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PolarExpress

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May 4, 2025
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It's weird, but I find myself resenting and being angry at my family at home (wife and kids) as much as I love them, all because they are the only thing keeping me here on this Earth. I dont't want to be here, I dont see a point in being here. This place (Earth) sucks and just gets worse and worse every year. I'm either angry, sad or both all the time. I actually did a test and checked my feelings for two weeks. Not once did I say "wow, Im in a good mood". I like to eat THC gummies, but they also dont hit like they should as your mood can affect those, and mine is always negative or angry. I do stupid shit like breaking things that I really like when I am pissed off, just cause I believe I deserve it. Just tired of it all. But I have a family that unfortunately depends on me, so I dont have the option to just check out of this life, or I would in a heartbeat.

I absolutely despise 99% of things I see /. hear. The US is in free fall and the middle class is too stupid to stop fighting and unite before its too late and they have nothing left.. But they wont, cause they are mostly fuckin dumb and listen to whatever they are told like sheep. Its disgusting to watch these mostly uneducated morons repeat lines they were told by some asshole in power, not even understanding what they are saying. Tired of it all...I hate it. People say "oh, just ignore it". Screw that, I dont wanna see it or be around it at all.

You know things aren't great when you wake up and the first thing you think is "Shit, I survived the night". I pray to karma / gods / deities / family , whoever will listen to either kill me in one quick scoop or give me something that will kill me over time.....Im fine either way.
 
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