If i had a time machine.....

[Sleepycat]

Id go back to when my mom was pregnant with me and id stomp her stomach in or push her down the stairs. Or go to the hospital directly after im born and throw my infant carcass off the fucking roof. Suffocate it with a fucking pillow. Anything but force me to live it all through. Worthless petty human exhistence.

At this point i should just stop trying to fight the fact that ive always hated human exhistence and anytime it seems not so bad. Its just lies and its always worse than it fucking looks.

 

[FF777]

great scott that's a pretty violent way to abort your self..

if i used a time machine i'd probably tell my mom to marry a different man so my parents wouldn't divorce when i'm 1.5 years old and i wouldn't have a dad that doesn't really care to see me that often..

being human on this planet IS a pretty harrowing experience.. i'm not ready to die quite yet but i'll be glad when it's over, and i am NOT incarnating again; worst mistake of my life..

 

[Sleepycat]

great scott that's a pretty violent way to abort your self..

if i used a time machine i'd probably tell my mom to marry a different man so my parents wouldn't divorce when i'm 1.5 years old and i wouldn't have a dad that doesn't really care to see me that often..

being human on this planet IS a pretty harrowing experience.. i'm not ready to die quite yet but i'll be glad when it's over, and i am NOT incarnating again; worst mistake of my life..

Unfortunately thats where some of my rage stems, my inability to end myself and the cowardice that finds me in every attempt.... but in my imagination i have the ability to ignore the fear and just kill baby me.