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snowyyy

snowyyy

in pursuit of freedom
Nov 26, 2023
34
Living a life without suicidal, self-destructive thoughts and more....
A life where you have strength, you can feel happiness, no mental illnesses attack your head
A life where people love you, you have many friends and a good job along with a home
If you had this opportunity would you take it?

I wouldn't.
I hate human existence, I hate being human and experiencing human things and emotions. It is shallow and meaningless to me. Even a happy life would not help me break free.
How about you?
 
sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that's just me
Sep 13, 2023
7,365
I wouldn't take it because I hate being human as well. I hate experiencing human things and emotions, and just the whole human experience. I feel like I was born on the wrong planet and in the wrong species. Nothing about life appeals to me. Everything seems so meaningless and pointless
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

She wished that she never existed...
Sep 24, 2020
34,102
In my case I'd certainly never wish to exist under any circumstances, I'd always prefer to permanently not exist. There are no disadvantages to not existing so of course I'd wish for that, I see human existence as burdensome and also just a harmful imposition.
And I don't understand how existence could ever be good at all as in existence there is certainly no limit as to how much one can suffer. All humans have the potential to experience agony to such extreme amounts all while they are slowly dying and deteriorating, destined for nothing but to be tormented by old age.

Existence is undeniably so hellish and I also hate human existence, I see it as an abomination. I just don't see any benefit to being conscious and aware trapped inside a decaying flesh prison that we are slaves to, I also just don't wish to experience anything, for me simply existing is tiresome and just leads to suffering, I want true peace which can only be found in the absence of everything.
Only non-existence is ideal to me as then there are no problems, no concerns, no need for anything and one lacks the ability to suffer in an existence that was always meaningless and undesirable in the first place.
 
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thot88

Student
Apr 11, 2023
102
I would take the opportunity immediately if I could get clarity and peace. I wish there was more to life than getting old and getting sick.

What worries me the most about my own death is how my family will take it. But I don't want to grow old if life is anxiety and stress caused by trying to find my place in this world.
 
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TiredOfAllThis

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2024
422
I probably would. Even my mental issues were not such a problem as freaking predators.
 
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Yuki_03

Yuki_03

I really can't take it
Aug 9, 2023
353
I would. My main reason to ctb is that the world around me is too shitty to bear. So I want it to end. If I could, I would change the world and society, friends and family, so there was a "perfect world". But I can't, and this world is too shitty for me to continue. But if a fairy came to resolve all of our problems, or some God decided to save us, I would take that better life. But that's impossible.
 
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ultrasharpy123456

Mage
Aug 18, 2022
545
Believe it or not that's what I'm trying to do. In fact that's pretty much the reason I'm still here. I'm not against killing myself, it's just that there's somethings I'd like to experience before I die. There's so many things that happened and things I did that I wish I could undo, make it so they never happened, nobody remembers them or knows them, there's no proof of them happening, no wars, no geocide, no racism, no bullying, no poverty, no abuse, no hatred of suicidal people, no single annoying struggle that we have to deal with. I want to live on a completely different Earth.

I have worlds and realities to shift to, videogames to play that I want to play that are in my head that simply do not exist, things I want to say here but can't because they'd probably offend people here, magic I want to experience (like actual magic, like Disney magic in real life) but.. that's fantasy. It's make believe. It's not real. It can't happen. But I wish it could happen. I wish to God it could happen.

I just want to be happy.
 
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kunikuzushi

kunikuzushi

sause
Jan 24, 2023
156
I wouldn't take the opportunity because everything good can be taken from you without warning. Life is just loss upon loss. Why would I want to have a happy life just to die and have my loved ones die in the end? I'd rather get dying over with as soon as possible.
 
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Ironborn

Student
Jan 29, 2024
103
In my experience a chance is not good enough, not with my luck.
People say you have to take risks but these are people who can fall into shit and come out smelling of roses
For me it's a case of if it's a 50/50 shot 9 times out of 10 I'm going to lose.
I swear life is balanced so for every lucky git out there there is someone like me who can only role snake eyes lol.
 
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morgueprincess

morgueprincess

ghost
Dec 26, 2023
24
i would take it. i want to make up for the life i couldn't live, as knowing i haven't fulfilled what i could have been is a major reason i am still here. that, and the unknown.
 
MyChoiceAlone

MyChoiceAlone

sleep deprived and/or drunk
Jul 23, 2023
1,148
nah, i didn't live a terrible life but it certainly is going downhill fast and none of the things you mentioned really interest me. i decided to try and hang on a little longer just so my dad would not know. prefer not to put him through that even though we were never really close or anything. also, if he gives me more inheritance, i'd like to donate that before i go.
 
