Venting I’m back after almost 3 years.

[cantwaittoleave]

I made an attempt in 2022. It obviously didn't work, and things got better so I didn't feel the need to come back. Last year was awful, and this year, as of last week, i can't stop thinking about ending it. i'm tired. im lonely. everyone else in my life is fine. and the person who saved me for 5 years is now ignoring me for such a silly reason, and my family doesn't understand enough to really care. i'm lonely, and im tired of being lonely. i keep crying, and all i want to do is just be happy. but i can't imagine my future anymore. i took a drive across the country and ive kinda come to peace with the idea of leaving. it really didn't take more than a day before i was like 'yeah, once my dog is gone, that's it.' and ive tried to tell someone i was feeling that way. all i got was 'we'll talk.' no. its always the same. i'm overwhelmed with life and it has nothing to offer me now. i want out. i'm tired of feeling nothing but this gnawing emptiness that hasn't been filled in over a year. it hurts me mentally so bad that it's actually affecting my body and appetite. that's enough of a sign for me; now i just have to figure out the how, and live with my dog until his time comes and subsequently mine.

 

[Odd socks]

I made an attempt in 2022. It obviously didn't work, and things got better so I didn't feel the need to come back. Last year was awful, and this year, as of last week, i can't stop thinking about ending it. i'm tired. im lonely. everyone else in my life is fine. and the person who saved me for 5 years is now ignoring me for such a silly reason, and my family doesn't understand enough to really care. i'm lonely, and im tired of being lonely. i keep crying, and all i want to do is just be happy. but i can't imagine my future anymore. i took a drive across the country and ive kinda come to peace with the idea of leaving. it really didn't take more than a day before i was like 'yeah, once my dog is gone, that's it.' and ive tried to tell someone i was feeling that way. all i got was 'we'll talk.' no. its always the same. i'm overwhelmed with life and it has nothing to offer me now. i want out. i'm tired of feeling nothing but this gnawing emptiness that hasn't been filled in over a year. it hurts me mentally so bad that it's actually affecting my body and appetite. that's enough of a sign for me; now i just have to figure out the how, and live with my dog until his time comes and subsequently mine.

Can't wait. I too am waiting for my very old dog to pass on. I have got more direct love from him than any body else.

 

[JJMaynard97]

I made an attempt in 2022. It obviously didn't work, and things got better so I didn't feel the need to come back. Last year was awful, and this year, as of last week, i can't stop thinking about ending it. i'm tired. im lonely. everyone else in my life is fine. and the person who saved me for 5 years is now ignoring me for such a silly reason, and my family doesn't understand enough to really care. i'm lonely, and im tired of being lonely. i keep crying, and all i want to do is just be happy. but i can't imagine my future anymore. i took a drive across the country and ive kinda come to peace with the idea of leaving. it really didn't take more than a day before i was like 'yeah, once my dog is gone, that's it.' and ive tried to tell someone i was feeling that way. all i got was 'we'll talk.' no. its always the same. i'm overwhelmed with life and it has nothing to offer me now. i want out. i'm tired of feeling nothing but this gnawing emptiness that hasn't been filled in over a year. it hurts me mentally so bad that it's actually affecting my body and appetite. that's enough of a sign for me; now i just have to figure out the how, and live with my dog until his time comes and subsequently mine.

I'm in a similar boat. I was on here I think in 2023 after I was dumped by my Ex. In a pretty shot way. I struggle to get out of bed and face the world. I've been the last year thinking back on everything. My regrets, life and my future and I've come to the point that I don't want to push forward. As like you I feel dry and sad, can't tell my mum as she suffers with serious depression and has been recently diagnosed with ADHD and is on medication. My uncles have probs with drink and my Nan, who I think the world of is approaching 80 in April. But she has had enough and doesn't want to live for much longer. I've come to the idea that when that awful days comes. I'll either have to move on from where I liv or go with her if that makes sense. So here I am. After two years. All the best for you and your dog. :-) on here your not alone.