if were not considering outsider's reactions, id just want something calm and painless. somewhere private preferably, maybe CO2?
I have several if we're considering other's reaction/response time:
My main one would be shooting myself somewhere remote, but public enough a stranger would be the first to find me. a walking trail or an abandoned building or something of that sort. I'd either just wear something provocative or maybe strip down. I'd have something written/painted somewhere near my body encouraging whoever found me first to engage in necrophilia. however the fantasy is not being fucked when im dead, but rather significantly delaying the finding and identification of my body. Beforehand I'd come up with some grandiose reason nobody would be able to reach me for a long time, then ideally, i'd kill myself, have a creep fuck my corpse and FEEL THE GUILT. and then this guilt would lead said creep to dismember my body or move it or throw it in a river or something. if nobodies concerned for a few months, I'd be all set. I'd eliminate the guilt of my suicide (because if i were to be found and identified it would at the very least seem suspicious circumstances) AND I'd pass the guilt on to honestly someone who could use some.
Otherwise I'd want to die in a way that should traumatize someone of my choice or spark a movement of sorts. I would absolutely love to hang myself in front of my rapists house because he hasn't suffered enough for what he put me through. maybe with specific details of what he did on my body or near it to really drive it home to him or his now wife or his neighbors. And unfortunately a lot of rights activism stuff only really gets going when somebody dies, so maybe a copicide situation that either isn't super transparent or isn't intentional at all and i'm just targeted for existing, but it would need to motivate activism for something im passionate about