Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
HorribleFeelings1
Its a hard knock life
- Jan 18, 2020
- 321
Honestly my best friend back, she isn't dead but if it wasn't for me ruining our whole relationship then I wouldn't be on the edge of ending it all. I wouldn't be here at all.
xBrialesana
Become Dust With Me, My Love.
- Dec 17, 2019
- 552
Beauty :/
Not to be dramatic. It would just make up for all the other shit and make it maybe bearable.
I'm sorry you lost your best friend. Can really hurt.
Not to be dramatic. It would just make up for all the other shit and make it maybe bearable.
I'm sorry you lost your best friend. Can really hurt.
HorribleFeelings1
Its a hard knock life
- Jan 18, 2020
- 321
It hurts the most when you're the reason, but it's ok (: and what do you mean beauty, like look prettier?
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
Hey sweetie! I ruined the relationship with my childhood BFF yrs ago too n I'm just too ashamed to even fix it with her after so many yrs.. Is there anything u can do to repair the relationship??
If I had children, my life wouldn't seem so void n I would have more of a reason to live..
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HorribleFeelings1
Its a hard knock life
- Jan 18, 2020
- 321
Time is all left but I doubt I'll get her back. Are you by any chance suicidal? If so, what would you want so you wouldn't be suicidal
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
As women
As women, we can b so critical of ourselves..we can always find something about our face,body that we don't like..so I totally understand n it makes me so upset when I do that to myself..:(
theguineapigking
Useless piece of trash
- Dec 5, 2019
- 593
If I had the inability to see life as it is,maybe I'd want to live. But I'm glad I see it for what it is so that I'm not another mindless drone in society.
I'm sorry to hear you lost your friend horriblefeelings1. Is there any way you can repair the damage?
I'm sorry to hear you lost your friend horriblefeelings1. Is there any way you can repair the damage?
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
If I had children, my life wouldn't feel so void n empty n I believe I would have more of a reason to live..
I would have something to live for...
HorribleFeelings1
Its a hard knock life
- Jan 18, 2020
- 321
I've tried so many times and done the best I can. It's not enough, I just have to let time play in. Thank you though (:
theguineapigking
Useless piece of trash
- Dec 5, 2019
- 593
Do you have any friends? You may be able to find something or someone worth living for. Setting aside your past for just a second,maybe there's that one person you'll find that makes life more worthwhile for you. Good things don't always happen when you want them to. Sometimes they just happen.
If in the future you really want kids,adopting a child would be amazing. I don't know about bringing another child into this world,but of course that's your opinion. But adopting a parentless child can make your own life feel more worthwhile. You'd have a kid,someone to care for and share your love with,while additionally saving them from a life of possible foster parents and moving place to place. Thats just my personal thought :)
Im sorry that your life is full of so much pain. But if you feel hope,maybe you shouldnt give up yet.(I'm not saying you're giving up but I can tell you're really feeling depressed maybe suicidal...)
I wish you happiness.
theguineapigking
Useless piece of trash
- Dec 5, 2019
- 593
It's good you're trying. Sometimes time really is the only answer. Sometimes time is the best healer of wounds.
I hope things work out between you two.Hopefully you can find some kind of happiness either way :)
Hey. If it's anxiety that is your issue,why not try meds? I know the term meds can sound really cliche and annoying. Personally meds didn't help me much with depression. But anxiety treatment is one of the best features many of these meds have. Many depression meds also treat anxiety. I know it's easier said than done though.
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Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
Yes I would luv to adopt but also wanna have my own experience of having my own..I know I can love them like my own biological but..I'm still hoping but idk..I was pregnant before n lost the baby..
I actually have many friends but they don't really know what going on in my head n just how bad my depression is.I mask it very well. Smiling on the outside but dying inside..
