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FeatheredCrab

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Apr 23, 2025
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I love food. Food is my favorite thing. Genuinely. It doesn't matter if I'm full. I become sad after I finish a meal or a snack because it's gone. It doesn't matter if I'm full. I try to wait for hunger to set in before I eat again, but I can't wait.
If it wasn't for the limitations of the human body (and I had an endless amount of money), I'd eat forever. I don't like it when I'm not eating. When I'm not eating, I feel lost.

Despite my eating habits:
1. I'm not fat. I'm 5'7 and I weigh 158lb. My BMI is 24.9. Technically, according to my BMI, I'm teetering into becoming overweight, but this has been the case for years. For the majority of my teenagehood, I've weighed 160lb. I've never gone over 160lb. Honestly, I feel like it's impossible for me to go over 160lb and I eat garbage. A lot of garbage. Entire family/party-sized meals and snacks in one sitting.
2. I haven't been diagnosed with an eating disorder. Do you have to be overweight or underweight to be diagnosed with an eating disorder? I don't want to be diagnosed with an eating disorder, but my relationship with food isn't healthy. However, physically, it's not hurting me; which is surprising because my mother is an obese diabetic and my sister is extremely underweight.

It could be because I'm active. I'm not in the gym, but I did enlist in the military and, funnily enough, at MEPS, after being weighed, despite my BMI, the examiner told me that I was a little underweight (for a soldier). Regardless, I like to walk. I'll walk for miles for hours.
I love berries. I love broccoli. Fruits and vegetables do not make up the majority of my diet. For the most part, I'm eating nothing, but fast food, frozen food, and snack food. However, I definitely eat more fruits and vegetables than...my mother per se.

I don't know. It's confusing. Physically-speaking, it's not an issue, but, mentally-speaking...I can't be happy without food.

* Physically-speaking, it's so much of a non-issue that I'm scared people won't believe me. I'm not fat, so how am I negatively affected by food?
 
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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

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Feb 9, 2025
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I feel like food is only thing in my life which brings me some sorta pleasure. Especially when I struggle with anhedonia. I also love making food. I made this lasagna recently!

 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
People of any weight or BMI can have an eating disorder.
 
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wiz_miz_03

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Apr 10, 2025
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same here, food and my sleep
 
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LittleMagician

LittleMagician

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Apr 17, 2025
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I love food. Food is my favorite thing. Genuinely. It doesn't matter if I'm full. I become sad after I finish a meal or a snack because it's gone. It doesn't matter if I'm full. I try to wait for hunger to set in before I eat again, but I can't wait.
If it wasn't for the limitations of the human body (and I had an endless amount of money), I'd eat forever. I don't like it when I'm not eating. When I'm not eating, I feel lost.

Despite my eating habits:
1. I'm not fat. I'm 5'7 and I weigh 158lb. My BMI is 24.9. Technically, according to my BMI, I'm teetering into becoming overweight, but this has been the case for years. For the majority of my teenagehood, I've weighed 160lb. I've never gone over 160lb. Honestly, I feel like it's impossible for me to go over 160lb and I eat garbage. A lot of garbage. Entire family/party-sized meals and snacks in one sitting.
2. I haven't been diagnosed with an eating disorder. Do you have to be overweight or underweight to be diagnosed with an eating disorder? I don't want to be diagnosed with an eating disorder, but my relationship with food isn't healthy. However, physically, it's not hurting me; which is surprising because my mother is an obese diabetic and my sister is extremely underweight.

It could be because I'm active. I'm not in the gym, but I did enlist in the military and, funnily enough, at MEPS, after being weighed, despite my BMI, the examiner told me that I was a little underweight (for a soldier). Regardless, I like to walk. I'll walk for miles for hours.
I love berries. I love broccoli. Fruits and vegetables do not make up the majority of my diet. For the most part, I'm eating nothing, but fast food, frozen food, and snack food. However, I definitely eat more fruits and vegetables than...my mother per se.

I don't know. It's confusing. Physically-speaking, it's not an issue, but, mentally-speaking...I can't be happy without food.

* Physically-speaking, it's so much of a non-issue that I'm scared people won't believe me. I'm not fat, so how am I negatively affected by food?
Same I love food but I also fucking hate it bc I hate being constipated
 
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