inkyabyss
Member
- Jan 25, 2023
- 20
I made this account about 2 years ago when I was 17 (I'm now 19), it's safe to say that nothing has gotten better since then. Looking back on it now I really wish I died before becoming an adult, mentally I still feel like I'm 17 but I'm stuck as a 19 year old with responsibilities. But enough of that, I don't really expect anyone to really read this because I'm ignored in every other aspect of my life, I'm completely invisible.
I've come back because Ive decided that I want to die within the next 3 months. Why 3 months? Because I want to tie up loose ends. I used to want to disappear completely but I think that's impossible, I'd be reported missing by someone and eventually my body will be found. So instead I want to hang myself from a bridge I visit pretty often! I walk the train tracks a lot looking for bones and a couple miles in there is a bridge, about 20 feet above some water, and secluded. I want to die there by hanging. However I would like to do it right so that my neck breaks and I die almost instantly. I've thought about leaving a letter to my family but I know I would put nothing kind in it so I don't think I'll leave anything at all. Well that's all, this is my plan and I'm going to go through with it soon. I regret ever being born and I wish I killed myself when I was a child, I would have died so much purer and happier then having lived to this point. Now I'll die with pain and regret in my soul but at least I'll die and I have that to look forward to. I'll finally be free from everything
I've come back because Ive decided that I want to die within the next 3 months. Why 3 months? Because I want to tie up loose ends. I used to want to disappear completely but I think that's impossible, I'd be reported missing by someone and eventually my body will be found. So instead I want to hang myself from a bridge I visit pretty often! I walk the train tracks a lot looking for bones and a couple miles in there is a bridge, about 20 feet above some water, and secluded. I want to die there by hanging. However I would like to do it right so that my neck breaks and I die almost instantly. I've thought about leaving a letter to my family but I know I would put nothing kind in it so I don't think I'll leave anything at all. Well that's all, this is my plan and I'm going to go through with it soon. I regret ever being born and I wish I killed myself when I was a child, I would have died so much purer and happier then having lived to this point. Now I'll die with pain and regret in my soul but at least I'll die and I have that to look forward to. I'll finally be free from everything
