If the corrupt NHS didn't hoax us all I wouldn't have been left to be my own F'n consultant. Left to rot. Somehow, I look at ending it and it does not interest me. I still have no purpose, no friends the only people who know I exist are clinicians. My Psychiatrist of 15yrs got ill and left. They replaced him with zilch. One med goes out of stock. Ignored. Had to buy online from my benefits. I sent in a complaint, before they replied they enforced harassment blocks - not allowed on hospital premises, no more than 1 call every 2 weeks. Sent the report to police too, all before I received the outcome of my complaint which went nowhere. All I did was lose my temper over the phone! After years of their mistakes. For a whole year I was left on dexamfetamine which turned me into a hateful animal. Now there's no Ritalin to move to so I'm still stuck on the dex. I have my dad, he's 74 in Jan. Ruined our relationship cos of my behaviour. I'm a rambling tongue tied wreck. Saw new consultant twice now, stopped buying the bupropion online and he put me on nortriptyline with I asked for, after persuading him with a fistful of referenced papers. 2nd appointment was Nov 27th, increased the dose. What happened the next day? Pharmacy called me to say bupropion was back in stock! How come I found out before him? I've ditched the nortriptyline and told the GP to resume my repeat script for bupropion. Computer says no! Useless, give me the script and pen. Ordered more bupropion again, been on it since 2007. The clinic I left a Yr ago holds all my records. Why? They have closed down! Because of them nobody can see my history, no records at all. I sent them an email saying I have contacted the Data Protection Act. I've been asking for my records for over 8 months. The law says they have 1 month to supply them upon request, in tare cases 3. Its been over 8. They know how ill I am cos they have my records. they're supposed to be mental illness experts, and yet they continued to ignore me. How have I avoided speed psychosis? Hell sure knows. All this with zero assistance. I'm adamant that there will be hell to pay for breaking every rule in psychiatry. Pandemic compliant a holes. Strange, I'm not even murderous. If I ever get back to working on myself I'll be dead from diabetes complications. When you're heads a mess, everything else comes second. I'm now physically ill cause of missing insulin injections. The stress has done my memory in. I live in a tip, can't keep on top of the chores. Every time I have called outside help, they always ask "do you have a care plane?"
Care plan? What care plan? All the charities can't deal with complex 'clients '. I confuse all doctors cos they don't understand my language - I'm only repeating what I know from hundreds of thousands of hrs of research. Not for any degree or licence, just to find things that might help. theres plenty that will help but its always no no no. Uneducated indoctranated Clowns.
