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lostontheroad

lostontheroad

Member
May 1, 2022
20
I guess bad? I worry a lot about what I will do when I am out of control and worry I will hurt someone which really drives my desire to cbt before that happens. Usually I just hurt myself a lot. Despite being on a ton of medication I still want to kill myself every single day and when I tell therapists how I feel they won't get near me. So it feels pretty untreatable.
I'm so sorry man. That really sucks.
 
loststar

loststar

Just looking for the way
Apr 18, 2022
56
Id be relieved, id turn down treatment and self meddicate on all tge things they say will kill you
 
NobodyKnowsMe

NobodyKnowsMe

Just biding my time
Dec 21, 2021
582
I think that it would eliminate, or at least minimize, the extreme guilt that I feel every time I think about ctb. I definitely wouldn't bother with treatment and would probably accelerate finding a quick and relatively painless way out of this world.
 
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RN12

RN12

Student
Jul 25, 2021
180
My bucket list, is watching all my dvds again of my fav tv shows from the 80's, 90's and early 00. Along with relistening to all my records, cassette tapes and cds!
cool! That's a achievable bucket list :) I'm happy that you can still enjoy such things!
 
Pain In The Ass

Pain In The Ass

Wizard
Feb 10, 2022
638
I would celebrate by spending all my savings on cocaine, heroin, oxy, Xanax, alcohol, hotels, hookers and cigarillos
 
Al Cappella

Al Cappella

Are we there yet?
Feb 2, 2022
888
I don't think anything would change—but that's easy to say not having one. I think if I got one that stopped me from being able to move—that would be crushing. But then again, I could still write or draw, etc. I've already had a couple of near misses, and do actually have a form of cancer that's about as non-fatal as you can get, unless you're really unlucky (or lucky, depending). So I don't know. Some mulling, initially. I might go for the extra cheesecake, I mean what the hell, right?
 
TheWood

TheWood

Experienced
Mar 1, 2022
216
I think that when you have a bad illness or even a disability that is mental or physical, the dignity that remains in such a life is poor. Not everyone is made to fight to the end, this is a fact to be accepted. It's useless to want to live on people's suffering, so in these cases above all, ctb is a request and need that is more than human
 
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SpinsterHag

SpinsterHag

Member
May 1, 2022
17
I guess bad? I worry a lot about what I will do when I am out of control and worry I will hurt someone which really drives my desire to cbt before that happens. Usually I just hurt myself a lot. Despite being on a ton of medication I still want to kill myself every single day and when I tell therapists how I feel they won't get near me. So it feels pretty untreatable.
Do you ever think they have you over medicated? When I was on six different ones, it pushed me over the edge. They kept bumping up the dosage, I was a walking fn zombie. ALL six said the same warning, "may increase suicidal thoughts" ... Ya, they did......I walked out of the BEST job I ever had after 11 yrs cuz I was either going to die by suicide or commit a homicide. I didn't want to do either, so I packed up my desk and walked out. Haven't worked since April 2013. I literally lost EVERYTHING I ever worked so hard for.
I think that when you have a bad illness or even a disability that is mental or physical, the dignity that remains in such a life is poor. Not everyone is made to fight to the end, this is a fact to be accepted. It's useless to want to live on people's suffering, so in these cases above all, ctb is a request and need that is more than human
The stories are coming out saying that country super star Naomi Judd did die by suicide. The below paragraph is an expert from the People article I read a little bit ago.

"To understand this issue better, we have to bring the study of suicide into mainstream neuroscience and treat the condition like every other brain disorder," continued the note. "People who commit suicide are experiencing problems with mood, impulse control and aggression, all of which involve discrete circuits in the brain that regulate these aspects of human experience, but we still don't understand how these circuits go haywire in the brains of suicide victims."
 
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FireFox

FireFox

Enlightened
Apr 8, 2020
1,875
I would be absolutely delighted if I had a terminal illness because my life is going to come to an end and I won't have to see the future anymore

I would love life even more if I was terminally ill. If I was terminally ill I would have so much before I die:

- I would go to a theme park
- vist Wales as there is so much culture and stunning landscapes to explore. I learnt rescently i have Welsh ancestry.
- getting stoned
Then die
 
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Intelligent_Panic99

Intelligent_Panic99

Student
Jan 4, 2022
114
Do you ever think they have you over medicated? When I was on six different ones, it pushed me over the edge. They kept bumping up the dosage, I was a walking fn zombie. ALL six said the same warning, "may increase suicidal thoughts" ... Ya, they did......I walked out of the BEST job I ever had after 11 yrs cuz I was either going to die by suicide or commit a homicide. I didn't want to do either, so I packed up my desk and walked out. Haven't worked since April 2013. I literally lost EVERYTHING I ever worked so hard for.

The stories are coming out saying that country super star Naomi Judd did die by suicide. The below paragraph is an expert from the People article I read a little bit ago.

"To understand this issue better, we have to bring the study of suicide into mainstream neuroscience and treat the condition like every other brain disorder," continued the note. "People who commit suicide are experiencing problems with mood, impulse control and aggression, all of which involve discrete circuits in the brain that regulate these aspects of human experience, but we still don't understand how these circuits go haywire in the brains of suicide victims."
I have felt the same on no medication too. But when I go off the withdraw makes me way more likely too kill myself impulsively. I hate the medications, but I just keep taking them because they do curb the impulsivity which just ends me up in the psych ward. the impulsive suicidal thoughts in my head are so bad. So bad. and I have impulsive urges to hurt others too (esp. when driving). I am so scared it will get to the point I can't control it at all.
 
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Efilismislife

Efilismislife

Psychopath family tortured me
May 25, 2021
642
Even on here I've seen threads from physically ailed people saying they wouldn't ctb if they just had a mental illness instead lol

100% agree. Good luck with the cyst, you know what I mean.
Yeah, though physically illness likely to cause mental illness too. The stress, anger, sadness, etc will cause mental issue.

Thats why ppl with illness are hopeless and want to give up on life=mental issue
 
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braindead91

braindead91

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May 5, 2022
31
I would love a terminal illness. Do some fun drugs on my way out and get assisted dying somewhere.
 
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