Hello everyone,
Please excuse me if my English is approximate, I come from Europe and I don't speak English well. I'm just here to share my experience. I planned CTB for this week, because I have not liked life for a long time, for several reasons.
I've had back and bowel health issues since I was 20 (I'm about 30) and it's only getting worse. People don't understand and think I'm exaggerating, but it hurts me a lot.
I'm a huge private procrastinator, that's always been a problem.
At work, we are asked to be more productive, and we never get any thanks. On the other hand, you make a mistake once, the leaders will always remember it.
Since adolescence I have been uncomfortable in public, I blush very easily. After an operation in 2021 to cut a nerve to reduce this redness (announced success rate of around 80%), it was a failure and I have more problems than before (I sweat a lot).
This was the big disappointment which only accentuated my desire to leave this world, so I made the decision at the beginning of the year for CTB. I didn't have a scheduled date, but currently with soaring prices, everything that's happening in the world, and major pain for a month made me choose this week. My farewell letter for my wife has been written for a while, the will too.
I had planned to jump off a cliff near my house (230 feet / 70 meters) and take an hour before a hundred ricin seeds bought online.
I was afraid to change my mind at the last minute because for a leap into the void, you have to have courage. After further research I landed here. I found NS on a particular site, big stroke of luck. I've already done the test with the drop of blood and it turns directly brown. I already have propranolol because it is a regular treatment, as well as the rest of the medication.
I'm also waiting for an order from NS placed on a French site, which seems to have been dispatched.
I read this forum for a few weeks, and I see a lot of benevolence, and mutual aid, it warms my heart. Unfortunately, we see too little of it in everyday life. And for that I wanted to thank you.
Please excuse me if my English is approximate, I come from Europe and I don't speak English well. I'm just here to share my experience. I planned CTB for this week, because I have not liked life for a long time, for several reasons.
I've had back and bowel health issues since I was 20 (I'm about 30) and it's only getting worse. People don't understand and think I'm exaggerating, but it hurts me a lot.
I'm a huge private procrastinator, that's always been a problem.
At work, we are asked to be more productive, and we never get any thanks. On the other hand, you make a mistake once, the leaders will always remember it.
Since adolescence I have been uncomfortable in public, I blush very easily. After an operation in 2021 to cut a nerve to reduce this redness (announced success rate of around 80%), it was a failure and I have more problems than before (I sweat a lot).
This was the big disappointment which only accentuated my desire to leave this world, so I made the decision at the beginning of the year for CTB. I didn't have a scheduled date, but currently with soaring prices, everything that's happening in the world, and major pain for a month made me choose this week. My farewell letter for my wife has been written for a while, the will too.
I had planned to jump off a cliff near my house (230 feet / 70 meters) and take an hour before a hundred ricin seeds bought online.
I was afraid to change my mind at the last minute because for a leap into the void, you have to have courage. After further research I landed here. I found NS on a particular site, big stroke of luck. I've already done the test with the drop of blood and it turns directly brown. I already have propranolol because it is a regular treatment, as well as the rest of the medication.
I'm also waiting for an order from NS placed on a French site, which seems to have been dispatched.
I read this forum for a few weeks, and I see a lot of benevolence, and mutual aid, it warms my heart. Unfortunately, we see too little of it in everyday life. And for that I wanted to thank you.
