I'm a coward

[Bigjaw]

I want to die and have the ability and facility to hang myself at home with a guarantee of not being found. I'm just too much of a coward to do it.

I've been suicidal my whole adult life and things have been unbearable the last 18 months to two years. I'm 46m UK.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've also wished to cease existing for such a long time, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't think it's cowardly exactly. It's the most unnatural thing we could be doing really. Our bodies, society, our families are all screaming at us not to do it. It's a lot to get over I think.

 

[Bigjaw]

I've also wished to cease existing for such a long time, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.

Thank you for your kind words. I wish you the best too.

I don't think it's cowardly exactly. It's the most unnatural thing we could be doing really. Our bodies, society, our families are all screaming at us not to do it. It's a lot to get over I think.

This is so true, I think I have major ideation and always have had. It only gets worse as I get older but it stays as just that - ideation.

 

[Roadrunner]

I'm in the same boat. I'm hoping to grow the testicular fortitude to do it this Xmas. If my meto has arrived in the mail, I will then have everything needed for the SN procedure. I'm hoping to hike deep into a winter forest where i won't be found for quite some time, and do it there. But I too will likely coward out. I cry every day, when is enough actually be enough?