cycle therapy lined up ?

Yeah, if you are already hitting the gym and eating healthy you are gonna love it.
I guess, bet, and have been told that Dianabol is the one doing the feeling good trick, but after I started to feel good I knew I wouldn't want to stop this, so I went to see a hormone doctor , an endocrinologist, home are monitoring my health and test levels, well actually he says that with the low doses I'm getting I won't need another blood exam until 2 months from now. So everything is doctor approved now.

Awesome you are already hitting the gym and trying your best, this has been the best thing I've found in 20 years of mental decay , depression and not feeling good.

May life shine upon you too!!


Ps, I'm just using 20mg dianabol per day
And doctor approved a pharmacy testo shot of 250 mg every 15 days.
I didn't resist and had one after 7 days, but I should get on track with doctors orders, I'm just used to take more of any medicine I get, shouldn't do that, but im healthy.

I rather live 5 good years, than 10 bad years.



The post cycle has already been purchased, but the doctor will have his time to share his recommendations.

Oh I'm also taking arimidext, to avoid my boobies to grow like a woman, we don't want that LOL
I've taken every medicine the doctor have prescribed and where did that get me?

Come on, get better or get off... you rather be thinking about CTBing than taking steroids.... ??? Why? Is it against your religion?

 

[InkBlot]

Yeah, if you are already hitting the gym and eating healthy you are gonna love it.
I guess, bet, and have been told that Dianabol is the one doing the feeling good trick, but after I started to feel good I knew I wouldn't want to stop this, so I went to see a hormone doctor , an endocrinologist, home are monitoring my health and test levels, well actually he says that with the low doses I'm getting I won't need another blood exam until 2 months from now. So everything is doctor approved now.

Awesome you are already hitting the gym and trying your best, this has been the best thing I've found in 20 years of mental decay , depression and not feeling good.

May life shine upon you too!!


Ps, I'm just using 20mg dianabol per day
And doctor approved a pharmacy testo shot of 250 mg every 15 days.
I didn't resist and had one after 7 days, but I should get on track with doctors orders, I'm just used to take more of any medicine I get, shouldn't do that, but im healthy.

I rather live 5 good years, than 10 bad years.



The post cycle has already been purchased, but the doctor will have his time to share his recommendations.

Oh I'm also taking arimidext, to avoid my boobies to grow like a woman, we don't want that LOL
I've taken every medicine the doctor have prescribed and where did that get me?

Come on, get better or get off... you rather be thinking about CTBing than taking steroids.... ??? Why? Is it against your religion?

Be careful of DBol. Water retention and acne is a thing bro.

 

[dandan]

Be careful of DBol. Water retention and acne is a thing bro.

Uuuuy yeah bro , I rather live feeling like dying than acne,

better dead than pimples!!!


Fuck no, I rather live feeling like catching the bus, than water retention.... who hasn't ingested a handful of valium, ritalin, prozac, and any other shit...I've drank around 300 bottles of cough syrup but giuuuuu ,, pimples, no forget it!! I rather drink my N!!!
N is available on my fridge bro.... I couldn't take life anymore. . I'm doing fine now, and you come up with water retention and pimples???
Really??

 

[FauxEmotions]

Happy for ya! Great news to hear. I hope for continued peace or at least way more easily manageable when you do get low.

 

[GeorgeJL]

So, yes I was kind of in almost my worst times.... feeling like I've done everything... and just couldnt get better....
so another member wrote something like " if you haven't tried kraton, Dianabol, then you haven't really tried everything"
I went with Dianabol, since its not the first time I've read/ heard about it.... also kratom... but Dianabol seemed more interesting...

After a few days taking the pill I wrote the guy who sold it to me, I just dont feel anything....
a few more days, and damm... I am not thinking about dying anymore, why? because I feel better, I'm spending time working and doing other stuff, rather than sitting and crawling, and watching my life go by....

thank you Dianabol, thank you testosterone, I am also getting a periodically testosterone shot....
yes I have visited and endocrinologist, a doctor, told him my problem, and my suicide intentions and how testosterone and Dianabol has made me feel better
and now im being monitored, blood exams were not cheap, but I only took 1 exam, and he will require me to get another exam in a few more weeks,
while keeping my dosis relatively low.

