Discussion If you could go back in time, would you?

[hxppythxught]

If you could go back and time and fix or prevent from all the bad/traumatizing things that have happened to you, would you?

If you genuinely had that option of fixing all of your trauma and living a normal life would you? Or would you choose to stay how you are now?

For me, I think I wouldn't change anything, I feel like if I did I would be really naïve and more vulnerable to more or worse trauma that I've already experienced, at least now I would know certain warning signs of people that would harm my wellbeing, if I fixed everything and forgot my trauma then I'd trust people to easily and just repeat the cycle I've already experienced.

 

[littlelady774]

Hell yes. I would prevent myself from meeting a certain person..

 

[FishGoingInsane]

I would only want to go back in time to relive the years of my life when I was clueless and happy. There's absolutely nothing I could change that would make any difference in what I am now.

 

[ElfenLied]

I never had a good memory of my past, so if I go back in time it would be to end my suffering while I'm still small.

 

[nico_wren]

Yes, no doubt in my mind. I live in the past, wondering what if. So, to revisit it would be a dream for me.

 

[00nobody00]

Yes. Most of the reason for wanting to CTB is not properly utilizing all the time I had earlier in my life to build a better life for myself. My life hasn't been bad necessarily, but I literally did nothing with it. I am now in my mid-30's which is still considerably young enough to try a better myself, but the fact that essentially everything around us is turning into a total shit show dumpster fire isn't making it any easier. In fact, it is making CTB looking all the more better

 

[Ultracheese]

I like this idea in theory, but I'm worried that I would do one thing differently and it would end up making my life worse than it already is. How would I know my trauma would be fixed? I suppose this is just the worrier in me talking.

 

[alivefornow]

Yes I would. I screwed up so many times in the past. There are so many things I would like to do differently but to be completely honest the best choice would probably be to go back to when I was 10 and kill myself right there and then, thus preventing a lot of hurting other people and myself. That is about the age when depression settled in, never to leave.

 

[downndone2]

In a heartbeat

 

[Lavender Dreams]

Yes. Not sure how much it would amount to in the end, but I'd travel back about 6 years. A small change could've given me a better chance at life.

 

[Forever Sleep]

No- I don't want to change my life- I just want it to be over. There's nothing I could have actually done that much different anyway. Most of the shit that happened was out of my control- early family deaths and growing up with a (suspected) Narcissist. It's actually my idea of hell to think about going through all that again.

That's not to say I haven't done things I regret. I remember taking the piss out of someone at primary school. That was really awful- I wouldn't do that again if I went back. Still- that wouldn't have any effect on my outcome. Hopefully it didn't theirs- it wasn't prolonged bullying but that's not to excuse it- it was really mean.

 

[lionetta12]

If you could go back and time and fix or prevent from all the bad/traumatizing things that have happened to you, would you?

If you genuinely had that option of fixing all of your trauma and living a normal life would you? Or would you choose to stay how you are now?

For me, I think I wouldn't change anything, I feel like if I did I would be really naïve and more vulnerable to more or worse trauma that I've already experienced, at least now I would know certain warning signs of people that would harm my wellbeing, if I fixed everything and forgot my trauma then I'd trust people to easily and just repeat the cycle I've already experienced.

I would have gone back in time to ensure that my 11 year old self kept their mouth shut and never told anyone that I was being raped. My life would have been completely different if I kept it to myself and I might have avoided getting depression and suicidal ideations if I just pulled through. I know that the abuse would have stopped at age 16 if I kept going so it would have been a better option for me compared to how I'm being abused now still when I'm 24 largely just because I was honest and told someone that I'm being raped. I consider it the biggest mistake of my life.

 

[arcadia]

I wouldn't change a thing. People like me are destined to be this way. It feels innate. I look forward to my eventual death and know that this is what was meant for me. Because regardless of whatever lucky circumstances I've been given, I messed them up. I have many regrets, but I know that nothing I could do or change would make me any different in this regard.

 

[MlKE]

I can't say there is any single trauma or a before and after point at which things went bad, it has just been a slow burn of nothing going well and me getting tired of trying. I think it just wasn't meant to be from the start.
When I walk in the woods I often see pines that have blown over in the wind because they grew out of a thin layer of dirt on top of a rock. There just wasn't enough ground to make their growth sustainable, they were doomed because of circumstances out of their control.

 

[Rational man]

Only we can't go back so i dont regret too many things. My circumstances were such that family abuse was going to happen even before i recognised it. That choices are only made in the moment. That we make choices based on what we know and that many life events are beyond our control. Regret is pointless. For example, i believe im dying because of the c19 vax which i took in good faith. I cant unvaccinated me. So dont regret, never ever. Just dont go there.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Wouldn't really solve anything. Maybe if I could go back in time and instead be born the opposite sex, but the sex we are born as is out of our hands so....

 

[itsallpointless]

Most definitely. My life has taken a turn for the worst since as early as I can remember. I will not blame anyone for what happened to me except myself and if it's all my fault all those downturns could be reversed with a different attitude

 

[fatefulstillness]

I wouldn't want to go back in any way and be exposed to my personal hell, only to realize I'm not infallible. I may be better, but I lack the strength to go through a second round, even if it's just to change the course of events. I don't think I can prevent them from happening anyway (how do you not lose your mind?).

Some things are better off buried in the past, and hopefully they don't haunt me as much as I grow older and desensitized – another kind of hell.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, absolutely not. Going back in time could never "fix" anything as the thing that I see as being the true problem for me is life itself. I've never wanted to exist and I simply don't wish to experience existing at all, I just wish for permanent non existence. Being conscious and aware just leads to more suffering.

 

[RopeMaxxed]

Yes, I would. Thinks would have to end by CTB still but things could've been better.

 

[HopelessSoul]

Yes I would prevent my younger self from being brainwashed with religion/toxic positivity so I could have a normal life, but its just wishful thinking.

 

[Unsure and Useless]

Yes, if not to fix all my past faults, then to at least be there for younger me who had no one to go to.

 

[theodandel]

Nah, there isn't any guarantee things will be better if i go back. I mean, sure i will have the knowledge of the future, but i am certain whatever i tried to evade or fix some trauma or bad things in my life, the world will pull uno reverse card and just create another traumatic event for me to go through.

 

[blanket99]

Most definitely. My life has taken a turn for the worst since as early as I can remember. I will not blame anyone for what happened to me except myself and if it's all my fault all those downturns could be reversed with a different attitude

This is me 100%, especially in the past 6 or 7 years.

 

[VioletNight]

Probably not, there's not really any way I could impact the way my childhood went and I wouldn't want to potetially compromise the few good things I have these days.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Depends. If I could prevent my conception or make sure my mom terminated the pregnancy before I was born, then yes, I most definitely would

 

[bluville]

Absolutely, I don't like thinking about it though. There are so many choices I could have made to make my life better

 

[RichardFirst]

Oh there are many things that I would change. However, rather than focusing on my mistakes, I'd go straight to the root of the problem and go back to 1983. I'd find my dad and slash the tyres on his car so that he never makes it to the disco where he met my mom. I'd then disappear in a cloud of temporal paradox...

 

[allblackallwhite]

And go through this nightmare again? Hell no.

 

[Ruma]

Hell yes. I would prevent myself from meeting a certain person..

Same here!