Water-Lily
Enlightened
- Dec 26, 2020
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The more therapy I do, and the more classes I take, the more I'm aware of my constant state of survival and inability to fully heal while I'm at home. My constant making sure my room is locked because I am scared of my brother. Me making sure I don't touch his food or do anything that will leave me a target. Thats my daily life
And while I have a dorm at my school that is safe, I choose the famiiarity of the toxic system at home
Maybe the next time I get abused I wont' call the police or telll anyone
I'll keep it to myself and commit suicide because I had chances to get out and I chose not to
You can't feel sorry for people when they are retarded
Edit: I am not going to harm or end my life tonight. I have no plans of doing so. I don't think anyone would, but I fear the cops being called on me by someone on here. I might take down this post before bed
And while I have a dorm at my school that is safe, I choose the famiiarity of the toxic system at home
Maybe the next time I get abused I wont' call the police or telll anyone
I'll keep it to myself and commit suicide because I had chances to get out and I chose not to
You can't feel sorry for people when they are retarded
Edit: I am not going to harm or end my life tonight. I have no plans of doing so. I don't think anyone would, but I fear the cops being called on me by someone on here. I might take down this post before bed
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