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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
I take 120mg of Test C every 7 days, with 1mg of arimidex. I missed my shot because my girlfriend gives it to me, I cant do self injections. She works till 3am, Im off at 11p. Sometimes hard to make our schedules sync up.

When I missed my shot, I was 2 days late. The 1st day, I could almost feel like a withdrawl symptom from it mentally. Physically I am sore for 16 hours after a workout and then I'm good, but I did a light workout to end the week and was sore for nearly 72 hours. Then it felt as if every thing started falling apart. My reactions to everyday issues became...I guess whiney would be the best way to describe. Day 2, I actively felt depressed. My anxiety over little situations became extremely reactionary and extreme. Id break an insert on my lathe at work, and I'd freak out. Its a 30 second fix, but I turned it into a 8 or 9 minute bitching fest. By the end of the day I was back to where I was emotionally before I was even on test.

Pro tip, if you inject in glutes or quads...go for a walk after the injection, and the next day do a nice leg workout. Helps speed up absorption, and muscle soreness from injection.
Thanks for the heads up, I dunno what to expect, what I do know its I've got a world class hormone doctor who even turns girls into men and vice versa, with hormones , that's he's shit, he even told me there are ways that I can keep up using testo all my life, of course with proper control.

So depression is nothing but a long far away memoir.


I dont know how I'll react to a come-down when I'll need to stop or reduce the frequency or dosis , I rather live 10 good years than 30 depressed years.
 
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InkBlot

InkBlot

What Do You See?
Sep 17, 2018
162
Thanks for the heads up, I dunno what to expect, what I do know its I've got a world class hormone doctor who even turns girls into men and vice versa, with hormones , that's he's shit, he even told me there are ways that I can keep up using testo all my life, of course with proper control.

So depression is nothing but a long far away memoir.


I dont know how I'll react to a come-down when I'll need to stop or reduce the frequency or dosis , I rather live 10 good years than 30 depressed years.

My doctor is an anti aging doctor with the same theory. He believes in anything that makes us function better as human beings at the cost of the last 10 years of your life if it comes to it. Theres no point in living to 90 if you cant walk. But dying at 65 being able to run a marathon, thats a whole lot better.
 
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miseryh8scompany

miseryh8scompany

Student
Dec 20, 2019
120
I'm doing cycles of prohormones and DAA atm. It has been helping but most likely I will just end up going to TRT route. A drug destroyed my endocrine system which is why I am suicidal. TRT may not even work long term for me bc my situation is complex, but I don't have much to lose at this point. I'm almost 40 anyways.

I could definitely see how TRT could be an option for depressed males. Even creatine used to make me feel amazing
 
RememberWhatUCameFor

RememberWhatUCameFor

dont cry for me im already dead
Nov 20, 2018
590
funny how doctors prescribe ssri like smarties but its very difficult to find a doctor who would prescribe a man under 50 testosterone
 
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ManWithNoName

ManWithNoName

Enlightened
Feb 2, 2019
1,224
I could definitely see how TRT could be an option for depressed males. Even creatine used to make me feel amazing
When you took creatine, did you use it only just before a workout? Or did you take it as part of your daily regiment, like a daily vitamins?
 
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oldgregg187

Member
Jun 26, 2019
33
I've been on test cyp for 2 mo now. 300 units 2 times a week. My blood work shows @ above 1000 which is where my doc wants me. Unfortunately I'm still very depressed and suicidal. I look and feel super powerful though, gym sessions are amazing!! I'm bigger and stronger than I could ever get natural. People seem to treat me differently as well
 
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ManWithNoName

Enlightened
Feb 2, 2019
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I've been on test cyp for 2 mo now. 300 units 2 times a week. My blood work shows @ above 1000 which is where my doc wants me. Unfortunately I'm still very depressed and suicidal. I look and feel super powerful though, gym sessions are amazing!! I'm bigger and stronger than I could ever get natural. People seem to treat me differently as well
The 1000 mark is great. The only drawback is that your body will stop producing testosterone naturally once you take TRT. There is evidence that shows the average t levels in men were considerably higher in previous generations—nobody can explain why—though various theories exist.
 
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miseryh8scompany

miseryh8scompany

Student
Dec 20, 2019
120
When you took creatine, did you use it only just before a workout? Or did you take it as part of your daily regiment, like a daily vitamins?

I just took 5 grams a day, as per.
The 1000 mark is great. The only drawback is that your body will stop producing testosterone naturally once you take TRT. There is evidence that shows the average t levels in men were considerably higher in previous generations—nobody can explain why—though various theories exist.


You can take hcg shots to keep your balls alive for awhile. I don't know how long that would work though
 
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oldgregg187

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Jun 26, 2019
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I plan to use hcg when I decide to get off. I'm experiencing some neg sides though. It looks like I'm getting gyno but my doc said my estrogens fine & I might be paranoid
 
miseryh8scompany

miseryh8scompany

Student
Dec 20, 2019
120
I plan to use hcg when I decide to get off. I'm experiencing some neg sides though. It looks like I'm getting gyno but my doc said my estrogens fine & I might be paranoid


Clomid is probably a more appropriate pct, tbh.
 
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BadChanges

Member
Sep 23, 2019
90
I have low testosterone and it's a dead end. Doctors here do not want to prescribe any test. Instead, they rather just make you go through countless tests that their main intent is to somehow show that your test eventually is inside the range. not to mention, that even if by miracle chance you get administrated test, the prescription and dosage are not up to date at all.

I'm 29, and I knew my test was low at 25 or so. And it sucks that there is no good solution to that. I thought about doing it illegally but I have no idea where to even start.
 
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oldgregg187

Member
Jun 26, 2019
33
Could be, I'm no expert. My endocrinologist said that when I'd like to get off to take the hcg
I'm thinking about starting a small calf support group. They just won't grow.lol
 
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dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Im glas, with testo a d dianabol.

Creatine, eventually its not constant can do it a week or two but I get kidney stones so I rather avoid those type of powder
 
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JustLosingMyself

Mage
Sep 4, 2018
544
Testosterone injections frequency depends on the product used. I had daily, weekly, monthly and now every 10 weeks.
As a man you must blood tests at least every 6 months on this to check on the prostate pre cancer indicator. Testosterone injections can and do have side effects
 
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Heavy

Student
Jun 20, 2020
160
Testosterone injections frequency depends on the product used. I had daily, weekly, monthly and now every 10 weeks.
As a man you must blood tests at least every 6 months on this to check on the prostate pre cancer indicator. Testosterone injections can and do have side effects
Like what side effects?
 
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Heavy

Student
Jun 20, 2020
160
Prostate cancer for one. Rare but is there. Hence the regular bloodtesting for it.
For others, read the leaflet
Prostate cancer is quite common. Even if you never touched steroids.

I'd be more concerned about messing up my normal test levels (that can happen but it's like a 0,1% chance) .
 
dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
Blood tests every two months
 

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