I'm good at the moment, recovering? well it has just been 20 days taking the pill, or 19, and more or less the days I have stopped fantasising about death, because I no longer "feel" like dying....

the doctor did said, this that has happened to me, is totally medically possible.
he told me this is not dangerous if monitored and doing appropriately, he told me he gives even himself some testosterone shots to hit the gym...
and he studied a speciality in hormones in Europe, I think he knows more about this than google.
he has patients who were woman and now are men, damm..

Yes I already wrote about this here.

The Hidden Cause Of Your Depression - For Older People - For Suicidal People

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...n-for-older-people-for-suicidal-people.17171/

I'm glad your finding something that works for you. I love success stories like this especially since you found a cutting edge treatment which makes it even better. But you should get on some HCG to prevent you own testosterone from completely shutting down and shrinking your balls. The HCG stimulates your balls to make testosterone and a little estrogen, you know naturally speaking. Basically it mimics the hormone LH. I know where to get HCG on the internet. PM me if you want a link.

 

[InkBlot]

Uuuuy yeah bro , I rather live feeling like dying than acne,

better dead than pimples!!!


Fuck no, I rather live feeling like catching the bus, than water retention.... who hasn't ingested a handful of valium, ritalin, prozac, and any other shit...I've drank around 300 bottles of cough syrup but giuuuuu ,, pimples, no forget it!! I rather drink my N!!!
N is available on my fridge bro.... I couldn't take life anymore. . I'm doing fine now, and you come up with water retention and pimples???
Really??

I'm saying its dangerous, for many reasons. Just stating two of its many sides. I didnt say "Dont take it". I said be careful. Jesus christ chill.

 

[oldgregg187]

yeah I've been hitting the gym pretty hard for 2 yrs now with some breaks here and there, I'm kinda platued. that's cool your doc is supporting you through this, I should def talk to one about it. it's funny, I'm more intimidated to steroids than Coke or alcohol, which is so much more damaging I think. yes def want to take that arimidext. I want everything I need on standby when I need it. fuck the bus I Wana run a train through my veins and eat battery acid. here we go. wish you the best on this adventure of chemical manipulation. I get so used to thinking about dying it's gonna feel weird to have some sort of pleasentness in my life. God forbid I get acne though lol jk

 

[dandan]

Yes I already wrote about this here.

The Hidden Cause Of Your Depression - For Older People - For Suicidal People

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...n-for-older-people-for-suicidal-people.17171/

I'm glad your finding something that works for you. I love success stories like this especially since you found a cutting edge treatment which makes it even better. But you should get on some HCG to prevent you own testosterone from completely shutting down and shrinking your balls. The HCG stimulates your balls to make testosterone and a little estrogen, you know naturally speaking. Basically it mimics the hormone LH. I know where to get HCG on the internet. PM me if you want a link.

I've got the HCG at Mexican price, it's not cheap, somatropin or something like that... thanks man, this is good, I woke up and imnlate to hit the gym, so I will do a quick workout routine, I just arrived the gym. It's cool.

What I am not sure is if I should wait till the end of the steroid cycle to use HCG or if I should use it, like tomorrow, I'm not sure and can't find info on that, most info on internet suggest to use it at the end, I would like to use it now to prevent, I don't care about money at this stage, because I'm feeling better than ever, cool.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I've got the HCG at Mexican price, it's not cheap, somatropin or something like that... thanks man, this is good, I woke up and imnlate to hit the gym, so I will do a quick workout routine, I just arrived the gym. It's cool.

What I am not sure is if I should wait till the end of the steroid cycle to use HCG or if I should use it, like tomorrow, I'm not sure and can't find info on that, most info on internet suggest to use it at the end, I would like to use it now to prevent, I don't care about money at this stage, because I'm feeling better than ever, cool.

You don't want to start the hcg to earily because he looses it's effectiveness over time. Your suppose to cycle it like testosterone. And yes you should start taking the HCG at the end of your testosterone cycling. I'll be really curious if your suicidal thoughts come back after you get off the steroids/testosterone.

 

[ManWithNoName]

I'm too glad you found an out. Just be aware of any side effects. I heard that trt can make mens' testicles shrink. All my levels are normal so I have no reason to go that route - yet still feel like shit.

