Discussion If you're planning on CTB, what are some things you'll regret not seeing/doing?

[WorthlessTrash]

Not going to South Korea, competing at another national championship competition, not trying my hand at another relationship.

 

[ChildrensITV]

If I suicided today I'd regret not getting married.

If you think there is a potential for you to get married, then couldn't you use that to hold onto?

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

nothing, I've already delayed it enough time to realise all the delusions of false hope I had in the past, and I won't have any regrets when I'll finally do it

 

[ChildrensITV]

Shoutout to my low-IQ, sub5, oldcel genetic trash males. This thread is brutal. People be like: "I'll miss out on XYZ".

There is literally nothing that I'll miss out on except the DELUSION that I have been living under for years that my life could amount to anything. Just fucking lol. Sometimes this site is isolating as fuck. I feel like EVERYTHING is pushing me to end it.

 

[Professor K]

honestly i sometimes do think im gonna miss out on good experiences and opportunities but on the other hand i view them as vanities since they won't last very long and people around me will fade away as well.

nothing ever lasts and nothing really matters.

we have created those needs of achieving things in life and consequently missing them and thinking we should feel sad about things coming to an end.
wanting to finish an book a video game, becoming a sucessful whatever or studying abroad... these are ''regrets'' which means nothing to me anymore as i recognize that they aren't needs which happen to exist by default.

i think the more i wait instead of ctb, the more i come to the realization that i really could care less about all of these things. i feel more and more detached and aspire to die once and for all.

 

[pinkribbonscars]

Nothing

Nothing brings me pleasure and joy

Life is a bore

 

[enough of this]

I regret never being in a true relationship - getting married - having kids.
I'm the only person in my direct lineage who's never had children.
Life is lonely without family.

 

[Orbitc]

It saddens me to think that I won't hear new albums from my favorite rock bands. Well, probably the fact that I have never had sex for love. I had many men, but I never loved anyone and I did not have sex that I enjoyed. I hate my job as an escort. It also saddens me to think that I will not take revenge on those whom I hate.

 

[LittleJem]

I am existing knowing that I have no escape from daily mental illness and misery.

I have no desire for anything. Not food, not sites, not travel, not relationships. With my mental illness nothing is enjoyable and relationships have been painful or exploitative. I have nothing on my bucket list.

Not even food or chocolate motivates me now. I don't know how to keep active because I am past caring.

I have lived with mental illness for over thirty years. There is no holiday or experience I want to have with mental illness as my constant companion.

 

[Busridin'26]

Honestly?? I'm not sure when im going... but nothing & everything.

Im gonna miss out on a lot but given that my life is always on hard mode I'm not really missing out....

Wow this tells me my state of mind around suicide... I'm more ready than ever it seems.

 

[iLikeFrogs]

Probably experiencing true happiness, even if it's unachievable and impossible I'd like to experience a glimpse of it for a short while. I know it's impossible for me to experience such a thing so I won't be regretting it too much tho. It's probably only thing I could regret since I've made peace with dying long time ago and now I'm waiting for the right moment.

 

[softgirlluna]

The third book of dust by philip pullman is coming out this year or early next year, i really really don't want to miss that.
Also elder scrolls 6 and gta 6. feels like ive been waiting my whole life for it

 

[Orbitc]

I regret never being in a true relationship - getting married - having kids.
I'm the only person in my direct lineage who's never had children.
Life is lonely without family.

Of course, not all absolutely bad, mean people, there are really happy families, but every day I see how men cheat on their wives. I work as an escort and never wanted to be in the place of my clients' wives. It's better to be alone than to have a husband like one of my clients.

 

[DazaiKinnie]

Warning: This thread is not meant to discourage anyone. Please do what is right for you, whatever that might be.

So I'm planning to go in August, as still I have some things to sort out. Here's some stuff I'll regret not getting to see, from most regret to least:

1. I won't see Hunter x Hunter being completed. Pretty much one of the best pieces of media I've seen out of anime/manga, and there's no way it'll be done by August
2. The Community movie. I'm a big fan and the filming is gonna begin in the summer, so it won't be out by then. That sucks big time.
3. No season 4 of The Boys for me, it'll be out late 2023/early 2024. I was excited to see where the story would go, but there's no way I will.
4. I won't play Persona 6. I love that series, playing a new Persona game for the first time is an amazing experience, it kind of sucks I won't get to do that.

Will my date be pushed back? I'm not sure, but if for whatever reason I decide to do that, it won't be for long. I seriously can't do this anymore, tired of being in this hellhole, and I already tried everything I could.

That's it for me. If you're wondering why all my regrets are specifically regarding media and not the people in my life, the answer is complicated, I guess. There's some people I love and admire but being around them brings me nothing but pain, probably because I can't function around anyone at all, and I can't understand why.

1. I won't be able to finish my current book
2. I won't see any more updates on my favorite video games.
3. The project I work right now on(volunteer work) might crumble. I am both a tester, game designer, and community feedback manager. We are 2 people on the team. At least I want to see this project become something before I ctb, same with my book series.

 

[painIess]

No regrets after death

 

[tora]

1. I won't get to see season 3 of Heartstopper, my favorite show :(
2. I won't get to listen to any new music from my favorite bands
3. I won't get to snuggle with my dog anymore
4. I won't be able to travel to all the places I want to go to
5. I won't be able to hug my mom ever again
6. I won't be able to buy a PS5 to play Horizon Burning Shores

 

[sorrycantsavemenow]

1. I won't get to see season 3 of Heartstopper, my favorite show :(
2. I won't get to listen to any new music from my favorite bands
3. I won't get to snuggle with my dog anymore
4. I won't be able to travel to all the places I want to go to
5. I won't be able to hug my mom ever again
6. I won't be able to buy a PS5 to play Horizon Burning Shores

I just watched Heartstopper first time over the weekend. As a 23 y/o gay guy, I've cried like a little baby. I've realized that over all these closeted and repressed years as a teenager, all I needed was a hug, a kiss a hand to hold -- instead I spent my teenage years in fear and not being myself. It's a beautiful show. I'll cherish the memory of it till the day I die, which I hope, will be soon enough.

 

[roboteulogy]

my potential and what could've been. not having experienced most things in life. not meeting my bestfriend in person.

but it doesn't matter. none of what i want will happen anyway, what's the point of thinking about regrets.