
mini_weeny
Every cradle is a grave
- Jan 5, 2021
- 340
I erased all my Facebook posts except for one, a picture of a water garden I designed, my greatest accomplishment in my gardening hobby life. My health is shit now so I can't go back to do my gardening stuff, see my bees, they are all gone after the garden died from me being unable to take care of it so now I just have a necklace with a little bee, my soul trapped in there like my mind trapped in my useless body.
So, I erased all my "life" on fb just the way I want to erase my physical existence. No more posting since I'm dead already.
So, I erased all my "life" on fb just the way I want to erase my physical existence. No more posting since I'm dead already.
Good point I've started not responding when the odd one texts me or to people, like stopped talking in general.I've posted often about my depression and anxiety, and about how tired I am of life, etc but no one responds much past "It'll be ok" or "I'm there if you want to chat" (don't always believe that offer now though after how many times I've tried talking to people and they don't reply back, or just send some short response that doesn't even address 99% of what I'd shared with/told them) or just a "care" reaction but no comment. I realize people have their own stuff going on, and some people ARE just that oblivious...but if they really looked at my collective posts, and heard (read) what I was saying in a not-so-blatant way, they'd have a pretty good idea what my state of mind is. Lately though, I don't say anything anymore. I don't want the interference and I'm too tired these days to even correspond with anybody anyway.
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