 

[dandan]

I'm too glad you found an out. Just be aware of any side effects. I heard that trt can make mens' testicles shrink. All my levels are normal so I have no reason to go that route - yet still feel like shit.

Yup, any thing I have a doctor now, a specialist, he knows far more than anything you can find in Google. So I'm not worried on that part.
I had no reason to go that route either, yet I was close to drink my N, so I had to try everything, this was just so I can say I tried everything before suicide, I recommend you try it before suicide too, yet if you can survive without it, fine. It's just a suggestion from a guy who tried many medications , drugs, methods, spiritual retirements, yogini, dmt, and various other things, even ect... so I rather keep doing this with my doctor approval than being a depressed fuck.

You don't want to start the hcg to earily because he looses it's effectiveness over time. Your suppose to cycle it like testosterone. And yes you should start taking the HCG at the end of your testosterone cycling. I'll be really curious if your suicidal thoughts come back after you get off the steroids/testosterone.

Guess what? I'm very curious too!! Actually that's why I went looking for an specialist. And guess what the doctor says? He says he is curious too... hormones are difficult to understand even to a doctor and even for a hormone specialist , with a hormone specialization in Spain.

He told me many things, he even said that if if needed he can keep me up with testosterone, there are ways, how do you think the men who become woman or vice versa, they have to keep up with testo or estrogen levels, there are ways...

But I will keep you updated...

 

[ManWithNoName]

Yup, any thing I have a doctor now, a specialist, he knows far more than anything you can find in Google. So I'm not worried on that part.
I had no reason to go that route either, yet I was close to drink my N, so I had to try everything, this was just so I can say I tried everything before suicide, I recommend you try it before suicide too, yet if you can survive without it, fine. It's just a suggestion from a guy who tried many medications , drugs, methods, spiritual retirements, yogini, dmt, and various other things, even ect... so I rather keep doing this with my doctor approval than being a depressed fuck.


Guess what? I'm very curious too!! Actually that's why I went looking for an specialist. And guess what the doctor says? He says he is curious too... hormones are difficult to understand even to a doctor and even for a hormone specialist , with a hormone specialization in Spain.

He told me many things, he even said that if if needed he can keep me up with testosterone, there are ways, how do you think the men who become woman or vice versa, they have to keep up with testo or estrogen levels, there are ways...

But I will keep you updated...

How old are you if I may ask?

 

[oldgregg187]

I'd much rather get my shit from a doc than some dark site. hope that's how it works out. that dmt is some out of this world shit right!!

 

[TheGoodGuy]

You are living my dream you mock me.

 

[InkBlot]

Ive missed my regular dose by a few days...once. It was a rough and depressing few days. Some say its in your system for a while even after you miss a shot and that its psychosomatic, but I could tell a difference emotionally and physically.

 

[oldgregg187]

that's a big consern for me, and that when I come off I'll be more depressed than I'm now. what are your guy's thoughts on HGH it seems very promising too. after you talked with your doc, are they prescribing you this or just monitoring you? I find it unlikely a doc would prescribe d-bol, but hey if you're life is on the line. would they prescribe the pct maybe. won't find out till I ask

 

[dandan]

Ive missed my regular dose by a few days...once. It was a rough and depressing few days. Some say its in your system for a while even after you miss a shot and that its psychosomatic, but I could tell a difference emotionally and physically.

How old are you if I may ask?

I just turned 37, 20 years in therapy and depressed...

Really @InkBlot ? My doctor said there's the possibility I might need to take it my whole life, he says it's possible, with certain treatment and being careful.
I don't want to go back without this man.
Why did you miss your shot? How periodically are you taking it? 250mg every 15 days? That's what the doctor told me , but I'm hitting the gym and last week I did double.... taking some pills to protect my liver and system...

Please tell me about when you didn't take your shot.
Was depression worst than before or you managed to take the shot before it got worse?

Man, like you said, thoughts about killing myself are nothing but a far away memory I just can't even consider today. I'm even confident, and active and working on some things and my job.

Do you really think you will never get off of it?

I'm saying its dangerous, for many reasons. Just stating two of its many sides. I didnt say "Dont take it". I said be careful. Jesus christ chill.

I'm sorry man , I just can't / couldn't consider for not even a second, not taking it, it's been only twice in 20 years since I feel good for 15+ straight days, I just got defensive you know, I can't accept to consider not taking this treatment.

