I once met someone in a clinic. This person was a similar mental wreck than me. It is rather rare I meet someone in real life with a similar bad mental health.
The person was also interested in politics. I met this person two times. I met him a second time at another clinic stay years afterwards. And he had no teeth anymore. Or at least extremely black teeth. I think he rejected the idea of brushing them. We both took too much benzos in the meantime. They are pretty dangerous and just made our problems worse. I think though he took more benzos than me and also more frequently. I can remember he was very offensive towards staff members. And I wondered it seemed like they didn't blame him for that. I think the benzo withdrawal made him aggressive, I think he wasn't suicidal though.
He told me he once was on welfare. He inherited a house and had to sell it. He got like 150k for it. But you are not allowed to have this amount of money if you are on welfare. So he had to spend that money. He spent everything on clothes. He was sometimes a little bit too open about his sexuality. I wonder why he didn't consider to decide for an escort service. It was some time ago but I think he might have had a significant other to that time. He told me he regrets afterwards that she spent everything on clothes. I told him a small apartment would have been a wiser choice. In my country you are allowed to own a small apartment even if you are on welfare from what I know.
The story made me think what I would do with this amount of money. I don't have that amount of money. I would maybe decide for a small apartment. But if also this wasn't possible.
Everything in gambling of course. Jk.
I think sex work can be unethical. Maybe I would use a lot from this money on ethical sex work. I had to think about the conditions though. My friends joked obviously one should spend that money on drug and sex parties. Well I think I don't want to take drugs. I have to admit I take one anti anxiety medication that has a very positive impact on my sexuality. But I consider this off-label use and not drug abuse. Lol. I think sex parties in my friend group would be extremely awkward and uncomfortable. I also would not want to see my friends naked. Lol. There are videos of soccer players that treat sex workers extremely disrespectful. Tabloid media reported about it. Clothes would interesting. I don't like traveling. Oh when I asked chatGPT for feedback. It reminded me of one obvious answer for me. New teeth. I don't think my teeth look that horrible but I envy people with really good looking teeth. I would like to have the Jürgen Klopp version of teeth. (German soccer trainer who bought himself new teeth.)
Lol.
I think I will end it here.
The person was also interested in politics. I met this person two times. I met him a second time at another clinic stay years afterwards. And he had no teeth anymore. Or at least extremely black teeth. I think he rejected the idea of brushing them. We both took too much benzos in the meantime. They are pretty dangerous and just made our problems worse. I think though he took more benzos than me and also more frequently. I can remember he was very offensive towards staff members. And I wondered it seemed like they didn't blame him for that. I think the benzo withdrawal made him aggressive, I think he wasn't suicidal though.
He told me he once was on welfare. He inherited a house and had to sell it. He got like 150k for it. But you are not allowed to have this amount of money if you are on welfare. So he had to spend that money. He spent everything on clothes. He was sometimes a little bit too open about his sexuality. I wonder why he didn't consider to decide for an escort service. It was some time ago but I think he might have had a significant other to that time. He told me he regrets afterwards that she spent everything on clothes. I told him a small apartment would have been a wiser choice. In my country you are allowed to own a small apartment even if you are on welfare from what I know.
The story made me think what I would do with this amount of money. I don't have that amount of money. I would maybe decide for a small apartment. But if also this wasn't possible.
Everything in gambling of course. Jk.
I think sex work can be unethical. Maybe I would use a lot from this money on ethical sex work. I had to think about the conditions though. My friends joked obviously one should spend that money on drug and sex parties. Well I think I don't want to take drugs. I have to admit I take one anti anxiety medication that has a very positive impact on my sexuality. But I consider this off-label use and not drug abuse. Lol. I think sex parties in my friend group would be extremely awkward and uncomfortable. I also would not want to see my friends naked. Lol. There are videos of soccer players that treat sex workers extremely disrespectful. Tabloid media reported about it. Clothes would interesting. I don't like traveling. Oh when I asked chatGPT for feedback. It reminded me of one obvious answer for me. New teeth. I don't think my teeth look that horrible but I envy people with really good looking teeth. I would like to have the Jürgen Klopp version of teeth. (German soccer trainer who bought himself new teeth.)
Lol.
I think I will end it here.
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