Venting I’m at a crossroad but I don’t want to move forwards

[BizzyBozo]

It's safe to say I've fried my entire life at this point. I have virtually nothing going for me but I still want to stay. My future plans weren't possible due to foolish decisions I made in another state of mind. Now I see other options available yet fear seems to be holding me back from progressing but also the only thing keeping me alive. I fear the end, but part of me wishes it weren't so. I don't believe in anything yet I believe I should. I've been isolated for so long, I've lost and gained my sanity, but I am now realizing the effects. Why can't I cope with the weight of my own actions and inactions? What is holding me back? Am I too blind to see the conflict I created?

 

[timf]

Some of us were less well prepared to deal with life than others. Often that ignorance caused us to make bad decisions. The consequence of bad decisions can seem like the bombed out ruins of German cities after WWII. However, like them, we can rebuild and learn from our mistakes that which will help us in the future.

 

[Yellow_Water620]

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