I'm crashing out bad right now. I'm always going to be alone.

[OOUUneverover]

I'm always going to be alone.
I've never met anyone I can really relate to. Even in the most niche online spaces I feel like an outsider.
I think my beliefs/values are too rare, my mental health state is too rare for anyone relate to.
I feel so alone. I have no emotional connection to anybody. I'll never experience any type of love that I truly want, neither romantic nor platonic. My family is nice but I don't really understand them, I don't really love them back. I don't think I have the ability to.
For the past few days I've been in some type of manic episode, catastrophizing about this (and other stuff too). Every time I see some depiction of emotional or even physical connection, it only makes me want to kill myself even more. I'm never going to be like that, I'll never experience that. At this point, I'd take abuse over this isolation.

I know that I completely deserve my loneliness, but that doesn't make it any easier.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I wish you didn't have to be alone. It sucks. I feel I'm better off alone relationship wise. I don't know how to connect with anyone either.
Since I want to die more than anything, it's pointless for me to date. It would be nice to get a hug sometimes.
I wish you didn't have to be alone. It sucks. I feel I'm better off alone relationship wise. I don't know how to connect with anyone either.
Since I want to die more than anything, it's pointless for me to date. It would be nice to get a hug sometimes.

 

[bamster]

same bro life is shit i work full time to come home to my empty tiny appartment that's smaller than most people's living room
no1 is like me i will always be alone and i am getting tired of trying to staying optimistic ITS OVER IM 31 YEARS OLD I HAVE TRIED FOR LONG ENOUGH