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HelpMeToday

HelpMeToday

I am Ibrar
Jun 15, 2022
16
For me, it would look like this:

1. A family which was amazing and unconditionally nurturing and supporting. No toxicity was present and everyone got along with each other like best friends.

2. I wouldn't have any mental health issues such as depression and bipolar disorder. Not having these would mean I would be able to handle even the most challenging of situations in a way that was fruitful.

3. I was born in a powerful, loving, and wealthy family where I was respected by the world and had the means to better the lives of humanity.

4. Where I had enough wealth to so I didn't have to work, but could travel the world and get away from everything, everyday.

5. Have a partner who was the absolute apple of my eye, where we both would take a bullet for each other.
 
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Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,471
nothing worse than being enslaved inside a helpless powerless machine to suffer and die without any control.
a place where nothing ever last

what it means to be free, free to live and die when and how you choose to, free to redesign the machine you are, free to build mathematical models or run simulations with unlimited power at your fingertips, free to live for as long as you want to, free to fix and repair the machine you are, free to live to the fullest potential of what the universe as to offer, free to build with unlimited space resources, learn and build anything and everything, free to live in digital space, free to build and learn everything there is to know about mathematics, want to be free from this limited machine i am, free to live our how i choose without any rules laws, free to build make for eternity, unlimited choice , free from the limited machine i am, free to really live how i would want to without any outside interference, free to have all the power atoms have to give at your finger tips. free at last from this restrictive machine existance that i am, free to build learn everything there is to know about mathematics, just want to be from this terrible horrible machine existance.
 
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noalarms

noalarms

Member
Jun 18, 2022
98
I can imagine a life that is much, much better than the one I am currently living, but achieving a perfect life would be impossible. To me, nothing I could imagine would be preferable to non-existence. Think about this: The almost-perfect world that you have described has most likely never existed for any person in history. Conversely, the every being experiences self-awareness and physical pain. To me, there are no positive experiences that justify the necessary negative condition of life: suffering, which beings experience to varying degrees. All of mankinds achievements pale in comparison to the suffering of hundreds of billions of beings on whose toil those achievements depended, with the crucial difference being that it could not have been otherwise. To me a perfect life is the one we don't experience.
 
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ornitier199

Arcanist
Mar 26, 2022
413
It's not, and could never be. Nothing is perfect.
And even if it was, I'd still suicide, I'd still actively try new methods to achieve that, because suicide is a part of me.
 
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chocolatebar

Paragon
Jul 11, 2021
974
A perfect life would involve a solution to the human condition, to our animal needs and to the human factor.

We are aware of our decaying and death, to the mysteries of existence and our futility. I don't believe ignorance would be a solution, but only actually solving these issues.

No matter what, we're animals, moved by animal desires, having biological flaws and in the need of consuming other beings just in order to stay alive. I would never feel good with it.

On top of all that, there's the human factor. Everything would be in vain if we got to live in a similar society, with people hating, fighting, discriminating, exploiting and trying to put down each other and take advantage of them.

These things are so intrinsically built into us that I can't even imagine how would be a life without them. Can you?
 
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noalarms

noalarms

Member
Jun 18, 2022
98
A perfect live would involve a solution to the human condition, to our animal needs and to the human factor.

We are aware of our decaying and death, to the mysteries of existence and our futility. I don't believe ignorance would be a solution, but only actually solving these issues.

No matter what, we're animals, moved by animal desires, having biological flaws and in the need of consuming other beings just in order to stay alive. I would never feel good with it.

On top of all that, there's the human factor. Everything would be in vain if we got to live in a similar society, with people hating, fighting, discriminating, exploiting and trying to put down each other and take advantage of them.

These things are so intrinsically built into us that I can't even imagine how would be a life without them. Can you?

This is exactly how I feel. To me, it's not the horrors of war, persecution exploitation etc. that make me despare. Such things have been declining for a couple of hundred years now. In a hundred years, unless there is a nuclear war, conflict will most likely be limited to certain least developed countries, if it hasn't disappeared altogether. The same is true of crime and infectious disease.
What we can say for certain will not have disappeared is what makes me want to ctb: The awareness that I am not fully in control of my own actions, that the suffering I experience is inevitable, and that my nature is imperfect. This is what makes ctb so appealing. The fact that I have ultimate control over my own affairs, that no matter what suffering I, or anyone else, experience, no matter how low I go, I still can end it all in mere seconds.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,492
Life could never be perfect for me. In my case, I could never want to live no matter what. I simply hate being alive and being conscious. To me just existing is a form of suffering. I prefer the sound of non existence, as if I am dead then nothing can possibly hurt me and I do not have to experience this pointless unnecessary life.
 
