Im a completely failure

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I can't defeat SI

 

[The anhedonic one]

Survival instinct can be extremely difficult to overcome.
It is the arch-enemy of everyone here on SaSu.

 

[FuneralCry]

It certainly is like the survival instinct exists just to prolong suffering and keep us trapped here, I get that it really is so awful feeling trapped in this dreadful existence, finally leaving really should be easier, I think that if someone struggles to ctb in this world where we are denied the option to exit peacefully and reliably, they could never be a failure for being unable to ctb. I hate how Nembutal isn't legalised, it's inhumane to deny people the right to die in peace.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It's such a difficult task to overcome SI and to leave this world in a peaceful and diginified way. I can fully understand your frustration but you certainly not a failure. Maybe you can look into other methods that would be easier for you?