I’m angry I’m being forced to live like this

[LifeDestroyedMe]

I'm angry that I'm being forced to live with anhedonia and brain damage that stops me from being able to socialise and connect with others. My dog was recently put down, the moment it started suffering my family had so much sympathy for it and even said "we can't let him suffer" but when I'm suffering all I get is "stay strong" and "it will get better". I feel invisible. Getting SN soon to hopefully CTB and escape this never ending torment I'm experiencing.

Can anyone relate? Some people just don't understand some lives arnt worth living.

 

[Steve]

I empathise with you harry7899. My brain was damaged by benzos and SSRIs 5 years ago, and only recently I found out it had permanently damaged my brain after being put under intense stress. I quite literally felt my mind crack into piece.

 

[LifeDestroyedMe]

I empathise with you harry7899. My brain was damaged by benzos and SSRIs 5 years ago, and only recently I found out it had permanently damaged my brain after being put under intense stress. I quite literally felt my mind crack into piece.

I'm sorry to hear that. My brain has been most likely permanently damaged by antipsychotics

 

[day]

Sorry to hear that you're suffering OP.. I hope you manage to find peace out of this endless suffering you've been put through.

Best of luck.

 

[Hollowman]

I can relate, it's a horrible existence being dead inside.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so tiring and torturous feeling trapped here, I despise how there's a lack of acceptance towards the fact that not everyone even wants to suffer here, for many the only relief lies in death, forcing people to suffer when they wish to permanently be free is inhumane. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[Darkover]

when will they give us our birth right to fucking die