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Anonymus

Enlightened
May 6, 2022
1,355
It's so simple to say and so impossible to achieve:
- Health
- Work
- Love
//
És tan simple de dir i tan impossible d'assolir:
- Salut
- Feina
- Estima
 
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waiting4thenextbus

Lost
May 30, 2022
66
$10 million US dollars and two new knees :nomouth:
 
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alliebear

alliebear

The sun also sets
Jun 13, 2022
45
1) i had my dad+mom still together and not divorced so that i dont have to face my narcissistic abusive stepmom
2)got a perfect grades and not being in a abusive relationship
3)not having bipolar and panic attacks
4)huge amount of confident :)
 
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Tired_only

Tired_only

Tired
Sep 22, 2021
29
for me it would be be finally having the courage to kill myself.
 
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September5th

September5th

You can get better. But the choice is always ours.
May 17, 2022
244
I would be with my girlfriend (last year/beginning of this year style), would be working with what I like and would have enough money to live completely on my own. That's about it. Nothing too impossible, but I guess life doesn't want me to have nice things. Never. Everything always turns into dust haha
 
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Funeralprincess

Death never turned on me
May 8, 2022
433
If life was perfect for me it would look like….

Never losing the love of my life because in a perfect life, I wouldn't have a mental illness that would sabotage it all. In a perfect life, my family would love and adore me, and my mother wouldn't put random men above me, her first born child… if life was perfect for me, I'd be exceptionally attractive even at an older age, and I'd also be educated more in depth, be able to afford the finest clothes, and have my shut together physically, spiritually, and mentally. If life were perfect for me, I wouldn't have fake friends who use me, but rather a few genuine companions who support and adore me the way I do them. If life were perfect for me, I'd never be on this forum, anxiously counting down the days to my suicide
 
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kewlkitties

New Member
Jun 19, 2022
1
For me, it would look like this:

1. A family which was amazing and unconditionally nurturing and supporting. No toxicity was present and everyone got along with each other like best friends.

2. I wouldn't have any mental health issues such as depression and bipolar disorder. Not having these would mean I would be able to handle even the most challenging of situations in a way that was fruitful.

3. I was born in a powerful, loving, and wealthy family where I was respected by the world and had the means to better the lives of humanity.

4. Where I had enough wealth to so I didn't have to work, but could travel the world and get away from everything, everyday.

5. Have a partner who was the absolute apple of my eye, where we both would take a bullet for each other.
I love the idea of having the means to better the lives of humanity. There are so many people who could do so much. They just don't …

My perfect life would be me feeling like a person for once. No longer a bundle of depression and anxiety. A body that allows me to do anything I desire. A simple bike ride. I imagine being surrounded by nature and feeling no threat from it. Feeling secure and confident in myself in a quiet way that calms those around me. Money isn't a thing. People heal, and repair, and grow, and cook because they want to. They create. There is a flow of goods and services born out of passion, not greed. Idk. Sounds like a utopia. I just think it would be more peaceful. I just want peace. My perfect life would be a peaceful one. I'm tired.
 
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Deleted member 847

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euphoria 24/7
also being god
that means nothing can ever go against my agenda
no society and no environment is allowed to interfere with my will and happiness

If you do something I don't like, off with your head :pfff:
If I get a cancer, well the cancer better be gone the next second
And I want to feel good every second, for eternity

There, that would be my perfect life
Obviously I would settle for less
But you asked for perfection

Perfection = life is a video game designed just to please me, and I can modify the code whenever I want

Reality = I'm just a slave to dna, the harsh environment and the factions of human beings in it that are stronger
than me because of their higher numbers and better skills(and toys), and can force me to obey "Laws" and do other stuff that I don't like (like cutting my hair when I don't feel like it just to look "presentable" )

The universe would be very different If I was in charge
It would be a paradise to me, but you'd probably not like it
I wouldn't have much use for human beings If I was god, so maybe I'd just
do some magic and make 7 billion people die in their sleep one night
replace all of you with robots

