Honestly, I would just like to live an existence where I don't have to be
a slave to an external force. A god-like life where I can just satisfy the selfish animal inside of me all the time (only the desires that
don't involve directly hurting other sentient organisms of course).
I think consciousness shouldn't have a limited decision space.
A mind without restrictions is the closest thing to perfection imo.
Even when I feel pain (physical or emotional) I can't help but think that
if I had some power over my brain, be able to turn on and off parts at will, I wouldn't have to be a slave to its obnoxiousness anymore.
I look at my dogs sometimes, and I kind of feel sorry when I realize that they have such limited minds-brains compared to mine.
I can draw, my dogs can't, I can ask myself question about reality and life, my dogs can't. It's a cosmic injustice.
The best they can do is open a door on their own and remember the time when I slapped them to make them shut up after waking me up by barking loudly, so the next time I put my hands on them they bite it off because they remember the pattern. That's the best their
intellect can do. They'll never write a novel or learn to play the guitar.
That same thought lead me to another thought: What if some being with a more sophisticated mind than mine feels the
same pity I feel for my dogs when looking at me?
And then you live in a world full of other people that don't share your values, and because
they're stronger than you they can impose their arbitrary beliefs and values onto you
You're born in the middle east, you're going to be a muslim,
you were born in soviet russia, you would have been a communist
you have to wear your stupid uniform because every does it
do the stupid fake smile because every one does it
etc.
Society just loves to extort everyone into "normality", and you're just not allowed to play a different game
What's so normal about 50% of the human race having useless high maintenance hair that obstructs their vision is beyond
my ability to understand (one of the many examples of memes gone wrong,)