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Natty

Student
Jul 27, 2020
138
It would help me right now considerably. I would be able to relocate away from my wife and her family and potentially carry on the good work I did before marrying her and moving across the world to be with her.

Right now it seems like my only hope is the ropes I've made and hidden.
 
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MrBlue

Arcanist
Jul 1, 2020
416
It might delay the inevitable I guess. It wouldn't fix my loneliness, but I could be distracted by fake replacements for friendships/relationships in gold diggers or something for a while. Having enough money to donate to charities and give to my family would also be pretty rewarding.

Now that I think of it, if I was rich I probably wouldn't be for very long...
 
AwokenToReality

AwokenToReality

Just wanna close my eyes, and feel alright
May 27, 2020
90
Would definitely keep me alive for longer (finances being a reason for my decision to ctb) and make me a little happier, however I believe the end result would be the same. I'm a very lonely person, with no friends outside of the internet (even then, there's only really one person online who cares about me) and as much as money can do for you, it can't buy real friendship or love to share experiences with those people, so in reality for me it'd be pointless.
 
DeathNoot

DeathNoot

Student
Feb 19, 2020
137
I would not (for now). My current state would be totally manageable without life stresses. Theres always the potential for things to get worse, however.
 
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Ready2GoNow

Member
Sep 10, 2020
74
I doubt it, money can't fix social skills, you also cant buy friends with it, as a kid richy rich taught me this heh.
Oh you certainly can buy friends. I've done it plenty of times! I'm not rich, just a doormat. So desperate for company I'll allow myself to be used.
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,089
I can't enjoy life no matter what I have or how rich I am. If I could get a doctor to put me on opioids for the pain maybe but that won't happen unfortunately for me. I'm controlled by pain.
 
muffin222

muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,188
Yes. My issues and pain run very deep, and I don't believe a full recovery is possible for me, even with the best therapeutic care out there that money can buy
 
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nitroautnz

Specialist
Sep 11, 2020
361
I would delay only to have few answer that only a therapist (that I cant afford) can give me. But I will still ctb because money wont change my problems, I will just left everything to my family and friends.
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
And which country would that be?
Just curious, not that any country would have a significantly better mental health care system... they probably suck everywhere.
If the people from the US and UK are dissatisfied with their HCS's, imagine what people from poorer countries would say.
Is ANYONE satisfied with their country's health care system?
US ..but I'm not here to debate who has it worse.This is not a suffering contest...no I don't imagine "ANYONE" is satisfied...I was just stating my opinion of my own situation.

And That's not the point. The point is lots of people want treatment and want to keep living but they can't afford it.
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,089
Oh you certainly can buy friends. I've done it plenty of times! I'm not rich, just a doormat. So desperate for company I'll allow myself to be used.
Can we be friends? lol No sorry I was trying to be funny, but seriously I have done that too, most of the time actually.
 
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greebo6

Enlightened
Sep 11, 2020
1,544
Tbh I don't think I would. Sure money doesn't directly buy happiness, but it definitely does indirectly. I'd be happy if I was living in a beach house in Hawaii, didn't have to worry about finances or anything for that matter, could hire the best therapist there is, could spend my days doing things I enjoy.

instead I'm broke as fuck, have to slave away 5 days a week in exchange for 2 days of freedom, just to earn enough to cover my bills and not much more. Can't afford to do things that bring me happiness (like travelling). Being rich would change everything. Why do some people get born into rich/loving families, and others into poor/abusive ones? What kind of shit is that
Yes , because I know money can't buy the things that would make me truly happy. No amount can .
US ..but I'm not here to debate who has it worse.This is not a suffering contest...no I don't imagine "ANYONE" is satisfied...I was just stating my opinion of my own situation.

And That's not the point the point. The point is lots of people want treatment and want to keep living but they can't afford it.
US ..but I'm not here to debate who has it worse.This is not a suffering contest...no I don't imagine "ANYONE" is satisfied...I was just stating my opinion of my own situation.

