ctb-soon

ctb-soon

Student
Jul 12, 2023
166
I'm not sure if I would. I'm not keen on hiding those facts. Nor the reasons I did it
 
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todiefor

todiefor

Scrap that, nothing matters at all after all
Jun 24, 2023
474
I think I would, not because I want to hide it, I usually live pretty true to myself, and I'm not ashamed of my actions, but I think since I'm dead anyway, how I died only matters to the living, and I think how i died would make a huge difference to my parents in terms of their grief, their blame, their shame, etc etc.

If there's a safe way to do it I would, for them, but I don't think there is
 
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CrestfallenMima

CrestfallenMima

Staring into the abyss
Dec 28, 2021
160
No. Because there's nothing shameful about suicide
 
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alonely

alonely

exists by being merely labeled
Jul 1, 2023
471
nah, no one will care either way, no need for me to waste energy on it and add risk to a method just to make something look a certain way after death
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,873
In my case I don't really care what my death is viewed as, as I simply won't exist at that point. Death is the most normal thing and everyone has to die of something, someday and I personally think that suicide is the best way to die as it's on my own terms.
 
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d3c96524be95

Student
Jan 24, 2023
167
I think I would, not because I want to hide it, I usually live pretty true to myself, and I'm not ashamed of my actions, but I think since I'm dead anyway, how I died only matters to the living, and I think how i died would make a huge difference to my parents in terms of their grief, their blame, their shame, etc etc.

If there's a safe way to do it I would, for them, but I don't think there is
This exactly. If I CTB, my loved ones will (wrongfully but still) feel guilty. If it was disguised as an accident, they'd still be devastated, but at least not feel like they did something wrong or there was something they could have done.

As I don't like suffering myself, I think minimizing the suffering of others should be perceived as good even if I'm dead.
 
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vitbar

vitbar

Escaped Lunatic
Jun 4, 2023
362
I would because I think it would be easier for my loved ones to deal with.
 
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stoiccactus

stoiccactus

somehow still here
Mar 24, 2022
246
I am 1000% going to make mine look like an accident (I plan to die by freezing to deal on a cold winter night) so that my family can get the insurance money
 
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todiefor

todiefor

Scrap that, nothing matters at all after all
Jun 24, 2023
474
I am 1000% going to make mine look like an accident (I plan to die by freezing to deal on a cold winter night) so that my family can get the insurance money
How possible is that. As in, isn't it very difficult to endure?
 
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stoiccactus

stoiccactus

somehow still here
Mar 24, 2022
246
How possible is that. As in, isn't it very difficult to endure?

I love the cold and I think I'd fall asleep and just die relatively quickly.
 
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todiefor

todiefor

Scrap that, nothing matters at all after all
Jun 24, 2023
474
I love the cold and I think I'd fall asleep and just die relatively quickly.
This is interesting can you tell us more? I never imagined that to be an option. Why don't more people do that?
 
stoiccactus

stoiccactus

somehow still here
Mar 24, 2022
246
This is interesting can you tell us more? I never imagined that to be an option. Why don't more people do that?
I don't know, I've never done it so I can really vouch for it. I think if it goes sideways you'd be really fucked and lose fingers and shit. That's why I am going to do it on a day when it's like -20F outside (we have days like that here) where you can die in under 30 mins outside.
 
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666razorblade

666razorblade

bleeding euphoria
Jul 7, 2023
27
I'm not sure if I would. I'm not keen on hiding those facts. Nor the reasons I did it
Personally I would. If I could pass it off as some kind of freak accident, I totally would. I'd want to hurt my family and friends as little as possible, and I think it seeming like an accident would be less painful for them than an obvious suicide. That's just me though. Much love to you
 
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todiefor

todiefor

Scrap that, nothing matters at all after all
Jun 24, 2023
474
I don't know, I've never done it so I can really vouch for it. I think if it goes sideways you'd be really fucked and lose fingers and shit. That's why I am going to do it on a day when it's like -20F outside (we have days like that here) where you can die in under 30 mins outside.
I just read into this a little, apparently it is very painful and difficult to achieve, and loss of fingers and toes a very real possibility, but it sounds like this often happens to drunk people when they get lost in the cold, but unsure whether they were asleep while it is happening, or they struggled but couldn't get out of the situation. What about just below freezing and die from hyperthermia? Sorry I really don't know much about the cold I don't come from somewhere very cold at all
 
lokabe82

lokabe82

To infinity and beyond
Jun 16, 2023
153
Yes. If it seemed like an accident then maybe no one would blame themselves for my passing.
 
