phoebie467

phoebie467

My flame's already gone out
Mar 17, 2024
91
I scheduled this post to be released 5 days after my CTB, giving me time to delete it in case something went wrong. If you're seeing this, it means everything went as planned, and I caught the bus.

You can check out the details of my plan here (that was also my goodbye thread).

I swapped out the clonazepam/diazepam drink for 20 mg of alprazolam, crushed and mixed with water. Based on my own tests, alprazolam worked better in everything.

I record a video of my final moments.

Apologies if the video hasn't been uploaded. Things like blackouts, internet issues, or other unexpected problems could have come up.

Here are the links where I've set up the video to be uploaded:

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1-akF18vu-HtaHuXh9wsH6ZZiBbzerGFE?usp=sharing

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/j1pm...ey=ll3c1lf095p6pol2g5g0pw6dl&st=4q8u5xg1&dl=0

I consent to the use of my image for educational purposes.

I hope this video answer some of your questions about the SN method.

It's possible the video is too large or long. If that's the case, I'd appreciate it if someone could edit and re-upload it.

I would like someone to write what happens in the video, especially to help those who are blind or have vision problems to know what happened.

If the video goes down, please reupload it, and make it public. I probably used a weak blur in the video or used something to preserve my identity.

I won't be leaving a farewell letter, but I want to share my favourite song:



I was born in 12/18/1995 and had a very happy childhood. I'm grateful to my family for that. But somewhere along the way, things just went off track.

I hope everything works out for everyone!
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Illuminated
Mar 21, 2019
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Last time online was Monday!
 
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Kish

Member
Mar 2, 2024
70
Rest in peace <3
 
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Coringa

Coringa

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Mar 19, 2024
63
Rest in peace
 
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MorsVoluntaria

MorsVoluntaria

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Dec 27, 2018
23
rest in peace
 
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Catch-22

Catch-22

But in the end it doesn't even matter...šŸ˜¢
Aug 19, 2019
252
I think I got all the videos uploaded but I'm not sure. From what I can tell when they passed it was very peaceful. Rest in peace sweetheart
 
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BlackEyedDog

BlackEyedDog

Mage
May 6, 2024
537
i'm sorry life brought you to this. may you rest in peace.
 
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littletoomuch

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Sep 26, 2024
7
Rest in peace.
 
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ms_beaverhousen

ms_beaverhousen

*can't breathe*
Mar 14, 2024
1,213
Omg... What a poor soul. So, so sorry...šŸ„€
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

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Jan 1, 2024
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I couldnt access the videos , hope it was peaceful. RIP
 
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Plato'sCaveDweller

Plato'sCaveDweller

Sleep is good, death is better.
Sep 2, 2024
513
Rest in peace. I hope you found what you were looking for in death.

Videos are also inaccessible for me. Not sure if it's safe to download, so I'll come back later. I hope it was peaceful.
 
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Catch-22

Catch-22

But in the end it doesn't even matter...šŸ˜¢
Aug 19, 2019
252
Rest in peace. I hope you found what you were looking for in death.

Videos are also inaccessible for me. Not sure if it's safe to download, so I'll come back later. I hope it was peaceful.
Rest in peace. I hope you found what you were looking for in death.

Videos are also inaccessible for me. Not sure if it's safe to download, so I'll come back later. I hope it was peaceful.
I was able to view it on Dropbox. I'm not sure if they were able to record all of it but from what I did see it was very peaceful.
 
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GalacticWarrior777

GalacticWarrior777

One day I'll be gone and that's it.
Sep 24, 2024
162
Godspeed.
 
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dela

dela

One must imagine Sisyphus dead.
Sep 3, 2024
16
TambĆ©m gosto bastante dessa do TitĆ£s. A gente nĆ£o conversou muito por aqui mas vocĆŖ sempre foi muito amigĆ”vel. Obrigado por tudo. Espero que vocĆŖ esteja em paz agora.

I also really like this song. We only talked a few times but you were always very friendly and helpful. Thanks for everything. I hope you are at peace.
 
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Plato'sCaveDweller

Plato'sCaveDweller

Sleep is good, death is better.
Sep 2, 2024
513
I was able to download it on Dropbox. I'm not sure if they were able to record all of it but from what I did see it was very peaceful.
Ah, the videos are viewable through dropbox, no download needed. Thank you.

After watching, it appears it was quite peaceful.

Events are as follows:
Unsure of when SN was ingested. Uneventful until retching at around 8:50. Vomiting at around 9:24. Unconsciousness at 14-15mins (Can't quite tell, going off of last arm movement). First agonal breathing at around 16mins. Final agonal breathing at around 46mins. I assume death followed shortly after.

I know phoebie requested someone to write about the timeline of events for those who can't view the video. But this is a start. I don't really feel like watching the video in depth, writing down every detail that I can see. But this is the general timeline.

They didn't appear to be in distress (benzos and propranolol definitely helping there). They weren't in agonizing sickness. They threw up only a few times, and it was during only one bout before they lay down to pass out. I'm not an expert, but to my eye I'd say that this is a case of when SN goes perfectly right. Little suffering, relatively quick to pass out, death in under an hour. Honestly, it was very similar to the recounts from the PPH.

Maybe someone else can fulfill phoebies wish for a proper recount of their experience.
 
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Marco77

Marco77

ƀ ma maniĆØre šŸŖ¦
Aug 18, 2024
488
Have a safe trip darling. I'm sorry that it ended like this, but now all the suffering is over and biology (with its crazy existence and arrogance) has been disintegrated.šŸ’—
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
9,466
I hope you are at peace now.
 
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astr4

astr4

memento mori
Mar 27, 2019
495
rest well. i'm glad that your suffering has come to an end, i hope your soul is at peace.
 
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Reflection

Reflection

One last hurrah
Sep 12, 2024
261
Rest in peace :heart:
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Rest in peace šŸ•Æļø:heart:
 
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destinationlosangel

destinationlosangel

Experienced
Feb 16, 2024
273
rest in peace
 
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judestfrancis

Life rearranges itself to compensate for your loss
Dec 21, 2023
12
rest in peace, you deserve only the kindest passing šŸ–¤
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,732
I hope you are at peace now.
 
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OldWound

Rotten.
Aug 31, 2024
17
Looked painless and would consider it peaceful. I'm suprised there were no visible seizures. It looks like they're sleeping but later on in the video the breathing becomes abnormal (agonal breathing). The main video is bottom right.
 
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Thanatos.br

Member
Dec 7, 2023
65
Goodbye my friend, i wish you found peace
 
DanielDanDean

DanielDanDean

Member
Jul 18, 2024
39
Rest in peace ! Hope you'll never suffer anymore
 

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