AresCohere
Professional Insomniac
- Apr 10, 2023
- 159
Sorry for not posting in a long while, after a few "incidents" a while back I've been under increased surveillance, mostly by my parents, and sometimes the "authorities." I have, however, been able to slip away.
I still can't buy much at the moment, I was able to make some SN but whatever I did I did it wrong and I just ended up getting mildly sick from whatever I drank. Covered up by saying it was a stomach bug.
So I've had to go back the what I've done before, tried and true CO. My car is known for being bad with that so I just had to re-break the exhaust system so the cabin will slowly fill with CO. Takes about an hour or two but it will also make it seem like I didn't CTB, but more of a freak accident. While I don't particularly care if people I know can figure out if it was intentional or not, is a near "perk" (?) I guess nonetheless.
In a few hours or so I'll be able to slip away in my car with a resins me excuse, and hopefully finally succeed after way too many failures.
Wish me luck, I guess?
My reasons for needing to do this have not changed over the past few years. The slowly deteriorating mental state (hallucinations, etc), the unbearable stresses I've been put under, and the many hundreds of thousands of dollars of debt I have. Along with the years of SA I've experienced, especially when I was a minor, including CP of me being released. Why was that guy, who violated be so much for so long, able to be released early from prison to do it again?
I mean there is a long list of other reasons, from the general futility of trying to turn my life around, and how the entire world is just falling apart at the seams, etc etc etc…
Well, I mean, I'll be around for a little while still, but soon enough, I'll finally be free!
I mean, doing this will also make a "select few" people that know me outside of this community very happy knowing I'm no longer a problem for them.
Speaking of this community, I would like to thank you guys for helping me to escape the insane amount of surveillance I was under, without that I would probably still be involuntarily hospitalized.
Sorry for making this so long and rambly, I have a lot to say but not much time to say it.
I still can't buy much at the moment, I was able to make some SN but whatever I did I did it wrong and I just ended up getting mildly sick from whatever I drank. Covered up by saying it was a stomach bug.
So I've had to go back the what I've done before, tried and true CO. My car is known for being bad with that so I just had to re-break the exhaust system so the cabin will slowly fill with CO. Takes about an hour or two but it will also make it seem like I didn't CTB, but more of a freak accident. While I don't particularly care if people I know can figure out if it was intentional or not, is a near "perk" (?) I guess nonetheless.
In a few hours or so I'll be able to slip away in my car with a resins me excuse, and hopefully finally succeed after way too many failures.
Wish me luck, I guess?
My reasons for needing to do this have not changed over the past few years. The slowly deteriorating mental state (hallucinations, etc), the unbearable stresses I've been put under, and the many hundreds of thousands of dollars of debt I have. Along with the years of SA I've experienced, especially when I was a minor, including CP of me being released. Why was that guy, who violated be so much for so long, able to be released early from prison to do it again?
I mean there is a long list of other reasons, from the general futility of trying to turn my life around, and how the entire world is just falling apart at the seams, etc etc etc…
Well, I mean, I'll be around for a little while still, but soon enough, I'll finally be free!
I mean, doing this will also make a "select few" people that know me outside of this community very happy knowing I'm no longer a problem for them.
Speaking of this community, I would like to thank you guys for helping me to escape the insane amount of surveillance I was under, without that I would probably still be involuntarily hospitalized.
Sorry for making this so long and rambly, I have a lot to say but not much time to say it.
