If I don't get a job within a year I'm done.

[Lupgevif]

I'm sick and tired of college, wasting time and money on useless knowledge that I'm not interested in and won't even guarantee me a dignified livelihood. The ironic part is that I am attending a course I was interested in, but it turned out to be shit, barely teaching anything, just expecting me to already know or figure out everything by myself. If I had a source of income I could have a better life, affording at least the bare minimum and only stressing about it during the shifts. Mind you, this is not the only reason I'm suicidal, there is a lot more to it, concerning failure, mental illness, apathy, trauma, the state of the world in general, things both intrinsic and extrinsic. This is only the deadline I'm giving myself to try and see if things get better. If I do find a job I'll attempt to transfer to a nightly course and still graduate, but if things remain the way they are right now, I don't think I'll be able to take it anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

It does sound tiring what you are going through and I get that it can be so dreadful having to endure a life that you don't see as being worth living. When you are trapped in a life that you hate having to suffer day after day it really can be such a terrible thing, but I wish you the best.

 

[jodes2]

I'm really glad you're giving it time! I'm sorry you're suffering having a basic income is crucial to wanting to live, I hope you find what you're looking for

 

[CTB Dream]

Acadmi bad try control know make puppet student kill interest ,this all wait time money no have no job also job possible problems, this feel trap situ .human really not advance keep use terrible way study course waste time money no ease keep complicate

 

[well2hell]

You sound keen on learning new things. Perhaps a path that would suit you is looking for an apprenticeship? Not only would you be working and earning an income, you would also have the benefit of obtaining a degree (or at least your future employers would likely recognize it as a form of education).

 

[Lupgevif]

You sound keen on learning new things. Perhaps a path that would suit you is looking for an apprenticeship? Not only would you be working and earning an income, you would also have the benefit of obtaining a degree.

That's indeed something to consider, I'll research about that, thanks for the insight!