Idk what to do

[world is unfair]

I want to commit suicide because I have a mental illness that makes me feel that this world is not real and it's getting worse every day and most of the time I don't know who is making decisions in my life, I feel that there is another person in my body that He is making decisions for me.
Do u feel the same as me.

 

[ADBoy777]

Never thought about it. It reminds me an episode in Black Mirror called "Bandersnatch".
Sounds tough to experience it

 

[world is unfair]

Never thought about it. It reminds me an episode in Black Mirror called "Bandersnatch".
Sounds tough to experience it

Thank you for responding

 

[QueerMelancholy]

Some days I do wonder if my bipolar disorder is the "personality" I am left with now it has affected me more than anything in the last 20 years of my life. I was diagnosed at 15.

I'm 35 now. Like where do I begin and where does the BD end? It ends with my life probably.

 

[Unknown21]

I also find that the world is getting worse every day and I am in a constant state of worry that I won't be able to kill myself in the end and that all the ways are being restricted.
I feel like I'm in a simulation, I don't feel real at all.

 

[world is unfair]

Never thought about it. It reminds me an episode in Black Mirror called "Bandersnatch".
Sounds tough to experience it

I watched this movie today and it seems that I am like the main character of that movie, the only difference is that I can make decisions when I tell myself, remember, this is your life and no one can decide for you.

 

[remluvr]

I relate to this. Life feels like a video game that I have no true control over.

 

[world is unfair]

I watched this movie today and it seems that I am like the main character of that movie, the only difference is that I can make decisions when I tell myself, remember, this is your life and no one can decide for you.

Mine is a little better than that boy's condition was much worse

 

[thirdtimesthecharmg]

I want to commit suicide because I have a mental illness that makes me feel that this world is not real and it's getting worse every day and most of the time I don't know who is making decisions in my life, I feel that there is another person in my body that He is making decisions for me.
Do u feel the same as me.

I don't feel that way but I understand what you're describing.

Have you been seeing any professionals to discuss this?

Do you dislike what He is doing? Have you tried to resist? Has it always been like this?

I watched this movie today and it seems that I am like the main character of that movie, the only difference is that I can make decisions when I tell myself, remember, this is your life and no one can decide for you.

" I can make decisions when I tell myself, remember, this is your life and no one can decide for you. "

That seems very key for you. Hold tight to that and build on it. Don't let Him decide for you if You don't agree. Be whoever you want to actually be.

 

[assisted]

I want to commit suicide because I have a mental illness that makes me feel that this world is not real and it's getting worse every day and most of the time I don't know who is making decisions in my life, I feel that there is another person in my body that He is making decisions for me.
Do u feel the same as me.

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