sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
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If you were rich, would you want to live? I think that if I were rich, it would make my life easier, but it still wouldn't make me want to keep living. Life is absurd and I think that we see the reality of it. Life is honestly a cruel game that no amount of money would make me want to play.
 
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tinyghost

tinyghost

go home at dawn sleep in the sun
Sep 13, 2023
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i think money would improve my quality of life enough that i would want to hold on, even though i still have problems money wont fix. it would take a lot off my plate and make life a lot less scary and overwhelming, so i could focus on actually healing
 
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jbear824

jbear824

F*ck humanity. Let's end this.
Jul 4, 2023
409
i think money would improve my quality of life enough that i would want to hold on, even though i still have problems money wont fix. it would take a lot off my plate and make life a lot less scary and overwhelming, so i could focus on actually healing
100% same exact feeling here. There are things money can't fix, but would make living much more bearable.
 
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fishlover

fishlover

in the end, nothing matters
Sep 17, 2023
125
maybe? if i were rich then at the very least i could get all the plastic surgery i wanted and fix my ugly face... im a firm believer that life gets better when youre pretty. but being pretty would only extend my life for a few more years, id still still kms at some point.
 
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WAITING TO DIE

WAITING TO DIE

TORMENTED
Sep 30, 2023
1,539
Being rich would definitely make my life easier than it is now, yet I would still have a problem with living due to my ongoing existential crisis.
I view human existence as pointless, meaningless, deeply confusing and often disturbing.
If I were to become suddenly rich, I would probably give most of the money away and then travel to Switzerland and take a farewell trip in one of those Sarco pods.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
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maybe? if i were rich then at the very least i could get all the plastic surgery i wanted and fix my ugly face... im a firm believer that life gets better when youre pretty. but being pretty would only extend my life for a few more years, id still still kms at some point.
I've heard about the halo effect and how people are nicer to pretty people and treat them better. I think that I'm pretty but not beautiful. It's honestly not fair how people judge others by their physical appearance. I wish that we could be/just see souls instead of having physical appearances.
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
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Well it wouldn't hurt...
 
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l0stc4use

l0stc4use

lonely
May 6, 2022
115
yes because it would give me enough money to afford therapy and good treatment
 
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whateverr

Member
Oct 19, 2021
75
It would probably make it worse for me lol. I have no idea though.
 
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phantomime

phantomime

Student
Feb 9, 2023
118
I don't know. I'd still be sick. But everything would hurt a lot less and I'd at least... Be happy.
 
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i think money would improve my quality of life enough that i would want to hold on, even though i still have problems money wont fix. it would take a lot off my plate and make life a lot less scary and overwhelming, so i could focus on actually healing
Without question, money would make life easier and bearable. If I had more money, it would at least give more options to make life better.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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Honestly, I think I might. Having enough money to just chill is more than enough for me
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
9,885
Somewhere where I could swim somewhere in the wild. Some place natural and beautiful.
 
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feannagan

feannagan

Member
Nov 7, 2023
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If I were rich I would be able to afford the specialist therapy that I have needed since I was a teenager but cannot access in my country's public healthcare system. I can't say if that would be enough to make me want to live, maybe I am too damaged to ever truly get better, but it would provide some hope at least.
 
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venin.n

venin.n

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Nov 2, 2023
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If you were rich, would you want to live? I think that if I were rich, it would make my life easier, but it still wouldn't make me want to keep living. Life is absurd and I think that we see the reality of it. Life is honestly a cruel game that no amount of money would make me want to play.
Of course. Idk for how long, but longer than now anyway❤️
 
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Klophy

Lost...
Jun 28, 2022
197
Not sure i'd be 'cured' but man it would solve a lot of problems.

You always hear money can't buy happiness, but it sure as fuck can rent it.
 
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SpencerSees

SpencerSees

I used to be blind, but now i see
Feb 22, 2023
88
maybe. if i could get away from every single person i've met so far and start over, move away, buy a farm, i probably wouldn't be so suicidal
 
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MeltingBrain

MeltingBrain

Mage
May 29, 2023
580
This might give you some insight .

Would you put off CTB if you magically became a billionaire ?

  • No. I won't put it off ❌
    Votes: 42 20.9%
  • Yes by a few days 🌞
    Votes: 13 6.5%
  • Yes by a few months 🗓️
    Votes: 36 17.9%
  • Yes by a few years 🗓️...
    Votes: 54 26.9%
  • Yes , I will postpone it permenantly ♾️
    Votes: 56 27.9%
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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Of course not having money is a billion times worse than having money.

However even A lot of Money won't make me invulnerable to stroke, accidents cancer , old age, diseases, to extreme pain and suffering. Nothing will only non-existence forever is a guarantee that I won't suffer nor feel pain nor have any problems ever.: why do so many people think non-existence forever is bad? I don't, non-existence forever is the best thing to me.