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winamp

Enlightened
May 20, 2023
1,357
yes so then I wouldn't have to write a note or have people trying to figure out why I took my own life also I would like for it to be a freak accident to prevent people from giving me an open casket funeral
 
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lilmisssunshine

New Member
Jul 11, 2023
1
I'm hoping that when I make the decision, my body will not be found so that my family can think my death was an accident or something. My plan is to go to a national park, hike for a day or so to get far away from where I'll leave my car. Undecided on a method, I'm not ready to go all the way yet but I think about it often.
 
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AllFoxedOut

AllFoxedOut

Arcanist
Jun 7, 2023
474
I don't know. I think it would lessen the pain of my immediate family but there are also friends I want to say a genuine goodbye to, and they may have no idea of my passing as they are long distance and we only ever talk on discord. faking it as an accident would seem like I disappeared on them
 
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dogtired

dogtired

Member
Jul 3, 2023
52
My method (heroin overdose) will look like an accident unless I leave a note saying otherwise, and I've been weighing up the pros and cons but leaning towards letting them know it was suicide. I'd rather my loved ones know I made an informed decision to end my life after considering all the options, rather than just think I relapsed back into addiction and accidentally took too much one day. I think my death will be more meaningful if it appears like the considered and thought-through decision it was, rather than a reckless mistake. I'd also like the chance to say my goodbyes and explain my reasons in my suicide note.
 
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saddestbunny

saddestbunny

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Feb 16, 2023
203
I think in an ideal world I wouldn't care, and wouldn't bother to tell people it was anything other than me getting too exhausted of life and wanting rest

people don't really react well to that sentiment though so realistically I kinda want it to look like an accident. then my immediate family might take it a bit better, but I'm planning on leaving a note probably so they'll know

and I don't think it'll matter much after I can't think, so it's more wishful thinking on my part they wouldn't be upset with me after the fact
 
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abdelrahman

abdelrahman

Member
Jul 9, 2023
26
no one cares about me so no
 
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Pidgeons_Sparrows

Pidgeons_Sparrows

-flying rat
Apr 16, 2023
627
yes 100% so people would stop crying like little babies
 
enough of this

enough of this

Specialist
Jun 4, 2023
378
Probably not. What would be the point? Maybe if I thought my family and loved ones would feel better about my dying by accident rather than by suicide, I might. But otherwise, nah.
 
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pinkribbonscars

She’s lost control
Oct 7, 2021
148
No. I want everyone to know how deep my pain ran through my veins. I want my self hatred deeply know. I want to make a splash, a statement. I hope my suicide means something.
 
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synthcadia

synthcadia

dissociated angel.
Jul 8, 2023
256
i would, but leave a note or something somewhere.
 
HighFlight

HighFlight

Global Mod
Jun 28, 2023
655
Absolutely. The only reason why I'm still here is because I couldn't come up with a viable way to ctb and make it look like an accident. For me, my death would hurt a lot of people I love and don't deserve to be hurt. I can endure my own suffering as long as I'm not hurting someone else. ctb framed as an accident will still hurt them, but not in the same way. Additionally, I worth more dead than alive, but that would be forfeited in the event of suicide.
 
SeaBreeze

SeaBreeze

Suicideation?
Jul 11, 2023
146
The way my family life has become, I seem to ask myself that question every day now. I'm still considering true & false stories to tell everybody something different, then leave it up to them to make their assumption or decision. A missing body report is what may come next
 
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palesky

palesky

Member
Apr 12, 2023
28
tbh i dont really care as long as it doesnt affect me
 
Asingletwig

Asingletwig

Member
Oct 1, 2020
92
No I want my parents to know they caused this. And that acting all sad and shit because I died is vile and a deception tho feels bad to my siblings but we were never that close of a family anyway
 
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Stormy Raine

Stormy Raine

Quietly counting down the days, hours, minutes..
Apr 7, 2023
372
I'm not sure if I would. I'm not keen on hiding those facts. Nor the reasons I did it
I would only consider that an option so my children can use my life insurance policy. Besides that suicide is nothing to be ashamed of! Great question!
 
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