If you lived alone would you be dead by now

[ddn.ctb]

I have always wondered about that.

I go through deep mood swings where it's not even in my thoughts. At the other end I am a 10 and ready to step off

But I won't do it so a family member finds me. So I wait for that business trip where I take my hanging kit with me.

I wait for that mood to arrive with it

My guess it will coincide at one point. And that I'd be hanging less an hour later

 

[Wistful]

Probably yes

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Yes, I would. It's been years since I was able to rent a place but I've never lived somewhere that I could call my own. Always living with other people and being afraid of drinking my SN because I might be found too soon is horrible.

If I lived in my own place right now I could drink it. For now I have to figure out where and when to do it but it's frustrating.

 

[todeswunsch]

No, I used to live alone before losing my job. I was pretty suicidal but SI kept me wandering as it does today.
In my parents home I get a lot of alone time everyweek, and I don't have frequent contact stuck at my room.
So even living with my parents I can't say I lack opportunity to CTB.
I think SI and inertia is what keeps me here

 

[Some place nice]

I can't be alone for very long or I'll go down hill fast. About the third day of living alone I would ctb.

 

[Heading to Darkness]

I live alone now and just about still here i dont think my departure tomorrow has much to do with being alone though i do miss having adult conversation sometimes so who knows maybe things would have been different if i still had a partner

 

[kilowatt]

No way. Living with my parents is what ruined me. I would probably still have suicidal thoughts, but I wouldn't act on it as much as I am now.

 

[ddn.ctb]

I live alone now and just about still here i dont think my departure tomorrow has much to do with being alone though i do miss having adult conversation sometimes so who knows maybe things would have been different if i still had a partner

May you find peace where ever you go

 

[FakeNewYorker]

very probably yes

 

[Sarros]

Almost certainly so. I can't stand being alone. Whether the company is good or bad. It's maddening to be by myself.

 

[AllCatsAreGrey]

I'm pretty confident that if I lived alone I would have ctb. The direct people around me are the biggest reasons I haven't already. There have been times where I've been very resentful about that. Currently, I'm feel appreciative.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

Emphatically yes. If I lived alone I would absolutely not be here. I don't exactly live with the healthiest influence but if I was on my own I would be 10x worse. No one to reign me in or have to worry about finding me. I like my alone time but if I was completely isolated and had nothing but solitude I would just drink myself to death. I like lying to myself and pretending I don't need a support system but I do. Even if the one I have now is really just me emotionally supporting them and them financially supporting me. Lets just say I hate myself

 

[Anonymoususer1234]

It's hard to say. On the one hand I think living alone—truly alone—(ie not in an apartment with neighbors above, below an beside me, but in my own little house) might solve a lot of my problems. I'd finally have peace and quiet.

I know nobody would reach out. They'd forget me. Sometimes I feel like they already have.

That situation, being left to my own devices, would make it easier to act on my impulses. Plus I would have more peace of mind. I'd know for sure that nobody cares enough to stop me.

Though I don't think I'm quite so intensely suicidal. I think I would just become a hermit.

 

[Iris Blue]

I do think so, sometimes not willingly. That's what happened when I moved in with my best friend last year. The thought of being on a lease for the apartment is what kept me there because I didn't want my friend to be alone and also the apartment rent would be paid without me being there. That is why when the lease ends in a few days I finally will CTB.

 

[Hikikomori1]

Yes

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Undoubtedly.

 

[tiger b]

Probably

 

[Forever Sleep]

I've lived alone over 20 years so- no. I'm waiting for my Dad to go first. Doesn't matter that he wouldn't find my body. I think it would still devastate him.

But yes- I'm grateful at least that I will have privacy if/when the time comes. Still worried about the neighbours though- the walls are really thin.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case the problem is how suicide methods are cruelly made inaccessible. It just doesn't automatically make suicide straightforward if there isn't the risk of other people who live in the same house potentially interfering, it isn't like one can choose to just die. If guaranteed methods that are painless were able to be easily accessed then yes.

 

[bigfishlittlefish]

I have always wondered about that.

I go through deep mood swings where it's not even in my thoughts. At the other end I am a 10 and ready to step off

But I won't do it so a family member finds me. So I wait for that business trip where I take my hanging kit with me.

I wait for that mood to arrive with it

My guess it will coincide at one point. And that I'd be hanging less an hour later

I've lived alone for six years now, and will (not through choice) til I ctb. the main thing that's stopped me so far is trying to figure out how to make sure I don't get found too early, or so long after that it's awful for whoever has to deal with it. I know I'll be dead but if that happened to be anyone I know, I couldn't put them through it - and tbh it's probably still horrific even for police or paramedics to deal with.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Oh, yes, absolutely. But not because of suicide. I'd simply die from homelessness and starvation as I don't know how to take care of myself

 

[Kit1]

100%. Yes.