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Ricoshay

Ricoshay

Member
Jun 9, 2019
24
Well, I'm assuming people on here are obviously unhappy of an aspect/aspects in their life. But, if you were able to choose the exact sequence of main events in your life as well as control every variable; meaning you are guaranteed a life with things such as great physucal attributes, have a great partner/great friends, tons of wealth, be of stable mental health and good physical health, have as minimal suffering as possible etc. Basically, be able to live in your own story. Of course, everyone has different things they value. So this is YOUR ideal life if you had to live on the planet as a human. Would you choose to be born or stick with non-existence? Personally, I'd still choose non-existence because I have quite a nihilistic view on life and just find it pointless in general. I still don't think some happy years are worth it because you're gonna lose everything when you eventually die anyway. Not to mention being born and living in itself still causes suffering in the world indirectly/directly, it's just part of the game.
 
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lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Experienced
Jan 11, 2026
250
After all what had experienced, I'm sure just total nonexistence. I'll be a slave/peasant in any country.
I think I chose this stupid path in my previous state and now it regrets everything. I might have thought I would invent, lead, or inspire but instead thinking about how to CTB and greedily looking for more methods. Also kinda academics hehe.
 
yearned

yearned

Member
Apr 23, 2026
38
i think i would choose to be born like i was in this life, but with the knowledge that i have now lol. so i could make better decisions. i always think about going back in time to fix mistakes. there are a bunch of times in my life where i had to decide between options and i think if i chose differently i would probably be happier now. never being born also sounds good, but i am lucky enough to have experienced/tasted what a good life could be like that i would like to try and give myself that.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,601
Only non-existence is ideal to me, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this terrible, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just always saw as a mistake with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, only non-existence could ever be positive for me no matter what.

To be conscious burdened with this existence is always so dreadful and torturous, I'll always see the existence of life as the most terrible, devastating tragedy that only ever causes all this harm and suffering torturing existing beings, there's just so much evil in existing, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase this existence, I just want it to be like I never suffered at all, humans should just never impose this existence as all they cause is all this pain and torture there was never a need for at all.
 
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Hystearical

Hystearical

I just want to die
Jul 23, 2022
4,989
Sure. Since an ideal life is one in which I would not be suicidal so why not
 
franos666

franos666

Depressed
May 20, 2026
20
Yeah. I don't think about ending my life because I hate living but because I am unhappy and feel a lot of mental pain so if I had an option to live perfect or atleast happy, normal live I would definitely choose it
 
bl33dingboy

bl33dingboy

New Member
May 12, 2026
1
Absolutely not- I wouldnt want to live ever again
 
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Dinozauria

Dinozauria

Long sought rest
Feb 8, 2026
139
If I got to have a life where I had enough money to live however I want, I'd likely choose to be born
 
memento-mori

memento-mori

😴
Jul 1, 2025
382
i think i would
there are details in my life that i wish i could change and sometimes i just wish i could have a different life
 
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Mrs. T-800

Mrs. T-800

the terminator's wife. my mission: to protect you.
Nov 25, 2025
61
I did a past life regression after I felt many things pulling me to the notion that I had indeed lived before. In that, I relived a lot of important moments from that life, I woke up sobbing. I miss it so much. I want to relive that life again. It was cut short when I died. But I was so happy, it was blissful, the circumstances of it were hard, but I was the happiest girl on earth then
 
Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

There's someone in my head but it's not me
Oct 21, 2024
672
I'd rather never exist, but if I had a chance to choose how my life would have been, I would have wanted to be born in the mid 1800s during the cowboy days.
 
E4syW3y0u7

E4syW3y0u7

Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
165
Of course, yes. If i could tailor it to make me the happiest and being able to experience to most out of life as i can i would for sure.

There is no reason not too, we all have expiration date, might aswell make the most of it, especially if it's custom made for you.

Thought i wouldn't want to be "self-aware" about it.

Everything that would put me on tracks from my perfect life should be "instinct" driven.

Otherwise that would prolly drive me insane
 

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