OMG I needed that rant. Thank you.
The need to make people suffer is why people like David Icke think we're run by shape shifting inter-dimensional lizard aliens or why Alex Jones thinks our government worships the Devil and believes they must cause pain and horrific deaths in order to have their manifestation magic come true. It's easier than trying to figure out why people really are this mean. Well, unless Alex Jones really is right.
It really would explain a lot.
It helps when you hear people who get it, like David Foster Wallace when he likened it to jumping out of a burning building, or Doug Stanhope who talks about giving his mom the best possible death with dignity (it's also in his book, but that's not a book you can recommend to people who aren't already fans). You can find his stuff on youtube if you don't have Amazon Prime.
"But life, being weary of these worldly bars,
Never lacks power to dismiss itself.
If I know this, know all the world besides,
That part of tyranny that I do bear
I can shake off at pleasure." -Shakespeare
If no one got it, it wouldn't be there - still being read or listened to. But when you hear someone talk about how it's the government's fault a farmer commits suicide but if a homeless person, who's already had everything stripped from them does it after a lifetime of having everythingtaken kills himself, it's "cowardly" or some other putdown. If someone kills themselves to not suffer the slow homicide that is homelessness, they're "selfish" or "mentally ill".
Our government has absolutely no problem slow killing us in a jail, with crime, with the worst possible healthcare, with bad pharma they know is killing us, with homelessness... They've got a series of bad laws, corrupt family/civil/social security courts, corrupt schools that don't help the disabled (IEPs anyone? The paperwork is too long, just stop the kid from getting help -which stops them from getting other aid because the proof of disability is how much help you already got or how many drugs you let doctors put you on) and colleges (OMG the horror stories on that one range from rape to purposely putting people to debt to..), corrupt doctors who hate the poor and don't do their jobs, corrupt psychiatrists who get paid to put us on medications that'll hurt us, corrupt medicaid companies and the SUPER corrupt AHCA who lets them get away with illegal things, corrupt medical ride systems that don't show up (and again with AHCA), places who promise help but are only referral services to other referral services etc until you've wasted an entire year and days on the phone and in paperwork only to get back to where you started)
They slow kill us, but they won't let us choose the faster way out. They add air to our helium tanks so we just become brain-damaged or brain-dead but live. They raid the places that sell the suicide masks to use with Nitrogen. They've been doing it since the days people were killing themselves with coal. They insist the things we're left with are going to be far more painful, last an average of 3-5 minutes of awareness, and with a risk of leaving us seriously maimed and worse off than before.
I'd rather believe David Icke than acknowledge our government and press and the people who help this system along are too stupid to call themselves evil.
TLDR: I'm sticking my head out the window and joining you with "I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore!" You rock, OP.