Obviously my perfect life can't have human beings in it, because human beings do things that I don't like, and it'd be a pain
in the ass to reeducate all of you
 
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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
2,297
You know my therapist in my last session asked me that and I just couldn't give an answer. I really just don't know anymore. Even if I had everything a human needs I feel like somehow I'd either ruin it or something else like if I had anhedonia still that I just wouldn't want it or appreciate having what I have. I hate myself not knowing.
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,876
1.Perfect health at all times. Minor illnesses are permitted, but total recovery always follows and quickly.
2.I attract the person I am attracted to.
3.I am never unable to afford what I want or need.
4.Ageing is 100% optional and reversible (technically this could be considered the same as point #1, since ageing is basically a disease).
5. I always have something to do which I look forward to and enjoy, so that I'm never bored. Sad days are once in a blue moon.
 
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Ligottian

Paragon
Dec 19, 2021
965
No offense guys, but isn't this a bit about Christians talking about "What will Heaven be like?". I mean I could give my own answers, but it would still be make believe fantasy. And believe me, I think often about it, even after I've long known better.
 
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Deleted member 847

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No offense guys, but isn't this a bit about Christians talking about "What will Heaven be like?". I mean I could give my own answers, but it would still be make believe fantasy. And believe me, I think often about it, even after I've long known better.
It is.
 
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Ahri

The perfect daughter
Jul 6, 2022
2
Having a mother who occasionally asked me how my day was instead of constantly yelling at me to clean my room or to lose weight.
 
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Dreamsindarkness

Dreamsindarkness

Member
Jul 6, 2022
70
My perfect life is simple. It's exactly what I have (maybe a little more money), but without ridiculous amounts of chronic pain every day. Such a shame
 
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AliceTheGoon

Specialist
Jul 1, 2022
399
I would have my physical health back. I'd take it from there.
 
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obafgkm

Experienced
Jun 3, 2022
217
I have been thinking a lot on this and similar questions. A typical life has say 30,000 days, and each day even if I can know 100 people from interaction, watching movies, reading books, I can only know about 3 million people in my whole life. That's a tiny fraction of the total world population.

If there is such an option to choose the perfect life during reincarnation, I don't even have a good ideas of the options I have.

We are all told our society is already better than others. Country a says it's better than country b, present is better than the past, etc... I don't know but I really doubt that.
 
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Arrow

Rewrite
May 1, 2020
768
a billion dollars in my bank account, no questions asked.
 
WhatPowerIs

WhatPowerIs

Enlightened
Jun 19, 2022
1,036
People who love me and genuinely want to be around me would be a nice start in not feeling like a total waste of a person whose resources should go to somebody more deserving.
 
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Nothingtoadd

Member
Jul 3, 2022
54
After living among people around my surroundings imo life is all about imitating others or copying others, those who are good at will survive.I always lived trying to show other people that I'm also capable of living in this world like others.I had childhood trauma, low self confidence, pressure of expectations all these affected my psychology while growing up, unable to take right decision at right time is an issue which cost me dearly.I were not happy even when I had decent conditions to sustain life, never really enjoyed anything, never treated me better, even while consuming alcohol never used it for relaxation or to make me happy, I totally fucked up my life sometimes I think I'm making lot of excuses to justify my stupidity, selfishness, lack of clear cut thinking etc(I have time to prepare a long post but still not used it to post here without having to edit it later, this is what I'm but still I'm capable of giving instructions to others such a hypocrite)
 
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dreambound

dreambound

Student
Dec 14, 2021
110
1.good health
2. warmth of the sun, ( perpetual summer)
3. live in total isolation in old beach bach (no phones)
4. access to progressive music
5. access to wisdom & understanding (old books)
6. no source of conflict (no carnivores)
7. lots of butterflies......
 
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ojinzo

Specialist
Feb 21, 2022
304
I wouldn't be a black male. Period. I fucking hate living in this body and the results of it. Everyone hates me, especially my own. That is my opinion and I don't feel bad saying it.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Love family purpose cash inspiration health
 
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Symbiote

Global Mod
Oct 12, 2020
3,099
Not having to live life to be perfect in order to feel loved and accepted by society.
 
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