Ash

Ash

Wizard
Oct 4, 2021
609
I would. I want to CTB because I can't seem to access that kind of life. Instead every little unexpected change of plans derails me and it's best to not ask about how I cope in the face of anything that's unexpected and BIG!
 
The Burning Fool

The Burning Fool

Falling through the abyss of insanity
Sep 12, 2023
289
I'd only stop being frustrated if there were no problems like war, hunger, unjust laws, bedbugs, flu, dust, noise and so on. I'd be frustrated in any heaven that I can imagine, but I don't want to feel frustrated at all and I can't help it, so death is the best that can happen to me. Basically I'm the only real problem in the equation.
 
MundaneMoths

MundaneMoths

Member
Mar 9, 2024
12
I think I'd take the simpler life with parents who cared over the baggage I carry now. It's been a long time since the major traumas, plenty of therapy and work, but I've learned it will always affect me, and it's a lonely life
 
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FitsTime

FitsTime

Wizard
Feb 22, 2024
640
I would take it, but just to gain enough freedom(if you can call that freedom) to do what i want with my life.
Depression invalidated me and made things harder, but somehow i made something out of life-
It is better to live the life or ctb when you collected enough stuff and you cleared your mind.
 
strangelife

strangelife

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
368
Of course, I would take advantage of this opportunity, if there is no illness in this life, then I will arrange everything else perfectly myself.
 
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RosesFlourish

RosesFlourish

There’s a chance I could make it
Feb 16, 2024
55
I would 100% take that opportunity. I'm still holding onto that possibility now in my adult life.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
2,406
I would take it if it was effortless for me to get. However, if it takes effort, I just simply won't bother
 
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mtoro998

Experienced
Feb 29, 2024
250
Absolutely I would like not to be depressed again. Id also like to stop contemplating suicide but its not possible at the moment in my current reality.
 
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theboy

theboy

Visionary
Jul 15, 2022
2,812
I do not know. I just want to die to rest in peace even if they give me the option of an ideal life.
 
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astonishedturnip

astonishedturnip

Like Christine Chubbuck, but sadder
Jan 16, 2024
127
Absolutely, 100%. I love the beauties and joys of life, I have hobbies I enjoy, things I look forward to. But it's fucking cruel to live a life like this -- with my own mind trying to kill me, a handful of friends whose lives would not be affected if I were to disappear forever, no boyfriend or children, facing down one of the worst housing markets and economies in my life and worrying constantly about my aging parents who are the only people who care about me and don't just toss me aside or outgrow me like so many of my "friends." And seeing happiness remain so far out of my reach no matter how hard I try, is what's killing me every single day. I have some hope. But it's getting harder by the day to imagine still chasing after happiness for another three decades and coming up short yet again.
 
DesperateOne

DesperateOne

Experienced
May 25, 2023
295
No fucking shit, I obviously would...
 
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Quinton Coldwater

Member
Aug 22, 2023
57
I would even with how shit my life is now I don't want to die but I just cant handle living and death just seems like the lesser of two evils at this point but I always found death terrifying like how could I not exist but now not bring here seems like the only way to get peace.
Took the words right outta my mouth down to the T
 
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darkenmydoorstep

darkenmydoorstep

Not Waving But Browned Off….
Sep 27, 2023
405
Living a life without suicidal, self-destructive thoughts and more....
A life where you have strength, you can feel happiness, no mental illnesses attack your head
A life where people love you, you have many friends and a good job along with a home
If you had this opportunity would you take it?

I wouldn't.
I hate human existence, I hate being human and experiencing human things and emotions. It is shallow and meaningless to me. Even a happy life would not help me break free.
How about you?
When I think about a life I'd be *most* comfortable with, it is living a life alone with cats in a tiny (1/2 rooms) house or caravan by the sea, close to nature, a shop and maybe a nice cafe and library. People, for me have always caused me the most stress, followed by bureaucracy/finances and cleaning, so the further I can get from those things, the better.

A tiny space with hardly any material goods that took minimal cleaning would be ideal but even that may not be enough.

The problem with life is there's always something new and unforeseen you have to navigate - an illness, an appliance breaking down - and I just don't want to have to navigate it. The supposed 'highs' are just not worth it. I just want rest.
 
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cantthinkofusername

cantthinkofusername

wannabe girl
Feb 25, 2024
102
non existence > happiness > unhappiness
 
BlazingBob

BlazingBob

Mage
Oct 28, 2021
531
No. Even if you have all of those things you still have to deal with assholes, especially at work. Traffic. Loss. Forget it. I'm done with humanity and society. Perhaps I might entertain the idea in a completely different paradigm, something futuristic like star trek. But as things are I'd just rather not exist.
 
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