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Busridin'26

Busridin'26

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
1,933
Been going back and forth on methods for 7 years now.

I feel like everytime I settle on a method it just... isn't plausible...

But continuing to live in this pain isn't plausible either.


I wonder what it'll take for me to be able to take the steps to kill myself.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,974
The unfortunte reality is that in this world suicide really is so unnecessarily difficult, if it was easier I would be long gone at this point. But I do understand that it can be so tiring feeling trapped here when you just wish to exit, suicide certainly should be easier for us all.
 
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SilentSadness

SilentSadness

In somewhere else
Feb 28, 2023
1,553
We really are all trapped in limbo, and only some lucky and courageous ones have a way out. I definitely feel the same way as I haven't found a method for years. I don't think you're weak for not having one, after all the pro-lifers have done everything in their power to make it impossible and repeat their taunts relentlessly. I hope you gain freedom and peace.
 
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Busridin'26

Busridin'26

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
1,933
I wonder if I'll ever figure out a method I can properly execute?

Or if I'll be stuck forever....

I don't know but my god do I ever need to figure it out. I cannot keep going on like this.

Usual distractions are not working. My mental health is getting worse and worse.

I don't know what to do anymore. About anything. God I wish I was dead but wishing is not enough.
 
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Busridin'26

Busridin'26

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
1,933
Spent the last few hours crying really hard.

Considering jumping off a bridge but ik I'd never be able to actually do it or at least I don't think so?

I usually always have a show or music on in the background but I can't stand it anymore.

I'm at the end of my rope here. I gotta get it together in some form.

I truly am such a pathetic low life. Beyond help and undeserving of it.
 
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BBBB

Member
Jan 13, 2023
167
"I'm at the end of my rope here. I gotta get it together in some form."

Same Here 😢
 
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sorella santini

sorella santini

Member
Jan 19, 2021
87
I do also wonder what it will take for me to actually execute it. Because I feel like Im about as rock bottom as I can be. Must not be there quite yet.
 
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SuicidalSheep

SuicidalSheep

Member
Feb 20, 2021
66
Been going back and forth on methods for 7 years now.

I feel like everytime I settle on a method it just... isn't plausible...

But continuing to live in this pain isn't plausible either.


I wonder what it'll take for me to be able to take the steps to kill myself.
I feel the exact same way :/.

Sometimes I actively want myself to go insane so I will make a reckless decision to finally ctb but I just can't do it.
 
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CTB Dream

CTB Dream

Injury damage disabl hard talk no argu make fun et
Sep 17, 2022
2,881
Vry sry vry understand trap life no able doany this all awful dtriort pain siffer, know how all awful injury damage no able doany no able ctb peace mthod
 
TimetoGo!

TimetoGo!

Wizard
Aug 30, 2022
653
Spent the last few hours crying really hard.

Considering jumping off a bridge but ik I'd never be able to actually do it or at least I don't think so?

I usually always have a show or music on in the background but I can't stand it anymore.

I'm at the end of my rope here. I gotta get it together in some form.

I truly am such a pathetic low life. Beyond help and undeserving of it.
I hear you buddy and I am in exactly the same predicament
 
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WallsClosingInn

Member
Dec 8, 2019
42
Same for me.No matter how bad things get,and they are getting worse and worse,i just cant do it.I often wonder what needs to happen so i finally do it
 
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