Venting If the SN doesn't arrive...

[Griffith_NPD]

If the SN doesn't arrive by **** then I will just stab myself in the stomach/heart then bleed out, or just jump off a very tall building... I don't care anymore, I didn't want to do the others because of the pain/courage it takes, but I hate everything, I loved them, but that's gone it seems. 18 years of life down the drain, why was I here, why was I born. Please just end me and this suffering. I wonder if people will finally care about me after I'm dead... It doesn't really matter anymore...
Even if it's fake... Can someone please just show me love, or at least some sort of care. I just want to feel like I wasn't an entire disgrace for once... Sorry if this sounds weird, just want to feel wanted before I leave...

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. It's so awful how cruel life often is. I hope you find peace and also hope you will receive your SN to have a peaceful method for you!

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it really can be so torturous and tiring feeling trapped here, I find it so awful how it's not more straightforward to leave this world, I hope you eventually find what you search for.

 

[Griffith_NPD]

I do understand that it really can be so torturous and tiring feeling trapped here, I find it so awful how it's not more straightforward to leave this world, I hope you eventually find what you search for.

I don't know your story, although I've seen you reply to others along with myself, relatively often. I would like to say thank you for the support, I truly do mean it. And I hope everything gets better for you in or out of life. I hope you find 'your' peace.

 

[AShipinthedark]

You are not a disgrace, blame the USPS! The SN will come soon, don't sacrifice a peaceful end out of frustration, rushing in increases the chances of aborting in my opinion. Take a breath, wait it out.

 

[fedupwithlife]

we all love you even if we don't personally know you and i hope you receive an end to the misery and suffering you're going through

 

[day]

I hate that society has made obtaining methods so difficult. We should have the right to a reliable suicide but they won't let use have that and it's a disgrace..

I hope you're SN gets there OP and I hope you manage to find peace.

 

[Griffith_NPD]

Thank you everyone... you all feel like family to me... more than my actual family...