parabellum_
" Hell isn't other people. Hell is yourself "
- Apr 25, 2026
- 15
I've never felt any kind of love towards anybody and it never really affected me too much until I realized how disconnected I get from everyone else. It's a pain. I'm actually a really horrible person holy shit. I can't seem to care about anybody or anything. I just want to be left alone. Everyone can go fuck themselves. I fucking hate everyone. But I also don't want to feel so isolated. It's like wanting to kill yourself but realizing that you don't want to kill yourself, you just want to want to live (if that makes sense). TWO times I said yes to a relationship when I didn't even feel shit towards the other. I guess I felt "pressured" but I could have just said no and moved on bruh. Both ended pretty badly and I know that I AM the problem. I'm terrible. I don't even hate myself. I don't feel bad but I know it's wrong. SNDJKSKD I'm aware of my wrongdoings but I literally don't care. I'm probably the reason why some people want to kill themselves. What is actually wrong with me. FUCK MY LIFE. I'm going to kill myself soon anyways so dw about me being around to ruin other people's lives
