I’m back to abusing alcohol

[Stroopwafel.]

I didn't drink for many years after I had a complicated relationship with alcohol for a bit. About 6 months ago I made a one time mistake, but after that one time mistake I immediately quit again.

Last two days I bought alcohol and got drunk. I will buy some more wine today. Honestly I don't even care the tiniest bit anymore. There is no 'healthy' coping left for me anymore in the situation I am right now. Alcohol seems like the best choice. It doesn't matter anymore anyways if I stay sober or not. My life is over. At least while being drunk it's somehow acceptable to stay for a bit longer.

 

[Lost Magic]

I was drunk on Friday night and Saturday morning. I am now dealing with one of the worst hangovers of my life. I think I will have to quit again because feeling like this is just not nice.

 

[Stroopwafel.]

I was drunk on Friday night and Saturday morning. I am now dealing with one of the worst hangovers of my life. I think I will have to quit again because feeling like this is just not nice.

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling so bad. Hangovers definitely can be hell.

 

[UKscotty]

At least it blots out the shitty existence for a bit.

 

[logan]

I can well understand your situation.
But the alcohol makes the whole thing even worse - it only helps for a very short time and then you feel even worse than before.

I hope you still find a way for you.

 

[IWantToSleep]

I can relate, been drinking for my severe anxiety on and off for years now.

 

[noxin]

Yeah, I've pretty much been drunk almost everyday for the past 2 months now. Helps to get me through the day.

 

[Soulless Angel]

I can well understand your situation.
But the alcohol makes the whole thing even worse - it only helps for a very short time and then you feel even worse than before.

I hope you still find a way for you.

does it though? I can drink every day for a few day's, then not drink at all, go for as long as I want without, (I don't suffer hangovers or anything) and for a while after still be on that high, its when reality comes crashing back in that I hit that low point again.
But then again I am odd like that.

 

[Stroopwafel.]

Hmm it sort of helped for me years ago. I mean it doesn't really help of course. But it helps me to not feel like total shit for maybe a few hours. I just can't handle the pain anymore, this way I can kind of escape it for a bit.

The people in this place might have missed the document that states my problems with alcohol tho, as so far they are all fine with me drinking alcohol. Well, they sure will find our at some point and probably forbid me to drink. But I will not remind them of it lmao.

 

[NeverGoBack94]

I'm drinking more than ever. Guess I'm failure.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Same. Maybe see you in a meeting someday...

 

[Hurt]

I feel like drinking again. It makes me feel better but after a while I'm more anxious and I hate that feelings. I want to quit alcohol and caffeine forever. It sucks that I have to drink so I can forget how shitty my life is.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I abused alcohol for 6 years. I been doing some 90 day challenges without it however today at work I drunk it again to make the time go past.