• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.

S like Siren

S like Siren

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,591
I gave myself a lot of chances to recover and retry again at life but it always ended up worst...i feel very tired now after all these years,i just want kill myself
 
O

onlyway63

Member
Nov 5, 2022
19
I don't think my existence can be fixed as it is.
I have some vague ideas about things I would do differently if I could go back and do it again, but I don't know if any of them would do any good. I've thought for years about where it all went wrong, or what I could've done to fix things before I passed the point of no return, but I still haven't been able to figure it out.
 
Barteljaap

Barteljaap

Member
Jan 17, 2021
78
This question only makes sense if I could go back in time while retaining all my memories.

It wouldn't really be about making different life choices. But more about having greater mental toughness so that I wouldn't be as shaken/traumatized by different things that happened to me. I wish I could go back and help my younger self process different negative events in a better way and also stand up for myself more when dealing with people.

My life choices weren't bad, I just couldn't execute on them well.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: SamTam33 and deadliftEnjoyer
Altvtysp

Altvtysp

Member
Nov 5, 2022
96
i wonder if you want to give yourself one last chance , what would you change ? , what kind of new things your gonna do ? you will start from the beginning or you will try to fix what you have ? What would you say to this world ? What would you say to the world ?
Why don't you do it now ?
One last chance? I've destroyed my life multiple times over the past 2 decades and after each one I'd have to find employment and a place to live and sometimes even a relationship which were always a disaster. I'm going to CTB because I'm thoroughly exhausted with rebuilding my life over again just to self destruct it. This pattern repeats endlessly but I will be putting a stop to it now. Even if I could magically get my job back and make the damage to my face disappear I wouldn't take it because I would just be in this same position months from now.
 
  • Love
  • Hugs
Reactions: SamTam33 and deadliftEnjoyer
jackie_boy1337

jackie_boy1337

Member
Nov 5, 2022
77
I'd pre-emptively cut everybody off, turn myself into a recluse and not let anybody have any insight into my life.

The more people you have close to you, the more people there are around to fuck things up in the long run.

Even though I'm basically in a "too little, too late" situation, I'm still going to give that a try when I start my new job and see how it goes.

Who needs friends when you have your crippling depression to keep you company?
 
  • Like
Reactions: SamTam33
U

UnlimitedPain

Looking For The End!!
Nov 5, 2022
317
Give myself the abilities that I lack
 
𖣴 nadia 𖣴

𖣴 nadia 𖣴

...member...
Dec 15, 2021
252
It wouldn't change the circumstances I was born in to, and it wouldn't change the people in my life and the impact they had/have on me, so in all liklihood a second chance would just lead me down the same road again.
 
HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

Warlock
Sep 28, 2022
707
I wouldn't watch pornography. I would take care of my body and eat healthier. I wouldn't do hard drugs like methamphetamine and heroin. I'd stay away from miserable people that only want to drag me down with them. I wouldn't spend all my time focusing on the most negative and depressing things about life. I'd spend more time away from technology. I don't know it's probably a lot of different things that I would do differently.
all of those things can be stopped and changed now still though.
even though its done its damage, there can be some recovery and also prevent further damage by stopping.
 

Similar threads

thaelyana
Replies
6
Views
226
Suicide Discussion
Gustav Hartmann
Gustav Hartmann
S
Replies
3
Views
166
Suicide Discussion
SomedayorNexttime
S
Sergeant45
Replies
11
Views
392
Suicide Discussion
thaelyana
thaelyana
D
Replies
1
Views
188
Suicide Discussion
wham311
W