Venting I'll never be able to live "normally."

[citruslynx]

I'm sick of being reminded by my brain over and over that I'll never be able to fucking live normally.

I'll never be comfortable, I'll never have peace and quiet, I'll never be worth enough to anyone to be prioritized or remembered, I'll always be a little shit who complains when I really shouldn't be. I'm so fucking stupid. So fucking incapable.

I'll always be trapped in this brain and this body. I'll never be able to experience connection in the same way normal people do. I'm always going to be tired and lethargic and lazy.

I wanna melt away from all this agony... It's so bad. I feel like an earthworm drying out under the sun on burning concrete. I hate myself and I hate this stupid fucking world.