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rebelnow111

Member
Jul 12, 2024
50
in alot of emotional and physical pain if not dead
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
Probably sitting around, wanting to die...
 
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annasplight

annasplight

'too clingy' she says.
Aug 6, 2024
79
Maybe I shall finally be happy. If I can make it out of this terrible slump im in right now, I do have some high hopes for myself in the future.
 
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anxiousguineapig

Member
May 4, 2022
85
probably grad school, maybe a lab tech job or something. med school if I'm insanely lucky. if I haven't graduated in a few years it'll be because I'm dead so those are basically the options.
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,572
not too sure personally, was curious about other people
Hopefully in some sort of software engineering job. If not that, there could possibly be some other career route I can take. If my life is shit, I'll be banking on dead. Sometimes though, I worry about my choice in degree (comp sci) as although I enjoy coding to an extent, I'm not a natural problem solver, and I hate some aspects of coding. I dread the day where I'll have to code something from scratch or do some whiteboard interview. Could just be me being hard on myself since I am only in community college and have only taken 3 classes in Comp Sci, but I feel very behind other people...
 
damienlerone03

damienlerone03

reject humanity, return to monke
May 5, 2024
1,244
Finish education stuff, pursue more education, get a job, find someone, get married, have kids, live a normal life, die from old age

shiii wait you said the next FEW years, okok then probably just the education stuff for now
 
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Ramsay Fiction

Ramsay Fiction

Soulburner
Aug 15, 2024
58
If not dead then wishing I was dead
 
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MaidenException

MaidenException

god makes no mistakes but he MaidenException
Sep 26, 2022
37
Probably still a useless shut-in, just slightly older. I'm too weak to make any change in my life.
 
VentureOverwatch

VentureOverwatch

Member
Aug 18, 2024
16
In the same miserable daze I currently live in most likely.
 
Sheeanabrugh

Sheeanabrugh

Tired and in pain
Aug 19, 2024
30
God I really see three outcomes.
One, I fail.
Two, Things continue to get worse for me. I probably lose my ability to walk completely the way the past few months have gone
Three, And this is delusional to even think about, a doctor figures out what's wrong with me and they fix me. I get to have a young adult life I deserve, And I get to be happy again. I daydream about that a lot.
 
IAmElation

IAmElation

šŸŽ­A thousand faces in a thousand placesšŸŽ‡
Aug 12, 2024
45
not too sure personally, was curious about other people
Hopefully doing collage abroad in japan like I say I planned.
More likely, being a NEET drawing porn online for money.
 
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avalonisburning

Laugh again with me
May 12, 2024
153
I think dead covers it pretty well.
 
desolatefuture

desolatefuture

Slipping away
Aug 18, 2024
3
not too sure personally, was curious about other people
Honestly, I don't know. I don't think a lot about the future because I don't see myself living long enough to experience it. But if I am still alive in a few years, hopefully I won't be living with my parents anymore by then.
 
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username12345

Student
Aug 18, 2024
123
Still dead. I've been physically assaulted by random people and physically abused by my family it's only a matter of time before they kill me.
 
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Imcantbreathe

Member
Aug 19, 2024
33
I can't even see myself in next week but yearss... You got guts, anytime I think about my future it's just me playing out how my death will go
 
Danby

Danby

Just remember that the last laugh is on you
Aug 13, 2024
74
Hopefully resettled somewhere after the divorce, out of debt, and with a partner again. Hopefully . . .
 
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korra

korra

My bus is late
Aug 19, 2024
15
If I'll be alive... probably same situation with more money and less free time i guess, more apathetic and numb that's for sure...
 
Not Today Satan

Not Today Satan

I’ll survive even if it kills me
May 9, 2024
911
With a full time career directly related to the major that I'm going back to school to study, hopefully able to buy a house, spending my spare time doing sports and/or staying active in general
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,182
This went through my head the other day- you know when careers advisors or friends started talking about the five year plan- where do you see yourself/ where do you want to be in five years? I imagine most people here would say- hopefully, dead.

If I'm not though, I imagine I'll be in the state I'm in now. Trying my best to just get by financially or, I'll be in a much worse position. I'll be nearly 50 for a start. Probably menopausal. Can't see how things will get better- only worse.
 
untothedepths

untothedepths

want off this ride
Mar 20, 2023
641
isolated. full of even more self-loathing. but if i reach that point, ill likely use every breath i have to finally end it. i think.

no one truly knows until they are there.​
 
LunarLight

LunarLight

i'm a loser, a failure
Apr 3, 2024
1,362
Still rotting away at home.
 
Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,220
I rarely even think about the future. However, If I am still moping around in this never ending cycle of waking hell, then I will be very dissapointed in my self. I've already been here too long as it is, but SI has proved to be more difficult than I anticipated.
 
Sylveon

Sylveon

Mage
Oct 10, 2023
529
If I manage to finish college, I'd say I either end up unemployed or stuck in some low-end job, probably still whining on some internet corner, lol.
 
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Gabbi_Station

Member
Jul 30, 2024
97
The same place I have been the last ten to twenty years- bouncing from job to job, broke, paying off student loans, never getting the job that I really crave despite endless applying and feeling like my degrees are useless, no housing, no friends or boyfriend, chronically feeling used by my family as emotional and physical labor, chronically yelled at by everyone, and slowly killing myself drinking and with an eating disorder.
 
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Guy089001

Member
Apr 23, 2024
59
Well I laughed aloud at this, said "Uh" and thought "Dead?" so, I guess that's honestly about it. I don't. I can give it another go -

Everything will change, the world will be different. I'll either have found what I'm looking for or, will not have.
 
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slamjoetry

slamjoetry

Nobody likes you when you're 23
Apr 19, 2024
101
Being alive in a few years is such a terrifying concept, I don't even wanna think about it. But I'd probably be homeless and living on the street, even more fucked up in the head than I already am.
Homeless, living in a forest 🌳 somewhere.
This is the dream
 
SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Nothing Like The Looks Ā« ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ Ā»
Nov 13, 2023
582
In a very dark place, both physically and mentally.
 

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