Discussion If you could push a button to get rid of your suicidal thoughts, would you? Poll

[Emeralds]

It wouldn't make a difference. Getting rid of the suicidal thoughts themselves wouldn't solve anything. The thoughts just don't come out of nowhere for no reason. The underlying cause would have to be addressed.

The thoughts themselves aren't the problem. I can always put them in the back of my mind when I have to concentrate on doing other things. I would still have the same problems and be trapped in the same circumstances that are causing the suicidal thoughts.

 

[Trav1989]

I vote no personally because my desire to CTB stems from my life experiences panning out badly and not desiring to CTB would be the same as taking a "happy pill" while your world burns around you.

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

I originally polled, "I'm not sure," but changed it to no. It's an issue of choice and freedom.

It reminds me of this Cioran quote:

 

[cantThinkOfName]

Depends. Does it fix the problems that cause it or do I no longer want to kill myself and just feel miserable. If the former then yes, if the latter then I'd rather have the desire to kill myself so that the choice to keep living or end it is always on the table. Maybe I'll decide to live and end up happy or maybe it's better to get it over with and die. Either way I'd like to feel the desire so that I have that choice to make.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

no. i want more suicidal ideation for me .

The more i thought about it and researched the more logical and rational suicide seems to me.

I need to and want to kill myself . My suicide is the most rational thing I could do by a trillion times more rational than anything else I could do. Is it rational to sit there watching youtube tv ? For what reason? Is it rational to work so hard everyday suffering , trying to solve bad problems just to exist another day so that something extremely horrible can happen to you and to get old? Not imo

 

[rozeske]

No. I think I would have wanted that if I had an objectively good enough life but my suicidal ideation was making me not enjoy it. When your ability to enjoy life is deteriorating due to your suicidal ideation, you remove that ideation and you will be left with a life that you can live and enjoy. The problem is when it's the quality of your life that's causing your suicidal thoughts. Remove that and you will only be left with a shitty life and all that it's brought with it. I need my suicidal thoughts, they are the only things that help me get through the day. The possibility of an exit is what helps me sleep through the night.

 

[Reflection]

If the suicidal thoughts themselves are gone but the pain stays then that would only subject me to a life of suffering with no way out until I eventually die, that or perhaps it'll make me a masochist. In which case I'd rather just go...Right now I'm guessing the only thing that could end my suffering and that I can achieve is death, unless there's something that causes one to completely erase some of their memories and start fresh.

 

[Manfrotto99]

Good question, it took me some time to think about this. My initial thought was no, it would not change a thing because my reasons for ctb are situational and my situation will not change, so it would just prolong more suffering. But rather than idealising it, It would be better to just make the rational decision to take my life, make the necessary plans and just get on with things until the time is right to act on them.

 

[banger12]

They're the sane side of me tbh. I need to keep that option on the table. Always.

 

[justkatie]

I've wrote unsure.

It's not that I don't want the thoughts, but the fact that the issues causing the thoughts remain regardless if they effect me negatively or not, would surely cause the thoughts to return.

 

[outrider567]

No, because getting rid of my suicidal thoughts would be impossible, with my girlfriend still being dead

 

[SketchTurner]

I already try as much as I can to improve things and don't get very far. Making me want to live wouldn't do much more than I already do. Removing the suicidal thoughts would just trap me in the constant mental breakdown of trying and failing with no escape.

 

[sunsetting]

Nope. If I get rid of those then I'm not myself anymore.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't think it matters either way as I'd be suicidal again due to how my suicidality is related to life itself and how I'm forced to be a human and do human related things such as work and responsibilities. Getting rid of my suicidal thoughts without getting rid of me is impossible. My suicidal thoughts can only die if I die

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Hard to say. I did ECT for a while, and that helped to quiet it for a bit, but I would have had to keep going so often that I wouldn't have been able to do "regular things"

 

[IBGONE]

I wouldn't,only because the circumstances of me wanting to CTB would still exist in my life. Unfortunately,those circumstances appear are going to remain with me until my demise whenever that may be.

 

[Shrike]

No. They're a symptom not the problem.

 

[metothemoon]

No, that means I have to live my life. Living in this world is not worth it. Not being able to CTB is just waiting and suffering till you die naturally

 

[vkore]

probably not. those thoughts are my only way out, if i decide to go through with it. if the question was getting rid of my depression overall, then yes. in a heartbeat.

 

[jar-baby]

Your polls are the best. I've wondered about this before (the ratio of egosyntonically to egodystonically suicidal members).

I'm not suicidal anymore, but I would've picked No back when I was. I didn't think my suicidality was necessarily irrational, so I didn't want the thoughts to go away without anything else changing.

 

[Lost Magic]

Nope because it would take away my autonomy. It's like when they gave spies cyanide capsules in case they were captured. It's peace of mind.

 

[ramon]

I'd push it, right away!!!

Meanwhile, my financial problems, my potencial for developing dementia (3 relatives already diagnosed), and my never fading memories of horrible past events are constantly pushing me into CTB.

 

[Flippintogo]

Yes. It would give me the energy to face my problems again.