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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
616
I'm curious to hear if I'm the only one, my ideal method would be stabbing and drowning in the sea, at once, I have a flair for the romantic..

I can imagine myself on a rocky seaside cliff with a scalpel (sharpest thing I can think of), plunging it into my neck and falling to my death into the waves below

Horribly unrealistic, would never be able to do it, and at the same time wonderfully poetic giggle

Do You have any impossible ideal methods?
I'm curious to hear if I'm the only one, my ideal method would be stabbing and drowning in the sea, at once, I have a flair for the romantic..

I can imagine myself on a rocky seaside cliff with a scalpel (sharpest thing I can think of), plunging it into my neck and falling to my death into the waves below

Horribly unrealistic, would never be able to do it, and at the same time wonderfully poetic giggle

Do You have any impossible ideal methods?
Bumping cus I'm curious *
 
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dirkw83

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Mar 4, 2026
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Mmm yeah shooting myself with a shotgun. I just don't think I'd have what it takes to pull the trigger when it came down to it. Maybe if I were very drunk or under the influence of something.
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
616
Mmm yeah shooting myself with a shotgun. I just don't think I'd have what it takes to pull the trigger when it came down to it. Maybe if I were very drunk or under the influence of something.
That's interesting, I always thought of shooting uurself as an easy way out
 
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YourLocalEdgelord

YourLocalEdgelord

"You take my life, I fail to die"
Feb 3, 2026
228
SN. But I'm worried about police showing up. That's been one of my biggest fears since I dropped out of school lol

Alternatively, decapitation
 
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meowpuppy

meowpuppy

valerie | she/they | puppygirl
Jul 11, 2026
396
train, it'd just be so traumatizing to other people, and i'd feel so bad...
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
616
SN. But I'm worried about police showing up. That's been one of my biggest fears since I dropped out of school lol

Alternatively, decapitation
Decapitation is fascinating, I knew of a guy who built himself a guillotine to achieve it, usually I hear of it via car + rope or via train wheel + track, is there other decapitation ways?
train, it'd just be so traumatizing to other people, and i'd feel so bad...
It isn't as traumatizing as people seem to think, I remember when someone died by train, and everyone on the train was just complaining and whining calling the jumper selfish for making them late for work, people suck
 
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FireLegion

FireLegion

New Member
Apr 27, 2026
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I have odd fascination with gore but only drawn/in fiction (im an artist don't judge me lol) but if i ever saw real human or animal guts irl i would probably be sick as hell. I tend to romanticize mortality with our flesh so kind of beautyful way to go for me would be to disembowel myself just to be able to see for the first and last time what made my body work...
But in reality i hate feeling pain so so very much that i never was able to even cut myself on wrists let alone stab myself and drag the blade. In fiction it could be a nice symbolization of smh idk but just the thought of actually doing something so brutal to myself... Yikes
 
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fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
616
I have odd fascination with gore but only drawn/in fiction (im an artist don't judge me lol) but if i ever saw real human or animal guts irl i would probably be sick as hell. I tend to romanticize mortality with our flesh so kind of beautyful way to go for me would be to disembowel myself just to be able to see for the first and last time what made my body work...
But in reality i hate feeling pain so so very much that i never was able to even cut myself on wrists let alone stab myself and drag the blade. In fiction it could be a nice symbolization of smh idk but just the thought of actually doing something so brutal to myself... Yikes
Thatso's cool! Yeah self Disembowerlment is a super cool method in theory but executing it is nearly impossible, unless you're willing to like, you know, buy a super sharp Katana or something and have the guts (pun intended) to go through with it haha
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
2,178
Sometimes I think about going into the bank that tried to sue me in small claims court over a loan with a knife and just start stabbing myself over and over in front of the first, unfortunate bank teller I can find. I've also considered decapitating myself in their parking lot with a rope and my car but I can't see myself ever doing that for real either.
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
616
Sometimes I think about going into the bank that tried to sue me in small claims court over a loan with a knife and just start stabbing myself over and over in front of the first, unfortunate bank teller I can find. I've also considered decapitating myself in their parking lot with a rope and my car but I can't see myself ever doing that for real either.
Thats so hardcore I wish, if humans were less SI inhibited we'd have some epic attempts
 
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HNR_

HNR_

Close to a new start...or meet my end
May 21, 2026
195
Nembutal, plain and simple, only because it's impossible to get

I'd only have to walk for 40-45 mins to the nearest hotel instead of waiting for weeks because of the logistics of it all (talked about the two main hurdles in other threads if you want to know more), rent a room, drink it and not have to live another day without thinking about this shitty world
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
616
Nembutal, plain and simple, only because it's impossible to get