Every human and sentient animal is under constant threat of extreme pain. Imo DNA based life is the worst function in the universe because nothing else causes extreme pain and extreme suffering and extreme torture
 
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Riality

Riality

Sleeping Forever Soon
Oct 1, 2023
23
Money can make you happy if only your self awareness about reality is low or even zero. When you see the reality of life the lies, the selfishness, the dangerous animals hidden under our human faces, this will cause you to avoid being a human and looking at death as the only option, life is wrong death is right (death is being free from every single worry, you sleep forever no more worrying, no more pain, no more crying, no more hunger, no need to breathe, no need to beg for help, no need to beg for love, you are free! death is a blessing life is a curse no matter how big your bank account is you will cry😢
 
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_apathetic

Not my mother tongue, sorry.
Oct 1, 2023
31
I wish that we could be/just see souls instead of having physical appearances.
Hell nah, I guess people don't really like to see this ugly, disgusting, gloomy soul of mine.
 
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R_N

-Memento Mori-
Dec 3, 2019
1,442
Living as a rich hermit would help me cope better.

It would ease up this existence a little until my departure.
 
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NoHorizon

Experienced
Nov 22, 2022
276
Give me a million pounds and I'll let you know.

Serious answer: I'd give life a damn good go. I could quit my job which is sucking the life out of me, pay for therapy without panicking that I'm wrecking my life by spending my savings, and fix my teeth which would solve half the problems with my face. With those things in hand, I'd feel like the odds of me beating depression would be much more even than they currently are.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,945
No, there is nothing desirable about existence under any circumstances, no matter what I will always see it as preferable to eternally cease existing, existence itself is the true problem and death is the solution, only death can bring permanent relief from all suffering. I see no value in being trapped in this futile existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer. And in general I just don't have much interest in existing, to have the ability to exist is very burdensome and harmful, I find it tiring simply being conscious and aware.
 
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CPY

Student
Oct 30, 2023
130
Sadly all the money in the world can't buy a cure for my issues.It would probably make my life less miserable probably because I wouldn't have to fear having to be homeless in the future
 
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bigfishlittlefish

Student
Dec 21, 2021
148
If you were rich, would you want to live? I think that if I were rich, it would make my life easier, but it still wouldn't make me want to keep living. Life is absurd and I think that we see the reality of it. Life is honestly a cruel game that no amount of money would make me want to play.
My quality of life in a practical sense would suddenly be worth living, for sure - I'd be able to afford a home that's suited to my physical needs, and some kind of carer, but all the money in the world won't cure my genetic disorder, or how alone I am 😢
 
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Ironweed

Ironweed

Nauseated.
Nov 9, 2019
323
When I was younger the only thing that kept me from serious drug use was (a) fear of being unemployed/unemployable, (b) fear of going to prison and (c) affordability. So at that stage of my life a serious amount of cash might have actually accelerated my demise, not kept me alive. I guess it would have depended how much I feared (b), given that (a) and (c) would no longer be factors.

Nowadays, now that I'm old? Definitely maybe, but I'm on the fence regarding CTB as it is presently, so I may not be the best person to answer the question. Will say whatever demons I had once upon a time for drugs and (especially) alcohol seem to have weirdly dissipated with age. Never had any sort of come to Jesus moment, just lost interest, for no reason I can reliably determine.
 
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LonelyKitten

LonelyKitten

Seeking one final escape
Aug 13, 2023
284
Well, my ctb-causing issue is immigration related... (before the loss of my status, I was not at this stage of death)

So I suppose, let's say I won the lottery now...
You can't exactly buy status, but I'd certainly be able to throw those resources at working out a solution.
Extensive lawyer guidance, physical supports.
Or finding somewhere safe to be temporarily while I try to work out a solution.

I guess that could extend my life, but very well might not matter at this point.
I never cared about money for its own sake, it's not what makes me happy.
Big mistake, in a way, as I grew older (25 now) I realize at least a base minimum amount of money was necessary to maintain the things that keep me alive and okay (medication, social contact).
 
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gbi2

Specialist
Jul 10, 2023
311
I was only saying to a friend last night that a few years ago I would have loved a large sum of money to be given to me so I could walk away from the bullying, and live a nice life off the money, never having to work again and enjoying knowing the bully will be very jealous, especially if it was a massive sum, I'd give large amounts to the good work colleagues on the basis that they quit, leaving just the bully there.

But one year later after being through another episode of being mistreated and lied to and about, by people in the very organisation that should be helping people too (the NHS), I said to my friend even if I was given a million, it wouldn't make me happy. It wouldn't change anything for me.

I used to be able to imagine how I would react to a lottery win. Stars, explosions and streamers going off in my head. Now I think I'd just go "Oh ok" and start looking up what things I could now afford to buy to help me go.
 
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natthebrat

natthebrat

only help i want is with ctb
Jul 9, 2023
169
Good question, I'd say that while nowadays, money/work is the main source of my desire to ctb, even as a teenager when I didn't have to worry about that, I was still miserable nearly all the time (but not quite as intense as now). Granted, most of my misery back then was due to gender dysphoria which I don't have anymore since I transitioned. Both then and now however, I've had strange, random obsessions that haven't helped. So, I'd say I slightly lean towards yes, although there's a possibility I'd still want to ctb over something random and stupid.
 
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