Ty so much for ur kinds words n encouragement. It really means alot
My ctb would really take everyone by surprise..no one would even suspect that I was going thru..I am always so busy counselling everyone else n ppl rarely ask what's going on with me..that's my life..Yes I would luv to adopt but also wanna have my own experience of having my own..I know I can love them like my own biological but..I'm still hoping but idk..I was pregnant before n lost the baby..
I actually have many friends but they don't really know what going on in my head n just how bad my depression is.I mask it very well. Smiling on the outside but dying inside..
Ty so much for ur kinds words n encouragement. It really means alot
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Someone that I really liked who didn't feel the same way about me anymore. I would choose him, for him back.
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
theguineapigking
Useless piece of trash
- Dec 5, 2019
- 593
Yes I would luv to adopt but also wanna have my own experience of having my own..I know I can love them like my own biological but..I'm still hoping but idk..I was pregnant before n lost the baby..
I actually have many friends but they don't really know what going on in my head n just how bad my depression is.I mask it very well. Smiling on the outside but dying inside..
Ty so much for ur kinds words n encouragement. It really means alot
My ctb would really take everyone by surprise..no one would even suspect that I was going thru..I am always so busy counselling everyone else n ppl rarely ask what's going on with me..that's my life..
I completely understand. I'm so sorry to hear you lost your baby. That is so heartbreaking. It must've been so hard for you.
I get what you mean about hiding it. I however have my mom to talk to since she gets it. I'm obviously depressed. I can smile,but not really for long. I can't pretend to be happy when I'm really mad and feeling like I want to go hang myself or something like that.
Is there that one friend that maybe you trust more and are closer to than the rest? Could you talk to them? Maybe your parents? I know this forum is Awesome,but it's different than having someone in real life to support you...and despite that,you're usually the one comforting others on here anyways. Don't forget we are here for you as well. :)
nerve
fat cringey shut-in
- Jun 19, 2019
- 1,013
Help and support to build a life I don't dread living in.
klm
life is despair
- Jan 20, 2020
- 32
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
I could talk to my friends but I don't think anyone is gonna understand n the last thing I want is ppl "checking in on" me n babysitting me..u r so lucky u have ur mom go talk to n she understands.my mom would never get it n would end up just being overly worried n I can't do that to her. I told my husband the other day when I was at the edge n he started crying n begged me to not do it n blah blah blah..he ended up babysitting me all day n that pissed me off..I'm much betta, today at least, thx so much to this forum n lovely ppl like u..it has helped me to step outside of myself n my problems n try to encourage others..just don't know when I'll fall back again. One day at a time..ur awesome. Ty
I get it
GrizzlyGrapefruit
Student
- Jun 17, 2019
- 121
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
Health is def a major issue for many, esp debilitating diseases..physical n mental illness can really make life miserable
MsMaudlin
This is the fierce last stand of all I am
- Dec 8, 2019
- 875
Money would be a good cope. Of course it won't solve anything, but not having to work a 9–5 or stress about studies would make life very chill and bearable.
Terminally ill
Member
- May 27, 2019
- 95
health or something close to feeling normal in your body and mind
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
I DEFINITELY second that! $ would answer MOST of my problems..
This.
a.n.kirillov
velle non discitur
- Nov 17, 2019
- 1,831
Enough money for an old truck, a wooden house by a lake with a little forest and enough money to live there comfortably until I decide to kill myself anyways or I die of old age.
Exactly. I had to drop the illusion of changing your character or personality. Imo it's BS and magical thinking. You can't change yourself, what you desire or your inclinations and you can't change the world around you very much. Money would allow you to opt out of the game.
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Nothing, probably. It happened to me several times already that I had some of my greatest wishes fulfilled and it made no difference at all.
voyager
Don't you dare go hollow...
- Nov 25, 2019
- 965
Health, physically and mentally. No doubt about it, and I feel the latter most often has a physical basis, so really it's the same thing. I'm not disputing trauma or nurture, just saying that many MHI are visible on a PET scan for instance, so it's not our imagination gone wild but something very tangible.
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
- 995
