I’m an unbelievably strong person but I’m still going to end my life

[burninghill]

I was there for myself when I was being severely bullied from 8 years old to 16 years old.
I was there for myself when I had to recover on my own from self harming.
I was there for myself when I was being groomed online until I was 18.
I held myself accountable for staying clean from self-harm and drugs.
I talked myself out of posting my self-harm online and exploiting myself for attention.
I was there for myself when I tried to end my life, when I was told that people wanted to kill me. When the people I trusted the most left me to die . When I told them I was going to end my life and they were still angry at me for not giving them the attention they felt entitled to.

All this for a waste of a life, all this just for it to be buried in the ground along with whatever is left of my body. I'm a weak person for ending my life but a strong one for making it this far. I could've hung myself on my way to school like I always dreamed of back in 2017, but I didn't.

 

[valar_morghulis21]

Suicide is still one of the bravest and selfless act.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Strong and weak can (in certain situations) be subjective especially when it comes to suicide. Some people would say that it is weaker to continue living in an environment (or a general society) that does not care about you, but still expects you to contribute.

"There is no salvation in becoming adapted to a world which is crazy." - Henry Miller, 1994.

 

[burninghill]

Suicide is still one of the bravest and selfless act.

I think the bravery it takes to end your own life is severely underrated to be honest. It's one of the most terrifying things in the world.