 

[InkBlot]

I just turned 37, 20 years in therapy and depressed...

Really @InkBlot ? My doctor said there's the possibility I might need to take it my whole life, he says it's possible, with certain treatment and being careful.
I don't want to go back without this man.
Why did you miss your shot? How periodically are you taking it? 250mg every 15 days? That's what the doctor told me , but I'm hitting the gym and last week I did double.... taking some pills to protect my liver and system...

Please tell me about when you didn't take your shot.
Was depression worst than before or you managed to take the shot before it got worse?

Man, like you said, thoughts about killing myself are nothing but a far away memory I just can't even consider today. I'm even confident, and active and working on some things and my job.

Do you really think you will never get off of it?

I'm sorry man , I just can't / couldn't consider for not even a second, not taking it, it's been only twice in 20 years since I feel good for 15+ straight days, I just got defensive you know, I can't accept to consider not taking this treatment.

I take 120mg of Test C every 7 days, with 1mg of arimidex. I missed my shot because my girlfriend gives it to me, I cant do self injections. She works till 3am, Im off at 11p. Sometimes hard to make our schedules sync up.

When I missed my shot, I was 2 days late. The 1st day, I could almost feel like a withdrawl symptom from it mentally. Physically I am sore for 16 hours after a workout and then I'm good, but I did a light workout to end the week and was sore for nearly 72 hours. Then it felt as if every thing started falling apart. My reactions to everyday issues became...I guess whiney would be the best way to describe. Day 2, I actively felt depressed. My anxiety over little situations became extremely reactionary and extreme. Id break an insert on my lathe at work, and I'd freak out. Its a 30 second fix, but I turned it into a 8 or 9 minute bitching fest. By the end of the day I was back to where I was emotionally before I was even on test.

Pro tip, if you inject in glutes or quads...go for a walk after the injection, and the next day do a nice leg workout. Helps speed up absorption, and muscle soreness from injection.

 

[restingspot]

Congratulations! I hope you've finally found your sweet spot in life, doubly so with your support system. Exercise is fucking great, and in tandem with therapy it really helped when I was able to afford it. I just wish one of my gym buds hooked me up with steroids even though I'm female-bodied https://emojipedia.org/loudly-crying-face/ Seems like I can never get rid of this damn dysphoria!

 

[Intelligent_Lobster]

this is awesome! I've never thought about using test for depression, I hit the gym already and eat healthy, I'm still depressed. I'm kinda worried it'll make my hair fall out though. and finasteride has horrible side effects apparently. I'm looking into HGH too, which my be the route I take, super expensive though. thanks for sharing this info. do you have a post cycle therapy lined up ?

My hair is receding, but tbh I don't care I just want that juice

 

[InkBlot]

My hair is receding, but tbh I don't care I just want that juice

You'll grow a beard so fine and thick it wont matter where your hairline is.

 

[Intelligent_Lobster]

You'll grow a beard so fine and thick it wont matter where your hairline is.

Ahaha that's the dream bro

 

[ThriveOrDie]

this is awesome! I've never thought about using test for depression, I hit the gym already and eat healthy, I'm still depressed. I'm kinda worried it'll make my hair fall out though. and finasteride has horrible side effects apparently. I'm looking into HGH too, which my be the route I take, super expensive though. thanks for sharing this info. do you have a post cycle therapy lined up ?

There are supplements that help boost testosterone if you are looking for something more natural. I gave some of this stuff to my dad (he's about 70) and he was running around like a 20 year old...

DHEA Supplement Benefits for Muscles and Hormone Balance

DHEA declines after age 30, increasing the risk for issues like inflammation and sexual dysfunction. Benefits, dosage, side effects of supplements are considered.

draxe.com

 

[joshe]

Would TRT be ineffective if you aren't already working out and eating healthy?

 

[sobad]

TRT is very effective even if you dont work out. You have to monitor your estrogen levels as it can get very high depending on how the person metabolizes Testosterone. It also depends highly on injection frequency. Splitting up injections is better for mood control. I'm surprised they still prescribe Testosterone on 15 day injection schedules. At the very least it should be once a week. I felt the best when splitting shots 2-3 times per week.

Dianabol is a mood booster but many steroids are not. In fact they can make you even more depressed.