I'd only have to walk for 40-45 mins to the nearest hotel instead of waiting for weeks because of the logistics of it all (talked about the two main hurdles in other threads if you want to know more), rent a room, drink it and not have to live another day without thinking about this shitty world
I dont even know what nembutal feels like, I assume peaceful? I wish it wasn't so hard to get
 
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HNR_

Close to a new start...or meet my end
May 21, 2026
195
I dont even know what nembutal feels like, I assume peaceful? I wish it wasn't so hard to get
Yeah, PPH ranks it as the most peaceful one

It's used to euthanize animals and they never seem to be in pain and people who drank it, before carking it, said they only felt sleepy
 
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fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
616
Yeah, PPH ranks it as the most peaceful one

It's used to euthanize animals and they never seem to be in pain and people who drank it, before carking it, said they only felt sleepy
That's so cool!! ! I wish it was an option, I wont even consider it though, sadly I can't afford it nor do I have the patience for it
 
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decadance

decadance

counting goats…
Feb 18, 2026
30
helium or some other gas that ppl use in the exit bags. it seems like such a peaceful way to go but i think im way too stupid to ever figure out how to get all the materials and set that up
 
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Set Real Goul

Set Real Goul

Does'next on the menu' ring a bell for ya...normie
Jul 10, 2026
166
it's a bit over the top, but I'd grab a large caliber rifle (the snipex alligator) and put a round straight through the heart
 
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fluorescentpearl

fluorescentpearl

Siin me kohtume siis, See on ju armastus hüperbolo
Jul 19, 2026
616
it's a bit over the top, but I'd grab a large caliber rifle (the snipex alligator) and put a round straight through the heart
I'm wondering how one would shoot their heart with a rifle, but it would for sure pack a punch in terms of meaningfulness
 
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PsychedeliaSuicide

PsychedeliaSuicide

Suiciding to get isekai'd to the 60s
Jun 29, 2026
21
VSED, or rather I'd do VSE. I wish it was a more viable method.
 
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Cyaneed

Cyaneed

Å føde meg var strengt tatt unødvendig.
Jul 9, 2026
63
Shooting sounds horrible, jumping, paracetamol intoxication must be painful, but I've tried to cut my wrists under the influence, caffeine intoxication etc. It didn't work apparently. I'm still here. The caffeine intoxication gave me an OBE it was absolutely terrible.
 
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Someday_Somehow32

Someday_Somehow32

Member
Jul 20, 2022
91
Glad to see I'm not the only romantic here, haha. For the past year or two, I've been obessessed with drowning. I just picture walking into the water and never coming back out.
 
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interna

interna

Gone Tomorrow, Here Today
Dec 1, 2025
286
stabbing myself & jumping
 
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sacrilegeofsouls

sacrilegeofsouls

Come undone
Jun 14, 2026
72
I'm curious to hear if I'm the only one, my ideal method would be stabbing and drowning in the sea, at once, I have a flair for the romantic..

I can imagine myself on a rocky seaside cliff with a scalpel (sharpest thing I can think of), plunging it into my neck and falling to my death into the waves below

Horribly unrealistic, would never be able to do it, and at the same time wonderfully poetic giggle

Do You have any impossible ideal methods?

Bumping cus I'm curious
I want to dress up in the finest of garbs do my hair,my skin eat the most delicious food and drink the most soothing drink and then play my piano while carbon monoxide fills the room and eventually puts the lights out. Wait a second I would totally do this sorry that wasn't really an answer was it
 
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100memoryleaks

100memoryleaks

I'm sorry sweetie, I miss you
Jul 6, 2026
226
jumping. i don't know any tall enough buildings nearby that have roof access or any bridges that are high enough. but I would if I did have that chance I would get shit faced drunk, stand on the railing/wall, fall, and go splat
 
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HNR_

HNR_

Close to a new start...or meet my end
May 21, 2026
195
That's so cool!! ! I wish it was an option, I wont even consider it though, sadly I can't afford it nor do I have the patience for it
Oh, it's not even about affordability or patience, shouldn't take too long before you take your last breath once it's in your system and a cup of the stuff shouldn't cost more than like 50 bucks

The real issue's that one can't even buy it unless you live in a region of the world where it's easy but even then, you'd need to get there and hope customs don't catch you if you want to drink it at your place or at some nice spot near it so yeah, basically impossible
Affordability and time would become additional factors in that case as well
 
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