And That's not the point the point. The point is lots of people want treatment and want to keep living but they can't afford it.
Ours is good but could be better. (U.K)
 
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Ready2GoNow

Member
Sep 10, 2020
74
Can we be friends? lol No sorry I was trying to be funny, but seriously I have done that too, most of the time actually.
You know what they say, behind every joke is a little bit of truth
I'm FINALLY over that phase in my life though. Buying people's love doesn't work long term. Only a short term illusion. Rather be a recluse than a doormat. Fuck everyone who used me and discarded me like trash too, it's most certainly their loss. No fucker on this planet is as selfless, generous, and loving as me. That's one thing I can say for sure
 
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Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,089
Rather be a recluse than a doormat. Fuck everyone who used me and discarded me like trash too, it's most certainly their loss. No fucker on this planet is as selfless, generous, and loving as me. That's one thing I can say for sure
You sound like me. I have PTSD from the way I've been treated by people I did everything for. I'm alone and better off.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,165
I'd definitely be motivated to live for some years, I mean, a rich's life is kinda tempting, but then I'd CTB anyway because money can't solve my existence issues. And as one user said, I'd die happily giving all that money to my family and donating some of it to different institutions :)
 
Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
Aug 21, 2019
1,938
No but it'd be delayed. I also wouldn't CTB if I could NEET either even without being rich. I'm not working some wageslave job though.
 
CrazyMary

CrazyMary

Student
Sep 20, 2020
135
Well with Covid money doesn´t really make any difference. Think of all the rich people that CTB, Kurt Cobain, Chris Cornell, Chester Bennington, the list goes on and on. If you have a void inside you money can fill it up for a while but without a real purpose or meaning in your life you would eventually go back to your suicidal tendencies.
 
BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

Enlightened
Aug 6, 2020
1,456
If I were rich I'd still have personal issues to deal with, but most of my practical problems would be solved.
 
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TheQ22

Enlightened
Aug 17, 2020
1,097
Covid is going to ruin so many people's lives (well the lockdowns etc are), so I expect a lot of people will have financial issues to contend with that will push them over the edge.
 
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NeverGrowUp

Member
Oct 2, 2020
55
Ya know, I think beyond being able to do cool things with friends I think wealth doesn't really change mental aspects for a lot of people. I was talking about aging with my friend the other day, and we basically were talking about how everything above your basic needs and some comforts are status symbols. His parents are in healthcare and make decent money, but he said they come home exhausted and watch TV all evening. Then I told him about a very wealthy housewife I know who despite not having to work, just sits in her multimillion dollar home watching TV all day too.

I used to be obsessed with status items, then I realized they do nothing for my mental health. Tons of lavish vacations generated great memories, but only because I had friends there with me. Wealth by itself doesn't do much, because if you're unhappy anywhere by yourself like I am, you'll generally be unhappy anywhere on the globe.

I'm very ambivalent about my death, I really do NOT want to get old and I'm unable to work so I feel deserving of SSI at least. Hey, even on that tiny income, I'll be doing the same stuff my wealthy friends parents do all day apparently, sitting around watching TV. If I knew I wouldn't have to work or leech off of my parents and would have a guaranteed monthly income for the rest of my life I might even buy an RV or something and live close by, delaying my death. Just knowing you have your basic needs met without having to save and constantly be terrified of funding the future does a huge amount of good for your mental health.

I have BPD, and I think of someone like Marilyn Monroe who was also reported to have it. She was extremely wealthy and famous, yet she said she was "generally miserable." If her vast wealth and freedom to do whatever she wanted didn't make her happy, there isn't much hope for someone normal with the condition.
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,533
Yes. If I was wealthy it might give me access to resources that will make my vanishing and death easier and quicker.
 
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k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,541
Money is not one of my reasons for being here, so having more of it isn't going to make me not suicidal. But it might help distract me for a little bit first.
 
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Xander_McG

Xander_McG

Member
Sep 12, 2020
42
Yes having money would help me, because I would just go out and buy strippers and booze and the best spychiatrist/counsellors that money could buy. And possibly new houses for all my family, i think that would make me feel happier
 
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JustLosingMyself

Mage
Sep 4, 2018
544
1st define rich.

i.e. Someone earning €100 a week but needs only €99 is rich.
Someone earning €20000 a week but needs €20001 is poor.

Money makes parts of life easier (security and comfort) and some harder (keeping and protecting your assets is work). You also never know if you're loved because of you being you or because of you being useful.

Enough "rich" people are depressed and commit suicide.
 
Cant Maintain

Cant Maintain

Garbage Fire
Aug 21, 2020
147
If I were rich I could be the one taking care of my friends instead of the other way around so maybe. However depression doesn't discriminate and life is a crap shoot, i could have a million dollars and probably be depressed enough to not want to be around
 

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